I tried to keep my feelings under control because there is nothing I could do to change this situation, my friend and exmanager was traveling back home. I love him like a family member because he saw me growing up, and struggled next to me until today... I know he is just a phone distance, but it's not the same as having him, to give me strength just as he patted my shoulder.
The ride to the hospital was a little uncomfortable since everyone was silent, I looked at the man next to me lost in thoughts, he didn't seems nervous about his operation. I didn't noticed Yoongi's presence at all, he is a bit distant compared to the others, the night we shared I didn't thought he would open his cube enough to not to care to sleep in that messy position for hours. The lights from the dark streets made his pale skin glow up, that detail I have noticed it before.
We arrived to the dark and empty parking of the hospital, it started to rain and the place looked like the scene of an horror movie. The cold air got the best of me and I struggled to follow them inside the building. I felt Yoongi look in my direction but I tried not to make visual contact
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I walked around thinking about the revolting girl that will stay with me for a long time, she was hiding her face from me, it was cute and new. Baby never cared before who would stare at her, she would be permanently strong and confident... but after that man departure she became small and unable to stand up against me, as she would usually do.
The night before, she naturally accepted the situation, didn't cared enough about her personal space, when she passed out in my bed as if she was inside the safest room in the world. Baby was harsh in the morning telling the boys about my 'morning incident', she didn't even cared what they will think about her sharing my bed.
I noticed that any movement will startle her, I asked for her to hurry up to offer her my hand as she walked a step behind me, Baby didn't let go of my hand until I had to use it to do what the nurse said, to arrange my stay in the hospital. Her eyes popped up when she realized who I was, she probably only knew exactly a famous was coming but didn't know it was me.
Baby also explained the importance of being secretive about it and used her stage surname, to ensure that nobody that wasn't on my side would get information about me, my patient name was also Honey Brown husband of Baby the nurse enjoyed the nickname and the playful manners the girl was showing right now.
I was confused, how much she could fake that child like personality? when a moment before I used my hand to keep her calm, in the horrible night the weather decided to send our way.
I studied the behavior of that stranger who could show a brilliant smile to middle-aged woman afterwards the broken self she was, after the man took his flight. The love I thought she had was already forgotten? It was fake too? Why that was disturbing my mind this much.
Once alone in the room she was closing the door as she was told but I used the opportunity to open my mouth, next to her ear as she the only thing that could do was to stare to that door and feel my body behind her, she trembled in place as my breath reached her ear
- what are you?- I waited for an answer, to see if she would push me back but she just stood closer to the damm door. I got closer too, positioning one foot at each side of hers.
- where is all that sadness you brought from the airport? Are you such a good actress to change moods so easily?- I said in a husky voice because I didn't want to be heard from outside.
Baby didn't answer to that question and was setting fire inside of me. I hate when people keep silent when I am seriously asking for answers and turned her around. She was looking to the side but I lifted her face slowly, I didn't wanted to hurt her, she just followed my lead.
We hold stares, Baby didn't tried to scape, I couldn't understand her, her respiration became more agitated and I repeated my first question so close to her that my tongue felt her lips as I liked mine as I usually do, when I am ignored and frankly frustrated as I am now.
Someone knocked and I hurried to the bathroom and washed of my makeup and tried to calm myself down, I was about to be opened up to be operated and the only thing crossing my mind was her and how closer I went. I am a straight forward guy when I want, but I never harassed someone like this, I looked to myself in the mirror and I couldn't understand myself either.
- Baby can you bring the hospital gown? I forgot it somewhere - I asked and she answered politely to give her a moment. I finished cleaning up and washing my teeth when she knocked and I made her come in, instead of taking the clothes at the door.
She came in and handed the piece of clothing, I didn't take it just moved my head towards where I wanted her to leave it. Baby truned to let me change alone but I didn't wanted her to scape
- Help me change - it came out like an order and she looked at me, before she decided to do it, Baby tried no to touch my stomach as she pulled up my t-shirt, my good arm was out without stressing much
- now get your hands under it and cover my earnings - I demanded, she was about to do it from behind but I posicioned myself as I wanted, to see her face.
She was beautiful all pink from blushing so hard, Baby was trembling as she carefully protected my ears so nothing would get caught by accident, I can do it properly by myself but I wanted to mess with her. I took her wrists and pulled her hands down making it impossible for her not slide her hands all the way down to my waist, Baby stepped back as much as possible as soon as I opened my hold on her. I made her tie up the gown before I said I could continue alone as I worked on my belt to open it, her eyes became big before she hurried outside.
I took my time to collect my things and bring them back out for her to fold them into the bag we prepared earlier, Baby also took care of the things I carried on my pockets.
The nurse checked me out, from head to toe, as I hoped on the bed for her to take my pressure and temperature. Everything was perfect, the woman was around my age and I recognized those behaviors that flirty girls had on fan meetings. I didn't particularly cared about it, as long as they respect the distance.
The nurse prepared to install an IV on my good arm, she took her sweet time to find where to place it.
She noted everything on my medical instructions, told us to try to rest until they came to prepare me to go to the operation room and also remarks to my "visit" not to use the empty bed. Baby made a polite bow before she mimicked the nurse about her recommendations. I did my best to not to laugh because is difficult to me to handle her mode swings.
