- Why we don't enter directly is your apartment - I asked as we waited in the corridor of the familiar place.
- because it's the family house now and I don't live here, even if it is our apartment. - my wife says, stressing that her things are actually my things.
- But we came in time...
- someone must be not ready yet... don't know....
- oh.... you are still together, this is yours now... your sis is more funny than you, but she said that must go home today so.... - Tristan Collins said, trying to hand us a woman, but I couldn't see her face.
Seated on the floor, the blonde woman tried to drink from an empty bottle.
The face of my wife made me realize that this must be the sister that I couldn't meet before, because she was in prison... probably shouldn't be doing this after the lawyer could have her out of jail.
She took my hand and started walking away, but I knew that she would feel horrible later if she can't keep the promise to visit the little man and the little girl that she didn't had the opportunity to meet yet.
Waiting for the elevator, I hugged her, trying to give some comfort, but there came the other sister (Lilly) in better condition but also looks likely coming from a party and kissing a dude... at least wasn't another Collins member.... maybe a friend because he reconogized my wife, pushing away the one that dared to mess with Namjoonie.
- Fuck... mom is going to kill us - Lilly says searching for her phone.
- It's someone at the apartment? - Baika asked.
- Must be... the kids can't be left alone, they are babies, you know... what would you know? You desapear and leave us the hard work... you are just the cool aut that comes for holly days with gifts under the arm... those are gifts? - Lilly asked.
Things didn't happen to be better afterwards... nobody was in the apartment, seemed nobody was around. They were here for us... they moved to the bid House inherited from the Collins elders that loved my wife dearly to consider that she would take better care of that place than anyone else on her range of age.
Baika didn't wanted to accept such a big property but her friends convinced her, to be able to maintain that hause in good shape and not end being sold to get money to live without thinking on working or having a solid future.
- Namjoon? What does he knows about me? Nothing....but will put a white spread for him in my bed.... she laughed - Lilly says, I don't see what was so funny but my wife would explain me later, specially because she was speaking in Spanish and I varely managed to understand some little things, like the name of my friend.
The kids were washing up with the help of my mother in law, she couldn't arrive sooner because the baby needed a few medicines... Apparently she had several complications because her mother didn't took all the precautions necessary during the pregnancy, sometimes the little girl wasn't as healthy as she could be... nothing to worry but after traveling to see us didn't helped.
Live the city, living every day as your last.... suddenly I had the urge to last in time, to do things today to have a longer life. The urge to burn the night and stay in this world like a meteor in the sky, disappeared completely understanding how sad they were to spend their time with alcohol and parties that will forget in a blink because they don't do anything that fills their souls and hearts, something to keep dearly in a lifetime.
I didn't knew how to comfort her... what a family... even if her mother and new husband where taking care of the lives of the children. This was very sad, now I understand why she thinks that those kids needed to be separated from their biological mother... but how those innocent children have to learn that rude reality? when Baika was the most loving person they have ever met, would be glad to provide the nest for them... still can't separate them from her sister
- Yoongi... the car is ready... - she told me, in the morning, I had to take care of a few things before I could take time for myself.
Her smile vanished, last night she couldn't rest peacefully even if I stayed in her room. Baika looked at me again and blinked she was trying to be present for me, thought it would be a good to reunite them but ,the only thing I observed is that my wife was better miles away from them. Baika is truly different from them, she was mature and helpful to her mother, can be someone that will take care when needed.
I was proud, my woman was the best from that household but probably she was ashamed to considered that way. I took her hand as soon as we're seated inside the car. My face was already ready for work so she resisted the intention to touch me or kiss me.
- my kiss... babe! - I claimed, the dancers laughed.
- no... you still have to practice with the band.... plus, I am sure that you will give a super delicious one, to have me behind you the rest of my life... ah_ah.... no kisses for Min Yoongi.
- uh... man she is hard to get.- someone says
- just how I like it, because she wouldn't kiss anyone else freely - I teased her
- I am not hard to get, I'm exigent, who told you I would do anything for just one little kiss once, someone would get this pineapple kiss and will want more - she joked showing her lip balm.
- oh came on... babe... I am begging... please... I can't believe you have me begging - she smiled and accepted. I almost died when she came closer, to tease me.
