5-year opportunity

If only I hadn't gone out that day. I vividly feel that bright light, that loud blaring horn. "I'm already dead. I've already given up. What do you want me to do?" The five years given to me, now dead, are a chance. He tells me to do what I've always wanted to do. "This is my greatest gift." "Then if you're going to spare my life, then spare me." The last five years given to me. Let's live well and die.