2018.08.19
Today too, I am by your side as your friend, Byun Baek-hyun, Kim Yeo-ju's friend who makes it possible for you to live each day happily and without getting bored. You have always said hurtful things to me, such as calling me your friend or saying that we should still be friends after 10 years.
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2018.11.30
Today, he invited me to his house to have chicken and beer to celebrate Friday. He can't even drink.
You're 21 years old, but why do you still look like a high school student to me? I don't know when that open front door closes, but I pretend not to know and ask what you did today. You said you were going to hang out downtown with Soo-jeong and Ji-eun, but since they didn't come out, you walked around alone.
I pretended not to be sick and told you, "Let's watch a movie at my house today."
You smiled brightly at me and said you liked watching 'Along with the Gods'.
After cleaning up the beer and chicken that were more than halfway through, we headed to the convenience store. I grabbed Kim Yeo-ju's favorite caramel popcorn and headed to the checkout counter. Kim Yeo-ju stopped by the alcohol counter and stared blankly for a while.
He came to me smiling.
After paying the bill, I looked down because I just wanted to see the female protagonist's face, and I saw a face I didn't recognize. I pretended not to see her and took her hand, and that's how we arrived home.
We sat down in front of the TV and prepared popcorn and cider before turning on Along with the Gods. When the movie finally started, Kim Yeo-ju started eating and wincing occasionally as if she was watching the movie. Ha..
I shouldn't have shown it, but tears welled up in my eyes and I hurried to the bathroom. Fortunately, the female protagonist didn't seem to notice.
I turned on the water and burst into tears, feeling like I was going crazy. It was so hard. There's something I told you.
My heart is chocolate.
The reason is because it is black
Because it's sweet.
Cover your heart with black
Sweetly hiding lies
Bite it painfully
It's delicious, but sweet and dreamy
The chocolate disappears.
And the cavities that chocolate causes,
The wound hurts.
You laughed and said, "What is that?" You didn't know how I was feeling, but you thought I would be okay, so you held it in, but why...
I came out again pretending not to know you, but when I saw you again, tears welled up in my eyes. I told you that you weren't pretty, but you said we were friends, but no, please give me another chance to talk to you. I will protect you. Now that this has become a lie to you, you remain by my side as a ghost.