- Breathe boy, I was joking - she says, almost touched my lips, there, in front of everyone, but soon stepped back to give me my space.
- I'm glad to see that you are having a good time. Come don't make others wait. They probably have plans for their free time - Baika offers her hand to help me stand.
- wait...- I told her as the others looked how I was still trying to get her attention. I really wanted that kiss, but most importantly was that any of them tried to get her... it was our start and I don't have much females in my crew... when I organized it Baika wasn't with me, so I reduced the amount of girls as much as possible, no because they were to be a problem for me but I wasn't going to be on the best places and sometimes it's very uncomfortable for them to be on tour, so I just wanted the ones that were ready for the job.
- sorry... I shouldn't play so hard, but I don't wanna see anyone else trying to conquer you... I would like to show my interest on you, without having to tell everyone about our relationship... probably I caused that they put more attention on you - I said.
- I see.... don't worry love, just behave normally around me, they will notice in the end, if someone says something on my back be firm and say that you are interested on me.
- be reasonable... I will be unreasonable and will be rude, even cruel to destroy any self confidence they could have to try to invite you out - I admited, I don't know what exactly made me so selective on who can be around her.
- Yoongi... I don't want anyone else, just you... your love and your ways to handle me... it makes me happier every day, I'm stronger now that you make me feel loved and not someone that is causing you trouble or disappointment.
Baby's P/V:
- Yoongi... we shouldn't... ah... diosito perdóname... - Yoongi suddenly lifted me to have me seated on the table I was using to work as they practiced. He pulled my boots that covered my legs and my socks to massage my cold feet with his warm hands. His tongue and kisses on my legs going up made me forget how to be firm and be able to push him to his next task.
He varely did anything and my imagination already had a complete story of him taking my body over this same table.... the obscenity of my imagination doesn't have limits and is way quicker than any real clock.
When he finally kissed me, my body reacted from inside to the filling of something real overwhelming me, and he obviously noticed and blushed, asking me if I was fine. I moved away as answer.
- amor... I varely touched you... what are you so excited about?
- Yoongi...don't ask...I am going to my room... I need a cold shower or something will happen if I keep close to you... I will forget how to be decent and composed because I will have you over the table for dinner - I blurted without thinking and embarrassed tried to collect my things to scape from his gaze and presence.
Yoongi trapped me in his arms to look into my eyes that watered because I don't want to tell him that he was burning me alive. All day looking at me, founding any moment or excuse to touch me... teasing me, playing dangerous games... I loved him dangerously and his demonstration of interest on having me again as the lover of his choice was more than I could manage today.
I loved him that much, so much that was the only thing in my mind. Yesterday was like showing him my most embarrassing secrets... having that kind of family compared to his normal life. A mother that loved him dearly and could make mistakes on the name of that love. A father that would like to hear that his sons still needed him and his opinion, a brother that will never leave him alone.
I couldn't tell him, how much he means to me, was scared to be so in love that he will be bored and will look into someone more challenging that will know how to keep him interested, pleased that will provoke him and all that insane passion that he hided under a mountain of self control.
- come to my room tonight babe... please don't keep me looking how to enter in your room don't hide in there again, I can't stay longer, waiting to have your love back...I want everything of you Ana...please come tonight - he put the card needed to enter his room on top and left the room before me.
I put everything in my bag and walked fast to my room.... now I was supposed to be the one looking for him. Oh my goodness! Where I will find the courage to go there, knowing that he is expecting me... I don't even know when he will arrive... he can be so picky about small things about his work that I don't know if his musician will think he is the evil impersonating Yoongi.
- hey are you still busy, your phone wasn't available - Jungkook called
- I called Jin... but couldn't talk with him much, it was time to give away his phone... how are you? Why are you calling me?- I asked
- thinking about you so I called... I couldn't focus on anything at all, feels like I forgot how to be motivated, before I wanted to visit you because you were hibernating at home so I wanted to go and drive you crazy, so worked faster and focused... now I am all bored - he says
- liar.... you only came around when any of your friends invited you out... but I miss burning the karaoke machine with you.
- I miss you bunny, what are you up to?
