" Chen of EXO is now getting married with his non-showbiz girlfriend"
A lone tears start to fall in my eyes, as I continue to read what was written inside. Both happiness and pain is what I am feeling right now.
Happiness because my Peterpan is now already getting married with his Wendy. He is now found the person who will stay by his side no matter what happen.
Pain because no matter how hard I keep in my mind that I'm just your Tinkerbell, I can't stop my self to dream that someday this Tinkerbell will be your Wendy.
There is no longer a lone tears , my face is now full of tears, I am now crying my heart out as I look in my room full with your pictures, album, merch anything that will remind me of you.
I just realized you become my world, my light on those darkest days, the strength on my weakest hours and the reason why a smile was seen on my lips. But now the person who become my world, my light and my strength found his very own reason to live an fulfilling life.
I swept my tears and start to write a comment.
"To my very own Peterpan, Congratulations! You already found your Wendy. This Tinkerbell of yours will always be glad to all those memories with you. Please be happy and remember that I'm always here for you. Once again Congratulations!"
After writing down my comment I found myself staring into nowhere as I remember those beautiful memories with you.
It was my first time attending your concert I was in the VIP as I remember myself being so excited and nervous at the same time. After being a fangirl for how many years this is the first time that I will see you in person.
As the concert start I can't help but to cry , one of my dream as a fan is already happening. I am now seeing you performing live with your member.
I was smiling the whole time while watching you performing when suddenly you stand in front of me and Peterpan start to play in the background, you start to sing as I look to you intently enjoying your beautiful voice and those face that always have a warm smile. Until your eyes found mine I was so shock as I smile and start to wave my lightstick to you and you wave back at me.
It was during the part of the song
"My heart always rode on a cloud and flew.
You’re prettier than Wendy or Cinderella.
Because I feel you, the only person who can make my heart beat, my eyes shine."
I can't explain the feeling that I feel on that very moment up until I go home.
As a remember those memory I can't stop myself from smiling. Because at least once you choose this Tinkerbell of yours and tell to her that she is more prettier than Wendy and the reason why your heart beat. And I'm happy with that.
As I stand up from my seat and start to roam my eyes inside my room, I should start to clean this room and start to lessen my admiration towards you to I should start to find my very own Peterpan that will look at me as his Wendy and not his Tinkerbell anymore.
I start to approach your merch but I can found myself to remove it from it's place, A tear start to fall again and I start to cry once more. I think I'm crazy, I just laughed a little while but now I'm crying again.
Instead of cleaning my room I lay down on my bed and decided to sleep maybe this is just a dream and if I wake-up later I will found out it was year 20XX and I'm just fall asleep while going into your concert. While thinking those idea I fall asleep
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And a wonderful dream welcome me in my sleep. The man I was thinking about before going to sleep is happily playing with a beautiful child in a field of dandelions. The smile on his lips is so fascinating and I can see in his eyes that he's truly happy after I while a blurred image of a girl came through and they happily run to her. She welcome them with a tight hug and I can see a beautiful family with them. As standing under the tree not so far with them Chen look at me and wave his hand and mouthed thank you with a wide smile on his lips.
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And with that I return the smile and then suddenly wake up. As I remember my dream a smile started to see on my lips as I realise my Peterpan is now truly happy with his Wendy and as his Tinkerbell I must support her with all my heart.
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