Without any word she just changed her clothes into a pretty pijamas, I was about to protest but my right state of mind had disappeared as I saw all of that tanned skin exposed, then being covered by that perfect attire, to stay around the hospital, a big sweater over and she could go out the room without looking bad just comfortable.
We tried to get some sleep but I'm a night owl and still wanted some answers. But before I had the chance to speak Baby asked me if I was awake
- uhum, I doubt I can sleep until they drug me - the only possible way to sleep this days is to lay on my good side, but with the IV was impossible to move over that side without damaging the needle.
Baby put down the rest arm of her chair it didn't look comfortable at all and told me to come over to sleep on her lap. She was using her yellow sweater as a pillow so I carried my pillow to replace it, the girl told me hop over and rest over her, we were more seated than last night but it was really comfortable we managed to cover ourselves enough to be warm, our feet were left bared, but inside the hospital was hot enough to let it be.
- I can't understand you... you are so difficult to read... your moods change so quickly...- I said turning my face to look at her, Baby was really close, I could smell the scent on her, the hotel amenities, the same I was using today when I got ready in the morning.
- my mood doesn't change that easily... is just that others doesn't need to know what I don't want them to notice, I don't mind being a crybaby around you, that is why I didn't forced myself to show that I was fine being alone so far away from the people a really care and your behavior, also makes me focus on the present, only on what are you saying or doing to me, it didn't happened before... I am usually captable to control myself better and not believing their words that quickly, I know I don't have much physical shyness on me, because the way I grew up with a lot of people around having to perform their part holding my body as needed, of course I met my share of inappropriate partners... but never really bad happened to me. I could definitely protect myself or ask for help anytime - I accidentally moved at the same time she did and we were really close, I had my hands on each side of her and she moved her arms around my waist trying not to touch where she shouldn't. I wanted to held her but not here I wanted to be left alone with her on a more proper place and circumstances.
- sorry for bothering you before... I was so frustrated with you... I think I need to know you better... before I go so strongly on you - she breathed harder I felt her heart beating like crazy as I said those words.
- I don't have much idea about men, I have friends but I didn't wanted to open up to them... in my mind I start to heard no, no, no... to stop their moves on me but right now my mind is completely useless, it's only completely focused on you Yoongi, on your voice on how comfortable I am, how can I make you want to do more, I... want to kiss you right now... but I not going to start it... it is just my body wants your attention - Baby said it mixing up languages.
- you can touch me - I unceremoniously said and moved one of my thumbs to touch her skin lightly, she answered that I was a demon but didn't move much. I started to become ready to fall asleep
- Baby.... let me give you a goodnight kiss - not moving at all
- I can't... If I do, I'll probably fall in love for a sweet treat like that- she said rubbing her nose on my neck so I couldn't land one by mistake but bited her playfully before telling her that I was tired.
At some point I felt something drop on my skin like a drop off water but she was sleeping peacefully holding me in place so I wouldn't fall out the chair. I tried to focus on what was bothering me, but a strong knock on the door startled us and we hold into each other, she told me to get a better hold on her and Baby moved us, she was strong enough to get up holding me like a baby and get me seated on the bed, before she waddling away and reached the handle to open up.
The nurse came in trying to figure out what happened inside the room, but being the two of us half awake and perfectly dressed, she turned on again the flirty mode to get me ready to recibe the doctor.
She truned on the lights almost burned my eyes and Baby pulled a cup from her bag to protect my eyes, I held her hand as she walked away to use the bathroom. She came more alert and helped me out from bed to go to the bathroom, I wanted to wash my face and my mouth but my arms were stiff and I couldn't use my good arm because the IV was attached blocking the movement of my elbow.
Baby came in and used a wet cloth to wash my hands and helped to briefly brush my teeth and let me finish my issues alone since I was varely dressed. The doctor was already inside, asking how was my night and she told him the position we had to use so I could get some sleep and after marking again my shoulder, the previous one had faded a little they seated me on a wheelchair and changed the IV to the back of my hand, I was very grateful for that.
One bodyguard stayed in our room to take care of our things Baby only took our phones that were charging and I unblocked it for her if she considered it necessary use it. She was calling my parents but it might be my brother who picked up because she asked for my mother and he probably was telling something about the hour, because she moved her phone away from her ear.
I asked for it as we moved around the hospital and told my brother to shut up and tell everyone that was about to be operated and cut the call because I despite when he acts without thinking.
We entered the elevator so she didn't pick up the call until we were safely outside the machine. It was my mum that wanted to hear my voice before I entered and I said that I loved every one and to talk with Baby as much as she wanted, also not to worry. She asked if the girl next to me was pretty and I just answered "very much" trying to be smart enough for Baby not to find out. My mom asked if we had any kind of relationship but I told her that not yet and ended the call here.
I got a moment to talk alone with Baby as they prepared to enter the disinfected area
- Give me a kiss before I go - I said as she looked at me, Baby looked around and gave me a very little peek, pulling up our face mask into place and using the cup she put on me earlier. Her eyes watered but hold them in. I was taken inside and couldn't look back at her.