My 2020 Experienced:
🌿ikako Becomes My Comfort Song 🌿
I just want to share what I experienced last year.
January 2020, Taal Volcano that is located to the province where I live errupted. Never comes to my mind that I will experience rain of ash. I remembered, I was in a bus going to Manila when suddenly an ash fall occured. My hometown luckily is not destroyed that time. But still, it broke my heart. Many of my acquaintances have been affected.
I thought it was over, then COVID-19 happened. March when the government announced a total lockdown. That time I'm still in Manila rendering my last day of work. Luckily before the start date of implementation I was able to go home. What I thought would be a one-month lockdown suddenly turned into two, and it lasted even longer.
To be honest,March to May 2020 were the hardest months for me.My family didn't know that I almost want to end my life that time because of something I experienced that really triggered my mental health. And I'm still fighting that demon inside me.
October when I lost my job again and until now I still can't find anything. November when we experiencing a lot of typhoons. So many people drowned in the floods, losing their livelihoods, friends, and family.
Every time that I feel hopeless Because of what's happening around me, I always play the ikako.
"Even when times get dark, light will shine. We will face it together. Remove fear from your heart. All this will pass. There is no trial that you cannot overcome."
It's helps me to find hope and gives me comfort despite of what is going on.
Whatever happens, we will rise! Keep going!