Memory Manipulation Club: txt [Short Story]

To the End of the World - Beomgyu

My mother gave birth to me through an affair and ran away.
Even my only remaining father committed an inexplicable crime and was imprisoned.

And so, I became completely alone.

Wherever I set foot, it was invariably stained with pitch-black darkness, and
The ordinary life I desperately wanted to hold onto was always far away, as if mocking me.
He ran away.


A child with the blood of misfortune flowing through her veins. A criminal's daughter. A bitch born of an affair.

The label attached to my name at school was always cruel.
Slammed onto the cold classroom floor, the pouring filth and criticism
There was nothing I could do other than accept it all.




I probably won't make it. I won't be able to go to heaven.
I don't fit in. There is no place for me in heaven.


Every night, I curled up my bruised body and thought.
If God exists, my very existence would be a sin, so when I die, I will go to heaven
There is no way I can go. There was no way a place for me in heaven to begin with.

The bottom of this hellish abyss was the only place I could stay.


"Hey, stop it."


It was like that until I met that kid.

The back door of the classroom was thrown open roughly, and Choi Beom-gyu walked in.

An untidy shirt hem, a slightly rebellious gaze.
Choi Beom-gyu [was] the bucket of dirty sewage water pouring over my head
He kicked me and blocked my path.


Did he do anything wrong? He didn't. So everyone get lost.


At Beomgyu's low, subdued voice, the children who were bothering me
He grumbled and stepped back.

Choi Beom-gyu is someone who attracts crowds of people around him even when he is just standing still.
He was literally a shining child.

The child who lives in a world different from mine, the one most destined for heaven.

Beomgyu reached out his hand to me as I sat slumped on the dirty floor.


"Get up. Are you okay?"


Beomgyu's large hand overlapped my trembling hand.
It was the moment human warmth touched my world, which had been nothing but ice, for the first time.


The bitterly cold air melted away with just the warmth of her.
Because that warmth was too much for me, and because I longed for it so desperately
I think I fell in love with that child without even realizing it.


But I know.

Choi Beom-gyu is a being loved even when he stays still like a star, and
That I am less than dust.


I had to give up on this feeling before I became miserable.
To give up on my feelings of liking
I deliberately avoided eye contact and tried running far away.
But every time, during a hellish moment, Beomgyu appeared right in front of my eyes like a lie.
It appeared.

Whenever I see Beomgyu running toward me and holding my hand,
My cowardly resolutions crumbled like sandcastles time and time again.


I had fallen in love with a love full of problems.

A love riddled with problems, with no way to escape or run away.


Then one day after school,

In the empty classroom where an unusually red sunset cast a long shadow
Somehow, the two of us ended up left.

As I watched the back of Beomgyu, who was gazing out the window with an orange silhouette,
Something suddenly burst out from deep inside my chest.

It felt like if not now, if not today, I would never be able to say it.




Beomgyu..



At my call, Beomgyu slowly turned his head and looked at me.
As my image was fully reflected in those clear eyes,
My heart started beating rapidly, as if it were about to burst.




"...I think I love you"



Tears welled up in my eyes.
I'm sorry for daring to love you,
But now I couldn't hide it any longer.
I shouted in my heart.


I took a step closer to Beomgyu and grabbed the hem of his clothes as if pleading.


You can really use me like medicine...
You can ruin it however you want..
Just once... please, just once, could you tell me you love me...?


I desperately clung to you, the only law of my world.
I wonder why I want to hear that one word you say so much.
Around the tearful plea to please save me
The silence settled heavily.


Beomgyu stared at me with sad eyes for a long time.

And slowly approaching, carefully wiping away my tears with rough fingers
He wiped it and spoke in a very low voice.

"...I love you, to the ends of the earth"

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