Because it's my first time in love
W. Flower Seed
When I arrived home, Song Kang was already sitting on the sofa, sipping coffee. Seeing him sitting so casually, I stopped my bag, which I was about to throw away, and looked down at him sitting in the living room. "How did you get here so early?" I asked, and Song Kang blinked slowly and calmly replied.
“I left work early.”
No, you're leaving work early just to meet me early? I was dumbfounded and embarrassed, so I stared blankly at him. Song Kang just shrugged. As if leaving work early wasn't a problem. His reaction was so absurd that I sat down next to him and snatched the coffee he was drinking out of his hand.
"it's crazy?."
"what?."
Song Kang tilted his head, his face clearly confused as if he couldn't figure out what was wrong. Attendance is so important to the "life department," why are you giving it up just to see me? Frowning, I looked at him, and before I knew it, Song Kang had come closer, his thumb pressing firmly against my forehead.
And with a very bright smile.
“Are you worried about me right now?”
Are you laughing? I'm being serious right now. Feeling like I was being teased for no reason, I pushed Song Kang's hand away. It would have been bad if my hand had been pushed away, but Song Kang looked at the back of his red hand and touched it. Still smiling.
Seriously, I don't know why Song Kang is smiling.
“Don’t worry. It’s not an unauthorized early departure, it’s an early departure due to illness.”
Song Kang spoke with a smile. I quickly turned my head towards Song Kang and opened my eyes wide. Are you sick? Are you out of the hospital? When I asked, Song Kang hesitated for a moment. Then, with an awkward gesture, he pointed to his forehead and said, “Um… head?”I sighed as I looked at Song Kang, who was laughing like an idiot. He was just pretending to be sick.
Sometimes I can't understand Song Kang.
It seems like he likes me a lot as a friend, but I wonder if he really has a reason to go this far. No matter how much he misses his friend, there's no reason to fake an illness and leave work early to see him. Honestly, it's not like we've seen each other for years. We just met yesterday.
I leaned my head on my arm and stared at Song Kang's face, and soon Song Kang leaned his head on my arm and looked at my face.
“Why? What’s on my face?”
"no."
“Then why are you staring at me like that?”
"I'm wondering how I can fully understand you," I cried out inwardly. Without answering, I stared intently at his face, observing the subtle movements of his expression. Song Kang's lips twitched. He seemed displeased that I wasn't responding.
Then, suddenly, I remembered Taehyung, who had said that my expression was different at school.
‘I told you, it shows on your face.’
“Looking at it this way, it really seems like it all shows on my face…”
"…what?."
“Huh? It’s nothing.”
There was no need to tell Song Kang about Taehyung. It happened a year ago, and unless it was some kind of fate, they wouldn't be meeting again. Honestly, I'm more betting on Song Kang not remembering Taehyung. If it weren't for Taehyung's handsome face, I wouldn't have remembered either...
!
Wait a minute, so Taehyung was staring at my face the whole time? I was shocked when I realized belatedly that he had been staring at me. I thought he only glanced at me occasionally, but I didn't know he would be staring at me like this for a long time.
"crazy…"
I clenched my fist and started hitting my head. How foolish I must have been. I should have acted a little innocent and pitiful! At that moment, I remembered the time I'd pulled out my hair in class because I didn't understand something.
“Hey… Hey hey!! Why are you hitting my head all of a sudden?”
“I’m screwed. I’m really screwed…”
Song Kang, startled by my head-banging, quickly grabbed both of my wrists and stopped me. He tried to hold them as painlessly as possible, but I couldn't free them. When he finally raised his head, his face turned pale, a genuine surprise.
“Put this aside……”
“You’re going to hit me again.”
“No, I won’t hit you. So just let go…”
It was Song Kang, who was giving me a suspicious look. Only after I repeatedly told him I really wasn't going to do it and that it was okay did he let go of my wrist. I caressed his wrist, saying, "It's just that I thought of a scene that would make me want to kick the blanket." Where was the gentle-looking Song Kang from before? His voice was tinged with rage, and he asked, arms folded.
“What the hell, you hit your head too?”
“Oh, that’s… well, there’s something like that.”
I changed the subject for no reason. Towards the cookies on the table. "Haha, those cookies look really delicious," I said, making a loud noise for no reason and changing the subject. I didn't even notice Song Kang's gaze on me.
“Yoon Soo-hyun is acting strange today……”
… …
On the way back from Soo-hyun's house, he opened the passenger door of the black sedan parked in front of the house. Secretary Choi, puzzled by her behavior as if something more important than going home was on the way, quickly understood why. Song Kang spoke in a low voice.
“Secretary Choi, keep an eye on Soo-hyeon. See if there’s a strange guy hanging out next to her or not.”
A week later, Taehyung and I sat side by side on the rooftop bench, drinking chocolate milk we'd bought from the convenience store. It was incredibly peaceful.
He was so unbelievably handsome, I thought people would flock to him. But strangely enough, just like Taehyung said, no one came. Judging by the way he looked at people, it didn't seem like he was completely unpopular... but strangely, no one approached him.
“I think there’s something on my face.”
What broke my thoughts was none other than Taehyung's voice. He seemed uncomfortable with the way he stared at me so openly. "No, it's nothing like that." Feeling a pang of embarrassment, I choked on the straw I'd stuck in my chocolate milk with my front teeth.
“Or, are you looking at me because I’m handsome, like you said?”
Huh?. That's not to say there's no reason... The moment I was about to open my mouth, I put down the chocolate milk and hurriedly covered my face. I wondered if he would read my expression again. For a week, he'd been reading my expressions so terrifyingly, so I thought, "If I can't hide it anymore, I'll cover it up!" I covered my face, but then I heard a "whoosh" of laughter from beyond my hand.
“What’s the point of covering your face so late? I saw everything.”
“Still!!… When I’m with you, I really feel naked.”
I screamed, eyes tightly shut. Taehyung thought for a moment, then took both my hands in his large ones and lowered them. Then, our gazes met without a hitch. Taehyung spoke in a low voice.
“You don’t like me reading your expressions?”
"uh?…"
“I won’t do it if you don’t like it. I’m sorry. I can’t not read it, though.”
The sincere apology is so obvious again. I didn't ask for an apology. I shook my head vigorously from side to side, wiggling my fingers as I spoke. "It's not that I don't like it, it's just... a little embarrassing." It made me wonder if I was that bad at acting, if I was that bad at controlling my facial expressions. Taehyung leaned his shoulder against the back of the bench as he spoke.
“You have a particularly good expression on your face.”
……As expected, I was sitting there with a sullen expression, but Taehyung's next words shook my heart.
“That’s why I like you. Because you don’t hide anything from me.”
“…Good, good?”
“So, don’t hide anything from me. If you don’t want to talk, just say so.Because lying is just disgusting.”
At that moment, my heart pounded so fast. The gentle breeze, the chocolate milk, Kim Taehyung in his school uniform. Every natural object in the world seemed to make Taehyung stand out in this moment.
At that moment, I gave up thinking.
The person named Kim Taehyung is no longer with Yoon Soohyun.Handsome manNot,First LoveIt was the moment when it changed.
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