“ … ”
“ … ”
It's awkward. It's even more awkward and awkward than when we met again in Korea. Honestly, it still doesn't feel real. It's been about a month since I last saw him...
Can something like this magically appear right in front of me?
“..I missed you.”
“ ..is that so?”
"You...? Didn't you want to see me?"
“..Why did you fall?”
" yes ..? "
“I asked why you fell.”
“..I collapsed for a moment due to overwork.. The reason I was overworked was.. “
“ … ”
“ .. The feeling of despair as if I had lost my destiny made me sad all day long.”
“ ..!! “
“When I had my eyes open, tears flowed like crazy, and when I forced myself to close them to stop them...”
“ … ”
“Because the vivid memories of you came back to me and drew me back to you.”
“ … ”
“That’s the way I chose to go… but in the end, I think it’s okay since I met you.”
"Are you okay..?"
“..at least until I collapse, there has been no greater misfortune than not having you by my side.”
“..why on earth”
“On the contrary, there is no greater happiness than having you by my side right now.”
“.. Isn’t it okay if you just hate me, dislike me, and despise me?”
“ … “
“Why on earth would you throw away your body like this..!!”
“You didn’t make it like that. I’ve never hated, loathed, or despised you.”
” ..!! “
"You made me love you. You made me love you to death, and now you hate me..."
"But.. it definitely hurts"
“I can’t let the wounds grow inside me on their own. They only hurt as much as you gave them. But right now, this feeling…!!”
” … “
"You're bigger than you think. You... you... "
Gulp,
"You made it so beautifully..."
“ … ”
The biggest reason I can't forget you is precisely fate, and it wasn't something grand. It was just...
“I still like you and want you this much..”
” … “
“There is no day without you in my world anymore..”
” … “
“How could I live without you?”
“ … ”
I already think I'm half-crazy. I thought I was at least half-crazy the moment I stopped thinking about him. So now I think I'm absolutely, truly crazy.
But.. I definitely think that it's not strange.
“..is it true that you really hate me?”
” … “
“It’s really absurd that someone like that is taking care of me.”
“ … ”
" ..at least if it's not something I hate"
” … “
“If that’s not really the case...”
“ … ”
“Can you hug me just once..?”
” … “
If you didn't break up with me because you really hate me, or at least you don't hate me now...
at that time,
Knock knock,
"Oh my, Sunyoung is here."
” ..!! “
" you are .. "
It was the woman I saw at the cafe last time. The half-crazy woman. I'm even crazier now, but back then, she was definitely crazy. Of course, she still looks that way.
But why is that woman in my hospital room... and why is Kwon Soon-young...
“I guess you thought I wouldn’t know if you came secretly like this.”
“ ..!! “
“Didn’t I tell you before? This place is mine.”
"What the heck.. "
"..? Doesn't that woman know anything?"
“ … “
What don't I know..? By the way, when did you two become so close..? Or maybe you didn't become close?
"Let's meet. From the day we broke up."
“..!! What did you say..?”
“ … ”
“I guess we really didn’t talk about anything~”
"Ms. Kwon Soon-young, what is that now..."
"I teased you a bit, and surprisingly, you came right away. To me."
"What..?"
“Do you know that I am the younger brother of the hospital director here?”
“..!! The hospital director’s younger brother..?”
"Yes. And this is a private hospital, right?"
“ … ”
" no way .. "
“I had a talk with you about your seat, but you broke up right away?”
” ..!! “
That was it. That was the reason he couldn't tell me. He couldn't say it was because it wasn't real that he hated me.
But I understood Kwon Soon-young's feelings. None of the pranks she played seemed unrealistic or insincere.
"So, let's say that nursing up until now has been an act of humanitarianism. It simply stems from a sense of duty as a soldier."
” … “
"If you want to take this guy back.."
” … “
"Stop being a doctor here. I mean, I'm going to put everything on the line."
” ..!! “
” … “
Kwon Soon-young stared at the ground in silence, and I understood the significance of his actions. He must have felt remorse after his lies were discovered, but at the same time, he must have hated himself for being unable to do anything about it. If it were him...
"Well, that's it for me. By the way, the deadline for selection is tomorrow."
“ … ”
“ … ”
With those words, the woman left the hospital room, and another void was created between us.
It felt like a blank space that could never be erased.
At least now that I know the truth, I can no longer cling to that person.
“.. On the day we broke up, I heard there was no reason, and I thought there was no reason for him to tell me.”
