I want to die. How can I make this happen? But I can't bear to leave my parents who raised me, my brother who took care of me since I was little, and the only girl I've ever truly loved. If I could, I'd like to hear her voice again.
God, I beg you
I don't believe in gods, I don't believe in miracles.
But then a miracle happened. I could hear it—I heard my mother's daily prayers and the doctor's lamentations. It's been five days since I can hear again, and she hasn't come. Thank goodness; I didn't want her to see me in such a miserable state. My first love—I never dared to hope for anything; it was just wishful thinking on my part. What did it have to do with her?
The scent of white roses filled the air, and a gentle breeze carried its captivating fragrance. I could feel her; she had come and sat down beside me.
The clear, melodious singing voice, gentle and warm, flowed into my heart.
"Cause of everything about me"
I love everything about you.
Love your curves and all your edges, your silhouette, your curves.
All your perfect imperfections and your perfect flaws
Give me your all.
I'll give you my all.
You are my end and my beginning.
Even when I lose, I'm winning.
Because I gave you all, all of me.
And you gave me all, all of you, oh, and you gave me everything, all of you.
God seems to have heard my wish.
I watched as the once-hard shell above my head began to crack, until it finally shattered completely. I was free. Her singing broke the silence of my night.
I strained with all my might, using the last of my strength, and slowly opened my eyes. Before me stood her, her silky black hair flowing in the spring breeze, just as beautiful as when I first saw her.
"Hi XXX, can we be friends?"
Byun Baekhyun said the same thing as when they first met.
Our eyes welled up with tears, which slowly streamed down our faces. She covered her face in disbelief, tears of emotion falling drop by drop. Instead of immediately calling a doctor, she simply hugged me tightly.
"OK"
He suddenly moved closer to her, pressing his lips together for a long time. Sweet words were uttered in the kiss, words he had longed for day and night during his unconsciousness. Her lips were soft, like a jelly, and he could smell her faint fragrance.
I miss her, I miss her so much. The moment I woke up, I vowed to become someone who would stay by her side and love her.
"Will you be with me?"
Actually, I've liked you for a long time.
She had a shy, delicate face. I later learned that she had liked me for a long time, and that chance encounter was the time she mustered up the courage to confess her feelings to me.
I like to sing, and so does she; I like the color blue, and so does she; I like autumn, and so does she.
Everything is predestined.
What I didn't know was that during the most dangerous moments of my coma, she was the one taking care of me. Even knowing I might die, she stayed by my side without complaint. After learning my condition had improved, she simply stood outside the ward watching me, not wanting to wake up and be with me out of pity.
Today I want to embrace her tightly, to give her my heart and soul. She is the meaning of my life. If I were to live again, I would still choose her, the one destined for me, because my life is only for her. Although the world is full of hardships, and our future is paved with thorns, I will dedicate my life to protecting her.
This love will never change; my whole life will be for her.
God, I have never believed in fate, evil, faith, or the common people in my entire life.
But at this moment, I sincerely thank you for granting me this miracle.
In my entire life, I have never made any promises to anyone.
This is the only time, please promise me.
I, Byun Baekhyun, am willing to exchange all my courage and warmth for a lifetime of holding hands and relying on each other.
Unwavering until death
P.S.: The ending is taken from the ending of Xia Beidao's "The Last Life of Baekhyun". Thank you Xia Beidao for bringing such a wonderful work.