A cold, snowy midwinter day.
It may be a romantic and emotional season for some people,
It's just a merciless season that makes me feel more lonely.
But even though I have the urge to die, I resist it.
I don't know why.
I didn't even know why I was living and I wanted to die.
Why is there no hope for me?
I always went to the rooftop with that thought in mind.
If you still can't stand it
Climb up the railing.
Even when I stand at the threshold of death
But I'm scared so I give up.
I don't think I can make it through today.
I have to die today.
Some people have hope,
Someone else dreams of a new beginning
On this special day called Christmas.
I just wanted my death to be special.
I climbed over the railing and stood there.
Ah, now this tiresome life is over.
"In my next life, I won't care about other people and just go my own way.
I want to be a person who lives like that.
Even if someone bullies you, stand up for yourself...
"I hope to be someone who can overcome obstacles..."
After saying these things
I was about to fall.
Just then someone opened the rooftop door.
"!!"
The person who opened the door was surprised to see me
He came to me soon.
"What are you doing? Why don't you come down quickly?"
"No, I just had to work up the courage!!"
Then he grabbed my wrist and waist and kept me from falling.
He grabbed me and dragged me to the rooftop.
"Haha..what are you doing, what did you do wrong?
I'm going to die!!"
"Ugh...what are you saying...when you don't know anything?"
Soon I burst into tears.
"Ugh...I'm crying,
Sometimes crying helps.
I feel like I've been holding it in all day, but I just cry."
So I cried in his arms.
Like a child...
.
.
.
"..Did you all cry?"
"yes.."
I felt embarrassed for no reason.
"What is your name?"
"..Choi Ye-rin...is..."
"Yerin, my name is Choi Yeonjun.
But please call me without my last name.
I feel bad when you call me by my last name><"
"Yes... Yeonjun... how old are you?"
"I'm 27 years old!"
"Uh...me too...27 years old..."
"Really? We're friends? You can stop talking!"
"Okay...okay!"
It was the first time.
I made a friend.
Since then, I have been in contact with him more often.
Whenever I had a problem, I always confided in him.
.
.
.
📞"But just ignore that
Or you won't be able to hold out"
📱"But you're not scared? Something like that?"
📞"If it were me, I'd just ignore it"
📱"Haha, you're doing great~
Face, personality, singing, dancing. Everything."
📞"Hehe, it feels good to hear compliments??"
📱"Is this you?"
📞"If you're a kid, it seems like it's good to be young lol"
📱"Haha"
📞"Do you want to go to our amusement park for 2 days and 1 night??"
📱"? Really?"
We had fun together
It's always been like that.
So the day I promised him arrived.
That day, I didn't wear any special makeup and even perfume.
I came completely dressed up.
.
.
.
"Oh, Choi Ye-rin, why are you wearing makeup?"
"Ah, this is so good.."
"I like..."
"It's my first time here with a friend, so I'm glad you're here, you punk."
"Ah lol"
"What did you mean by laughing?"
"Oh, just lol"
.
.
.
We did some memorable activities.
It definitely seems like it was more fun being with him.
And so night came.
"How do you decide between 190304 and 99913?"
"I'll decide that later and tell you what I have to say."
"What is it?"
I sat next to him.
"I like you.
What do you think of me?
Confession... that was it...
"..."
"Well...if you don't like it...don't..."
"good."
Spit it out.
Saying that you like me.
I thought about those words and kept them buried in my heart.
"we, "
"Do you want to date me?"
That's how we started dating
We got each other.
Recently, I've been thinking about getting married
We were close and loved each other.
I've lived my life knowing that love is painful
Not at all.
Even if something difficult happens, it's because of that person
I persevered and loved hard.
love.
I don't think there's anything more happy than that.
Sometimes it's painful and hellish
Beyond the word happiness
There was too much love.
We were there for each other when times were tough.
Even though we will break up someday
We don't seem to be.
The old me was lonely, shy, and friendless.
If you were a person.
I feel like I'm a much more mature and happier person now.
No matter how difficult the situation is, we love each other
They will shine towards each other.
I will love you for the rest of my life
I love you, I love you.