"Beomgyu, I'm really confused."
"what"
What I said was confusing was,
It was neither a confession nor a new beginning.
(1 hour ago...)
I am as usual,
I was sitting in the classroom studying.
'Dreuk'
"It was here"
"??, Choi Beom-gyu?"
'Thud'
"Talk to me for a minute."
"uh?"
You were the one who dragged me away before I could continue speaking.
'corridor'
"Why did you call me, Choi Beom-gyu?
What more can we say about our relationship that is now falling apart?
"This is a chore, if we just put our minds to it,
"It's something that will allow us to go back to normal"
At first glance, it sounds like it's true, but
My mind has completely turned around
What would be the point of that?
(back to the present)
"Me too...me too! I'm really confused..
What kind of feeling is this...?
Clearly, my mind has changed,
My mouth was just saying that it was confusing.
Is it really true that I am confused?
Maybe... I'm really sick of it?
"I still like you."
Although I was a little shaken by his words,
I quickly came to my senses
"Then I should have caught it sooner,
What's the point of saying that now?
Our relationship has already turned around
It is stuck in a state where it cannot recover,
But what else is there to do?"
"You, really.."
I was a little scared of you speaking with a frown on your face
Yes, I spoke to you.
"Stop it now,
Do you know that what you're doing is really pathetic?
I can't stand my surging heart
The line was crossed too far.
"...."
You were silent for a long time, then
I shed tears like a tragic male protagonist.
"Hey, are you crying?"
I was worried because of the old relationship
'Sniff'
"I hate you..."
"..."
When he saw me with sad eyes, his heart gradually weakened.
If we break up now, I'll be so guilty that I won't be able to sleep for the rest of my life.
"Isn't that too much?"
Whenever I cry, I am overwhelmed by your ability to quickly set the mood.
"Sorry..."
"Are you going to break up now?"
"...no.."
Again... I lied...
I really don't have feelings for you, but I'm overwhelmed by you
I hate myself so much for not being able to speak.
"Hehehe"
Seeing you smiling again made me feel even more guilty.
(and a week later)
"Break up, I'm leaving this guy I don't care about anymore
"I feel like I have no feelings."
I think I've endured a lot too.
But you are probably changing
You must have been hurt a lot by me.
I'm sorry, but I want to break up right now.
"Yeah, I'm sick of you too. Was it hard? Haha
I knew it all, because I'm weak-hearted
“Did you meet him again?”
I was surprised.
You knew everything...
So how much deeper was the wound?
"You don't see me as a romantic interest anymore?"
"...huh..."
I guess it's not yet, since the reply is late...
It is also your choice, so I decided to follow it.
"Okay, let's not see each other again haha
I don't mean it maliciously, but when we meet now
"We're in an uncomfortable relationship."
"okay."
So we didn't meet for 10 or 20 years because of that.
I think we will probably never meet again in our lifetime.
But maybe it's because it's old times
I think about it sometimes.
How are you doing?
I regret saying that.
Why did I tell you not to see me again?
Couldn't we just stay friends?