"I hope you heal from the things you don't talk about anymore.
I hope you heal from the things people have stopped asking
about because you appear to be okay.
I hope you heal from the things
and people that shattered your faith and confidence.
I hope that pain makes you appreciate why things had to happen
the way they did.
And if you aren't there yet, I hope you get."
•••
"YYAAHHH!! eunwooyaa where the hell have you been all night?????"
"Just here & there Bin nothing serious"
"Don't you dare blurr out any word Mr. Noh told me everything about you being HERE & THERE"
"what did he say this time???"
"He told us his men saw you standing on that bridge's ledge with a girl & then both of you ran away"
"Aaahhhh!! anything else????"
"what's with your attitude eunwoo"
"It's nothing Bin, you wanna hear the real thing it's true I was there, I was bloody standing & talking with that girl and yeahh when I saw his men approaching towards us we ran!! NOW WHATTT"
"Whatt is happening here and will any of you dare to tell me why both of you're shouting??",Jinjin asked rushing towards them.
"Jinjin hyung you know what Mr. Noh was true he was there....wiithh...wiiithh that girl and he did run away"
"Eunwoo---"
"Ye!! hyung it's true. But I really don't wanna talk about it now"
"Eunwoo go inside and first freshen up yourself we'll talk about all this later"
"Ye!! Hyung"
•••
"You'll just let him go like that jinjin hyung???"
"Bin you know what he's been going through. We need to understand and support him. I know none us can see all this anymore but he's soo stubborn & firm with his decisions these days he barely listens to anyone"
"Hyung you know how much eunwoo values you and MJ hyung can't you too just convince him to atleast visit a doctor"
"I personally have told him many times Bin but he's just making up excuses or telling me straight that he doesn't wanna visit one"
"I think we need to take along MJ hyung in this too he's the eldest and eunwoo can't go against his sayings"
"We can but MJ is extremely busy these days with his Jamie & Trot schedules"
"Don't worry I'll inform Rocky & Sanha just this once to pick up MJ hyung after his schedule for eunwoo's matter & I'm sure he'll be able to convince Eunwoo"
"But we need to fix an appointment with the doctor first!!"
"Don't worry about that I already sent Eunwoo's case file to one of the best doctors of the country!! all we need is his willingness towards it"
"Waahhhh!! You're quick Binnaayaa so, let's finally work on this properly, I can't see him being this miserable anymore"
•••
"Is everything fine!! I mean you two are here to pick me...liikkkee really"
"Can't we hyung, you've been working soo hard these days!!"
"C'mon sanha tell me what's the matter now"
"Hyung, actually it's about Eunwoo Hyung
(( all of us know that he ran off yesterday from the dorm & went missing"
"Ye!! Mr.Noh did inform me about this"
"So, Bin hyung told us about this plan which mainly focuses on you convincing Eunwoo hyung to visit a doctor"
"Aaaahhhh!! I know it's difficult since that guy is extremely being a nuisance these days but it's for his own good~so there's nothing wrong in trying once!!
•••
"We're here"
"Are you ready MJ, it's been an entire day he didn't even step out off his room"
"Don't worry, I know what powers I hold y'll just wait & see, I'll bring out this Cha Star right away"
"hhuhhhuhhhh I can't wait to see what's coming next"
"Sanha, stop being a kid now"
"As if you're not raaakkkiii"
"Youuuu--"
"YAAHHH!! It's a serious matter, stop that tease both of you",Bin said gazing the two boys
•••
"Eunwoo???"
"MJ hyung, is everything fine???"
"I think I should be the one asking you that question eunwoo!!"
"You know what happened don't you"
"So, is this the reason you've been crying up & didn't step out of your room"
"It's not but what I'm more angry about is seeing you people suffer because of me"
"Did any of the members said something??"
"No, they didn't but I literally fought with Bin today and I'm feeling soo guilty about it now, I don't know if I can face him~this was the first time in all these years..I just can't"
"Just look at me, everyone has power to make up to others and for themselves too all you need to do is just make that one move"
"But--"
"deep down you yourself know for how many times you've tried to turn all these things to what they were, everyone tries Eunwoo and you should too~that faith, that trust, that believe, we need to keep it alive"
"hyung I don't wanna live all these things just tear me up"
"It does with me too, but what keeps me going is our bond and support plus the love that we receive from our fans. You ever think about very moment what will happen to those after they hear that Cha Eunwoo is no more a part of this beautiful world. Just think about it; just the thought of it will give you the answers you've been looking for"
"I've done it soo many times but that one thing~~ I don't know from where it came it just keeps triggering me again & again makes me wanna think that this world is better off without me"
"Well it can never be!! that is why I'm hear and I expect you to respect my decision"
"What decision hyung???"
"It's time for you to take some time off and visit a doctor"
"waaiiitttttt whaatt nooooo"
"You have to and this is the best thing you can do for yourself"
"I'd rather die than seeing up those crazy doctors who'll later be claiming me a serious case"
"C'mon now Eunwoo they're all professionals"
"You already met them??"
"Did I say that"
"But you clearly said they're professionals how come you know all this until & unless you haven't met them"
"We delivered you're past reports to one of the best doctors in the country, which I think we all should've done earlier:(("
"You all did whatt????? wasn't there a need to ask me once before sending the reports"
"Listen up it's been long we can't see you being in such a helpless situation every night & day!! Don't forget we're a family of six and can't stand seeing anyone cry out every other time or running off just because you feel like you wanna die or you feel there's nothing that can be bought back to where it was. I said you need to see a doctor now that means you need too!!"
"But hyung--"
"I'll not be listening up this time Eunwoo it's better you respect & keep up with what I said cause I can't see you like this anymore"
•••
"I'm sorry hyung....I'm really sorry"
"Now what is it with your sorry!"
"Can you just give me a hug...just once...I'll promise I'll follow up everything you said...but please just hug me or else I won't be able to control these tears anymore"
"AAAHHhhh!! come here you little kid, you could've told me this before. I would've said things more politely"
"it's just--I'm soo much afraid, I know I should've seen a doctor earlier but I don't know I can't understand anything right now"
"Just loosen up those thoughts eunwoo it'll be fine!!"
•••
"YYYAAAHHHHH!! y'll better come here he's ready"
"Waaahhhhhhh!! that was easy hyung", Bin sighed happily!!
"NAAHHHH!! it wasn't y'll know this stubborn kid don't you??"
"Am I MJ hyung????"
"Yes, Eunwoo hyung but just a little less of how raakkii is now days!!
"You big head---saaannnhhaaa come here--"
(*today is one of those days where I realised that you're just one decision away from a totally different experience that's gonna come you're way!! I'm extremely afraid, I know these thoughts and feelings can't go away that easily but without trying I'll just fail myself more*)
"TO BE CONTINUED"
