How many days have passed since then?
Kyungsoo and Jongin lived their daily lives with a subtle distance between them that others could not even notice.
I tried to act as if nothing had happened, but Kyungsoo could tell.
That he's overdoing it...
Even on my days off, I practice in the practice room
I was a practice bug to the point of living
After that day, even after group practice was over,
I stayed late alone and Gyeongsu
I used to come back to my room after I fell asleep.
One day, everyone was exhausted from their tight schedules and fan meeting practice and fell asleep.
Jong-in, who arrived at his dorm at 4 a.m. as usual, sat down on the living room sofa.
I leaned back and looked at the ceiling.
Then he closes his eyes.
after...
My whole body felt heavy with fatigue, but I felt better because I could at least work my body like this and not have any distracting thoughts.
But, when I come into the room, just thinking about being in the same space makes my heart beat like crazy and I miss you
I want to keep being together...
Ha~~~Kim Jong-in... He's sick
It was impossible to give up from the beginning. But it had to look that way.
I had to at least pretend to try.
That way, my brother won't feel burdened... by me.
I won't even apologize...
Pretend it's not true...pretend it's okay...
How long can I do this?
I wonder if I can treat my brother like I used to.
Things that were going well before
Things haven't been going well since I confessed.
My emotions keep overflowing...
I can't handle it_
Phew, I slept well today too.
It just so happened that the room was the same room, so Kyungsoo's
Every toss and turn, every breath
My whole body feels tense.
I can't even ask to change rooms...
Ha...this is really a terrible unrequited love.
A crush and my first love_
I had a crush that I didn't have even during my school days
You're only doing it now...
Psik_
Jong-in lets out a self-deprecating laugh
He got up from his seat, then sat back down with a shallow groan.
Ugh!
I've been practicing too hard lately, so my back hurts.
When I practiced, I was able to do it somehow
The pain that had been bearable turned into excruciating pain every morning.
Ugh!! Ugh!
A groan of pain escaped Jong-in's mouth as he stood up again in search of painkillers. He fell to the floor with a groan.
Someone stopped him from sitting down
I caught him and raised him up.
[Jong-in! What's wrong? Are you okay?]
A voice full of worry.
He was next to me but I missed him every day
Standing in front of Jong-in's eyes, worried about him
He was looking at me with his eyes.
[You've been practicing too hard these days
I thought so...are you okay?]
He was the person I wanted to see so badly
I have severe back pain that is so severe that it hurts my eyes
It seems to be getting blurry.
The moans that keep coming out
Jong-in, holding back, slowly opened his mouth.
[...It's...okay...Tongue...Ugh...Sorry, but I
[Some painkillers..]
[Okay... just sit here for a moment.]
Kyungsoo sat Jongin down on the sofa
Find the painkiller in the drawer and take it with water.
I gave it to Jong-in.
Jong-in, who received the painkiller, was grateful.
I swallowed the medicine with difficulty, along with the words.
Then he collapsed onto the sofa.
Thrown.
Haa~haa~~
Suffering from extreme pain
Kyungsoo also looked down at Jongin
My heart ached.
Because Jong-in has been dancing since he was young, he has no weak spots on his waist or ankles.
So, whenever I push myself even a little harder than usual, I inevitably get sick.
I am.
However, Jong-in is the one who doesn't show it for fear of causing trouble to the team and quietly endures it alone like he does now.
Kyungsoo said as he watched Jongin endure the pain, even breaking out in a cold sweat.
"This won't work, Jong-in! I'll call Manager Hyung, so let's go to the emergency room!"
Kyungsoo turns around as he says that.
Jong-in carefully holds my hand
He spoke in a weary voice.
[Hyung... I'm really okay. I took some painkillers so I'll be okay soon... You don't have to go to the hospital
So...instead...wouldn't you just stay by my side, hyung? Like you always did when I was sick...just today too...
Don't go anywhere and stay by my side.]
Kyungsoo, who heard Jongin's words, remained silent.
I sat on the living room floor next to the sofa where Jong-in was lying and looked at him.
[Okay...I'm not going anywhere, just stay next to me
I'll be there...close your eyes and get some sleep.
These days, I practice until dawn and I can't even sleep
I don't think I can sleep properly...]
Jong-in, who had been staring at Gyeong-su without saying anything, spoke quietly as if talking to himself.
[...It's good...because my brother is by my side....]
Then, as if the tension had eased, he quickly fell asleep.
Still holding Jong-in's hand
Kyungsoo, who was sitting there unable to do anything,
I looked at that kind of person.
Yeah, it's been like that since long ago.
Since childhood, I have been good at showing my pain
When Jong-in is sick, I feel bad for him and want to take care of him.
Kyungsoo was always there to take care of me.
Unlike me who only has an older brother, I only have an older sister, so she is good at expressing herself and is like a cute younger sister, so I like her a lot.
Because I went...but, Jong-in
He likes me more than he likes his older brother, so he treats me like a younger brother a lot.
I did.
'He always tells me that he's taller than me
He treated me like a younger sibling, but when I see him like this, he really is a typical kid...
Heh~ Anyway, I'm finally asleep......'
Even while sleeping, holding onto your own hand tightly
Kyungsoo's seeing Jongin not letting go
A faint smile spread across his face.