I have relatively flexible time during the week.
You, who doesn't work on weekends, will take care of the kids.
The second Friday is the day you come.
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In fact, during the first week, I really couldn't get anything done.
There was also practice in the practice room,
I also had to work on a new mixtape,
Because practice was always done like a machine
I was able to digest it just like usual, but
There was no progress at all in works that used emotions.
Songs written with children in mind
Songs I wrote while looking at you..
Among the works I wrote over the past 2-3 years after marriage,
There were also songs that made us wish our love would last forever....
I finished composing to some extent in the studio
I have to send it to the poisonous type
I couldn't finish it.
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At dawn, when I put the kids to bed and came to the studio,
How did you know that Rapmon hyung came to visit?
"Rapmon hyung~~~~"
"Hey~"
I was so happy when I was feeling depressed
I greeted my brother with a hug.
"Yo, bro.. how's work going...? Is it really blocked..??
Because Pidokhyung said he hasn't contacted you,
I came here to play around.."
"Is that so~~ ??"
"Can I help you..."
Rapmon looked at my expression quietly.
It seemed like he noticed something.
"Oh... what's wrong with you? You seem a bit down today?
Where did our youngest's bright, rabbit-like eyes go?
My brother said it playfully at first,
When I didn't accept it, his expression soon changed to one of concern.
I couldn't even look my brother in the eye and spoke quietly as if I was going to confession.
"Sigh... I... Hyung... Taeju is living apart..."
My brother patted my shoulder.
"We didn't just fight, did we?
You shook your head.
"No, this time it's serious..."
"You guys never fought when you were dating,
I was a bit worried about fighting after getting married...
Sister-in-law, have you been having a hard time lately?
"I just don't know. Why do you want to separate?
The kids want to see if their mom is out on a business trip...
What should I do next week?
I don't really understand Taejoo's feelings.."
โJungkook, what do you want to doโฆ?โ
I lowered my head and couldn't look at my brother's face because I felt like crying.
"Of course I want to turn it back...
But I feel like we've suddenly gone too far"
I roughly pressed away the tears welling up in my eyes with the back of my hand.
"Get married... have children...
It seemed like everything Taeju wanted...
Were we looking at different places?
I was really happy.. "
โJungkook, you know that your hyungs are always on your side, right?
Whatever decision I make, I always discuss it with my brothers.
I'm fine...
You know you can contact me anytime, right? "
Rapmon held my hand tightly.
"So that's why the work was difficult...
If your feelings are too complicated, write them down.
I... even if it's not necessarily for the lyrics
If you write it down, it will be comforting...
It helped me clear my mind..."
That day
After talking with Rapmon hyung a bit more
I'm worried the kids will wake up
I returned home early before the sun rose.
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The next weekend
You look so calm and indifferent
I came home.
I was so dumbfounded by how you treated the kids as if you were really just back from a week-long business trip.
Every day was hard for me and I couldn't do anything...
You looked at the house in disarray and made a face like you were satisfied with something.
Was this it..? Revenge on me..?
During the weekend you were at home
I eat and sleep in my studio
I thought about this and that a lot.
It was a moment when a week of sadness turned into fighting spirit and anger.
So this week, starting from Monday when you left
I really worked hard to clean up the house.
I don't know how long we will be apart,
Even the dishes in the kitchen,
I even cleaned out the cupboard to erase all traces of you.
I was about to throw away all the dishes you cherished,
But just in case
I'm afraid you'll be desperately looking for it
I put it in a box and put it in the warehouse,
I might throw that away too.
The towels and shampoo bottles that were folded haphazardly in the bathroom
And the empty dressing table where you left your luggage and dust rolled around...
I cleaned everything up
You'd be surprised just by what I've organized, right?
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But, after I actually cleaned it up
When I think about my house before I got married, I wonder why I am like this.
I didn't get married for this...
But still, that satisfied look on your face...
I also wanted revenge for some reason...
Didn't you say you'd do it first too..?
I always tried to do what you said,
Why are you doing this to me..?
Now I will do what I want.
And today,
In time for the children's kindergarten drop-off
I tried to come home as late as possible,
The traffic wasn't as bad as I thought, so I arrived early.
I feel like I'll run into you when I get home.
Should I go up or not...
I parked my car in the underground parking lot and thought about it for a while.
I feel like crying when I see you...
I don't know how much pride I put on the line in the car.
Beep beep beep
I entered the house by pressing the password
I smelled your food these days, which I've been missing.
Actually, because you're not here,
Even the foods I used to eat well when I was alone
I was so depressed that I couldn't do well.
How much I missed that smell..
But I will never cry.
so
I put on as cold a look as I could and went into the kitchen.
I asked as nonchalantly as possible, furrowing my brow.
"You're here..?"
"uh.."
You still answered briefly with an indifferent expression.
joy.. !
So why do you look better when you do things your way?
I was so angry that I went to my room and quietly closed the door.
I heard your voice outside the door asking if I wanted coffee,
It's almost time for the children's kindergarten bus to come,
I couldn't help it because I didn't have time anyway.
You, you were away for a while
Have you already forgotten what time the kindergarten bus comes?
Just a moment of thought,
I don't think I should be late for kindergarten tea time.
After calming down a bit in the room, I went downstairs.
Even though I'm not there
Drinking coffee casually,
Seeing you enjoying your free time
For some reason, I felt really sad as I left the front door.
Are you okay..?
As soon as our children come from kindergarten
How often do you talk about your mom...
How could you do this to us..?
You really did too much.
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