Tonight Wooseok prays. The heated situation between fans in front of his agency building that he seen on Twitter timeline last night wasn't his agency order.
He really appreciates fans support who give their support to him and his brother X1 members continuously after their disbandment.
He knows about their project from Twitter timeline because a never ending hastag support from their ONE ITS since the day of their disbandment. Yes, his agency not giving any clue to each ONE ITS who are doing mass calling to his agency. The agency still hesitates to let him go, because his last mental breakdown history. The agency hesitates because they don't have clear visions about what might be happening in the future if he was allowed to join the unit.
He knows for sure that he are stronger now. He will try to be strong wherever he'll end up later. Idol world was a real battlefield and cruel. His old self might crumble to little pieces when many cruel comments come to himself or his team mates.
But as X1 members their invisible string of fate was very strong and intact. Their bonds gives him too many life lesson and power to himself.
With teary eyes he's remembering Seungyoun's words when he give advice to Sejin who felt insecure with himself in love shot groups.
"So what if the others are slightly disappointed in you? So what if you're not doing too well? Despite all that you're giving your all. You still persevering. I'd like you to be less pressured."
Each words from Seungyoun made his heart relieved and healed. Since that day, he believes that he is doing his best everyday as a trainee who practicing hard to become an idol again.
He felt thankful to meet his X1 brothers who share same dreams and unlimited sincerest wishes to become an idol, even when some of them have scarier experience than his own. He loves every X1 member equally.
For each fans who always support him, but can't be called freely by himself now. He will try to hold on one more time. He will be a stronger person each day.
He is erasing his tears which flows down slowly on his cheeks.
Wooseok strengthen his heart just by seeing many sticky notes full of his fans heartwarming words and supports on this WINTER DAY.
He can't take them personally one by one and giving his sincerest thankfull message for each of them. But he Will Askes one of his staff to keep it. He will read their message one by one and gain strength for his future solo activities.
Dear ㅇㅇ, i missed you. And i love you a lot.