- taking a frozen bath actually - I laughed, it was a warm one, but the motive to fill the tube and soak myself in water was to control my reactions towards Yoongi.
- you hate frozen water... or do you have a fever that needs to be controlled? - he asked, the phone showed that he was asking to start the camera to transform the call into a video call but I didn't showed him my face, just the bubbles in the water hiding my feet that I would pop out the water sometimes, so he will notice that I was there.
- I was kidding about the frozen water, but you caught me.
- you look gorgeous...on that dress, Yoongi will explode when he gets to see you bunny.... my time to hang up... thanks for the company... I don't like to be alone sometimes, but my dog has a lot of stress because people keeps coming to my door leaving things, calling.... tried to enter the apartment... certain fans are crazier than ever.
- hey... call for security or stay in my small apartment... I don't think anyone would find you there if they are disturbing you too much now and there... your apartment is a luxurious one, why your fans can enter the building?
- I don't know... don't worry about me, say hi to my hyung and to take his time... I want pretty nieces and nephews soon.
- Jeon Jungkook... I am hanging up... you dummy - I said totally embarrassed as he laughed
- I love ya'~
He was totally out of his mind but at least was the situation that was making him going out every night.... hopes things go better for him and that he can find a solution soon.
I texted Hoseok, he was the most worried about his new routines, even if can't do anything at least learned what was his situation and told him a little reason to not worry excessively about Jungkook, he was and adult after all.
SUGA'S P/V:
- Okay ...let's do it that way... now which song? - I asked, it was taking me some time to focus on the practice so I am writing all the changes to remember later when I am not thinking about certain woman that is surprising me a lot today.
- snooze... we have to cordinate instruments with the recorded parts... it's the most complicated - the capitan said we can't practice on site until the day of the concert, we will have to calculate it to be able to do a good price on site and not waste all with technical things.
- then we should practice people part 2 too - I suggest
- ah... we will be here forever then...- someone says, I wasn't looking who
- okay but instead of having a free day tomorrow we will practice we don't do today - I commented.
- let's practice, practice until midnight, I wanted to go shopping tomorrow if I get out of bed in time - my guitarist and teacher laughed.
- oh my lordy... stop singing that way... it's creepy - says the captain
- what? What do you mean? - I asked confused
- like we all will die tonight and you are signing us good night - he says.
- I think your imagination is too wild tonight... I wasn't even thinking, just trying to not forget the lyrics.
- it's because he scared the little girl... she didn't came to see him and now he is all depressed, they new that she is my wife but to play safe they didn't mention it, some technician doesn't know.
- kids have to go first to rest enough, but she will stay around the rest of the tour so it's fine to give her some freedom.
- so you are kidnapping us... great Yoongi... I can see the great choices poping up... I liked more when she was the focus of your twisted personality - the one on the drums teased me.
- I am a bully now? What I have done today? Enlight me, you sound like I was absolutely wrong on my behavior when she is present.
- Boy... you can have anyone of your choice not like us that had to work hard to have someone waiting at home, she would burn on her seat if you kept looking at her... she noticed, you know?- another musician says
- she is gorgeous compared to your unwashed faces... I wasn't going to do anything crazy and she knows... she even scared me earlier, I thought she would kiss me in front of everyone.
- that's your fault because since morning you are pulling her around, I saw you during lunch, sneaking your hand under the table to touch the little skin of her legs that she was showing over those boots - the captain says and I blushed.
- spying me?- I teased him
- curious... you never behaved like that around women, girlfriend or not... I started to thought you had something weird with someone of your group because they were always in your mouth.
- ah... Baby will love to hear about all of it but please, skip me the pleasure of hearing what was in your mind.
- she would? Why? Isn't that super weird?, my wife would kill me if I am not straight.... would be with her if I wasn't but you know her logic is not logical to me - the one on the piano finally said something
- what she likes is to hear the stories about secret love and all that stuff...she reads tons of books as long as there is a love story on it, doesn't mind if it is a straight couple or not or if they are even from the same planet, species or magical creatures. She finds normal that I would notice things interestingly not exclusively her persona but really enjoys when she feels that... I want her over all my options, as long as she sees me happy doesn't mind much anything else, I believe.