” … “
"But the reason is this.. "
" .. I'm sorry. "
At that moment, I remembered what I had said in Uruk in the past.
(( .. the problem is that the lieutenant doesn't want the consideration ))
(( That's it.. ))
(( So that's not consideration. ))
(( … ))
(( Of course, I don't understand this boss... ))
(( … ))
(( The more this boss is like that, the more Lieutenant Ha... ))
“ … ”
(( It's sad. More ))
•
•
(( Don't do that to me, okay? ))
(( Then even if it hurts, it hurts together. We ))
(( great. ))
“..Maybe this was a consideration for me for Kwon Soon-young”
“ … ”
"In conclusion, I am sadder now"
“ ..!! ”
“We agreed to be sick together, didn’t we? That was a promise… right?”
“ … “
Swish,
“So you can’t trust me and suffer with me..?”
“ … ”
I know it wasn't an easy decision. But... you were the one who told me it was fate. So...
But as expected, Kwon Soon-young just looked at the ground without saying anything and tried to lower her hand that was extended towards him.
widely,
Swish,
“ ..!! ”
“ … ”
Hug,
“G.. Kwon Soon-young”
“..I’m sorry. Really.”
“Uh.. no, I”
Gulp,
“Is Kwon Soon-young crying..?”
“Ugh.. I’m really sorry. I’m sorry.. ”
“..It’s okay. It’s really all okay.”
Pat,
Pat,
I hugged Kwon Soon-young without saying a word. Knowing that her circumstances, perhaps even more painful than mine, were now more profound, I could only pat her back as she sobbed.
This is why I can't hate this person.
After a while,
Swish,
"Did you all cry..?"
" .. yes. "
“I understand your feelings and circumstances, so please stop being sorry.”
" .. I have no words. Really "
“Would you like to look into my eyes just once?”
” … “
"Hurry up. We don't have time."
” … “
Swish,
” … “
“ .. I really like your eyes. You’re pretty when you cry and when you smile.”
".. Miss Yeoju"
"What's really cunning about me is that since you're gone, everything about you has become precious."
” … “
"Especially now, those eyes are so precious. Like that.."
” … “
“Those eyes that look at me warmly.”
" .. he "
" he .. "
We finally looked at each other again and smiled. The first time he looked at me coldly, it felt like the world was freezing, but now it feels like all my hardships are melting away.
He is truly my destiny in many ways.
And thanks to that smile, I can now make a decision.
"Ms. Kwon Soon-young."
” ..? “
“..I give up.”
“What is that...”
“I’ll quit being a doctor and come to you.”
" ..!! that .. "
"You said it. Military romances are more exciting than office romances."
“No, no matter what..!!”
"If I think about it, I don't think I've ever had a single moment of enjoyment as a doctor."
” … “
It wasn't a sudden thought. It was something I'd been feeling even more strongly since our breakup. Not a single moment had been enjoyable as a doctor. From my college days until I became a professor.
There were definitely times when I met Kwon Soon-young and had fun, but that wasn't because I enjoyed being a doctor.
And the thing I felt the most after we broke up was,
"The two months I've known you are more precious to me than the 20-plus years I've spent with you. At least for now."
“ … ”
“Those short two months are now much more precious and enjoyable than my 28 years, which were the most precious to me so far.”
” … “
"So just me and..."
At that moment,
widely,
“ ..!! ”
“ … ”
Kwon Soon-young grabbed the back of my neck and gently kissed me. It was deep and passionate, just as I'd longed for. I felt like crying, but held it back. In a way, this was a truly joyful moment.
It seemed like it would be two hours that would surpass those two months.
Kwon Soon-young slowly pulled her lips away from mine and looked at me with a faint smile.
It was that smile. The smile you gave me two months ago.
“..is that really okay?”
“There’s nothing I don’t like when I’m with Kwon Soon-young.”
Swish,
“Really.. really really.. ”
“ ..? ”
“I guess we are destined.”
“ .. That’s right.”
And so, once again, my world was being colored by that person, and I was trying to create it anew. It was as if it had been a different world from the beginning.
" .. i love you. "
“Are you saying you love me first now?”
"Because now it's time to love."
"So, does that mean you didn't love each other until you broke up?"
“What… I didn’t realize it?”
" her .. "
Hug,
“I love you. Really.”
“..I have loved you from the beginning until now.”
“I’ll try that from now on. Well, I’ve already started.”
" Haha.. I really can't win against this girl"
" he .. "
This is truly my destiny. This is my lovely destiny, the one I will never meet again in this life.