* This article was created based on the song "Reason" by Seungkwan.
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“Let’s break up, let’s break up!!”
“Are you serious about that?”
"Uh. Seriously, let's break up, please."
Yes, that was it. Those were just words that came out of a surge of emotion. Truthfully, I didn't want to say them. They were words that came from that single moment of emotion.
That's why I was able to hold you back and wait for you. Because I knew you weren't being sincere.
“..I’m sorry.”
".. are you okay.
I was able to hug you again while you were crying and apologizing, and I was able to express my feelings to you again.
“I love you. Really.”
".. me too"
I just thought it was your way of expressing your feelings.
but,
"Let's break up. I'm serious."
".. why"
".. just"
“…”
“.. Seriously, let’s stop now.”
You broke up with me wholeheartedly, without even giving me a proper reason, and I couldn't accept it. No, I rationalized it this time, thinking it was just a passing remark.
Even though I knew it was poisonous, I couldn't stop. Your name was so deeply etched in my heart, and its mark came back to me as a longing.
I couldn't hate you without even telling you why, and ironically, I didn't hate you either. Am I really crazy about you and a fool?
Everything that was enjoyable when you were there was no longer enjoyable because of your absence.
You were such a big part of my life, so when that big part was gone, a huge hole was created in my life that I couldn't fill.
I'm still waiting for you to fill that hole.
The reason for all my actions was you, and to be precise, it was love.
The reason why I was able to get over it even when people said harsh things to me,
The reason I waited for you so desperately,
The reason I lived longing for you,
The reason I continued to love you even though the end was in sight,
It was all simply because my heart toward you was love. And...
Because my heart is still love.