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"Because you're young, you need intensive treatment, even now. Cancer is a disease that becomes more fatal the younger you are."
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After being diagnosed with stage 2 stomach cancer, I immediately began hospitalization and treatment.
But cancer at a young age was the worst.
Because they were young, cancer cells moved faster and took hold more tenaciously..
It was a body that felt different every day.
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The hospital room door opens, and a man walks in with the sound of his heels.
Approach cautiously.
“How are you feeling?”
“Huh… It’s okay…”
“I’m fine every day…
I couldn't be there for you during the chemotherapy because I had an important meeting today...
“It must have been scary and difficult, I’m sorry…”
The man feels sorry that he couldn't be there for him,
I was feeling a sense of disappointment with my girlfriend who always said she was okay.
Maybe because of that feeling, he touches the sheet once more
Rubbing shoulders that are not stiff, etc.
He was expressing himself through actions rather than words.
He was sitting on a folding chair and looking only at his girlfriend.
In his gaze, honey and tears could not mix.
“Yeon-ah, can you only give me good news?”
After hearing his words, she said,
I couldn't easily open my mouth to answer the question.
As I said before, every day feels different
Because you feel your own body better than anyone else.
“I ate half a bowl of rice today.”
Since I was diagnosed with stomach cancer, the amount of food I eat has decreased significantly.
At some point, the words that anyone could say in an ordinary way changed into words filled with pride and pride.
Whenever he heard such words, he would rather ignore them than take them lightly.
I was busy praising him, saying, ‘Well done.’
“Well done, our Yeon.
When I was young, my grandmother said,If you eat a lot of riceIt hurts
They said I'd get better soon.So Yeon will get better soon.
His compliments left a gentle lingering impression deep in her mind
Before we knew it, darkness had fallen.
The wards turned off their lights and began to settle down for bed.
She, like everyone else, began to prepare for bed.
"Aren't you uncomfortable? Should I spread out the blanket a little more?"
"Excellent. Okay, so I'm going to go now. I have to go to work tomorrow, right?"
"I'll make sure you're asleep and then I'll go."
Even though I check on her sleeping figure every day and tell her that I'm going to go, she tells me to go before I even fall asleep.
I feel sorry.
Was it something he said to try to ease his feelings of guilt even a little?
Or maybe it was just an insufficient word.
Time passed and seasons changed.
The weather changes from summer to fall and then to chilly winter.
that I stepped in between.
There were many twists and turns in it.
At her words that she was tired of cancer treatment and wanted to stop receiving treatment
He was so angry that he didn't come to the hospital room for several days.
And because of the great pain, I was in shock,
The moments where I could see the blood and soil began to decrease more and more frequently.
Also, I reached the point where my stomach cancer would progress from stage 2 to stage 3 or 4.
Her body began to become thinner and thinner,PainkillersAs the amount of blood began to increase, narcotic painkillers had to be administered.
Now I really feel the exhaustion of each day
It was a time when I had lost interest in life.
“Teacher, you are in cardiac arrest!..”
She suffered cardiac arrest again.
The nurse thought that this time it might really be the last time.
Quickly call him, the guardian.
“Hey, patient, this is cardiac arrest. Please come to the hospital quickly.”
He was enjoying the breeze and drinking coffee with his colleagues during lunch time at work.
I heard two words I didn't want to hear.
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He squeezed his eyes shut and, as soon as he opened them, ran to the company parking lot. He even speeded as he ran towards her.
As he went, there was only one thought in his mind.
‘Please, I hope this isn’t the end.’
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He arrived at the hospital and ran to the patient's room without even being able to park.
Boom! -
The hospital room door swings open with a loud noise.
Inside, there was a large white cloth covering it.
But I walk slowly, one step at a time,
Standing in front of her.
‘I ate half a bowl of rice today.’
The voice of these words suddenly flashes through my mind.
I wanted to tell him that he did well, that he held on well.
This time I couldn't say anything.
As soon as I took her hand that was slightly out next to the white cloth,
His eyes areIt was a well that never ran dry.
He couldn't let go of her hand,I shed tears.
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This article is based on personal material.
I'm writing this because I wanted to write something after a long time.
I hope this was a good article for the readers.
I'll be going now.