- wow... but don't pull her limits, at one point she will say no more and will wish you happiness without her - the capitan comments
- came on... I know that much...- I pouted.
- then let's finish so we can call home and you can go and sneak in her room again.
- are you really curious about my love life don't you?
- yeah, because before her you were like a magical creature that doesn't fuss about relationships and wanted to be alone.
- have to met the right one to change my mind.
I couldn't find the will to have my dinner with the crew, wanted to see her, she didn't texted me asking me to eat together or when I would have free time to come to my room... or tell me that she doesn't want to come or whatever.... nothing, nothing since I told her that I wanted to be her choice for tonight, no more of me behind her to get my needs covered....egoist, I am it shouldn't surprise her.
I put my ear on her door, curious to see if she will come to my room tonight, I heard a male voice telling her that she was gorgeous... what I felt wasn't even normal, couldn't be... goodness I wanted to kick that door open and see them together with my own eyes.
It wasn't necessary my wife opened wide the door and she was alone, I could see her entire room and the door of her bathroom wide open and nobody was there just her looking for something dessesperately on her bag.
- here! I can't lose you tonight...Jesus Crist! - she said scared of having me, just in front of her. She blushed hard, it's been time since she reacted like that because of me.
- ready?- I asked
- I think so... do you like it? - she turned around, beautiful my wife was showing me what she choosed for me... but that male voice.... I didn't dreamed it.
- sure... but you haven't done it... where are you going? - I know that I was a little rude, but still, the pain in my heart was poisoning my mind.
- to your room... or do you regret giving me the key? - she asked me, and I took her chin to look at her eyes that were shining looking at me, could feel it... she wanted me, my touch.
- go first, I will lock your room don't worry, just go there and wait for me - she closed her eyes probably being so close made her forget that she shouldn't take as granted my affection, it was something special for me.
After a while she realized there was nothing to wait for, she moved away and I saw her hands trembling to get the card on the correct position to be able to enter my room. Her room is small and her bed narrow for both of us, but I didn't minded, my memories in here are still fresh in my mind.
Nothing extraordinary, everything was as usual... she left her phone behind...I sighed but unblocked it to take a look... nothing changed.... calls.... she called Jin and briefly talked but the last call was from Jungkook, he made it and lasted about an hour ir so.... I sighed because I pushed him to put his eyes on her and made a good job apparently. A text to Hoseok, nothing spectacular about it.
With her phone on my pocket and taking a few things I left in her room las night I turned off all the lights and locked the door behind me. I tried to calm myself, Jungkook was kilometers away from us and she wasn't the one calling to have that long conversation... it's been a long time since she used to talk with me over the phone for hours, until we would fell asleep without hanging the call properly.
- Here... you forgot it - I put her phone beside her, she wasn't seated on my bed so she took a good decision, seemed like at least was paying attention to me.
- I am nervous... Yoongi, I don't know... I don't know what to do with myself - She blushed and played with the fabric of her dress. I prepared a glass of bourbon for me, other options were tasteless for me.
- Why? It is you and I here.
- Exactly, because it's you, the one that loves me dearly, the one that I don't wanna live without. Thanks to you I feel better, my life is beautiful and I know that I'm not the same girl as before and you aren't the same... that is why... I am taking my time... I don't know if this person is still someone you want by your side.
- I believe that I have done enough for you to feel loved - I took a sip of my drink, very little I wanted to be fully aware to hear her. Because until now she barely left space for us, she talked about hard things about insignificant things but about us... just recently she accepted easily to be my lover again not just my wife on paper that fortunately wanted me close even if it was just to hug and be comfortable.
- I know... thanks to that I found a new reason to live, a family a partner that didn't stopped loving the thing that returned... but Yoongi... I know you deserve better, what do you want to do with me?
- I? I mean...what are you asking me? Be clear...
- I don't know if I am enough for you...I don't wanna see you sad because you feel like you deserve better.
- mmm... don't cry, we are talking about our relationship not breaking up or is that what you want? - I cleaned her face and tried to not have a hard expression in my face.
- of course not, I must be crazy to let go someone so amazing.
I don't want to say something else that will upset her, I just demonstrated myself that I have doubts too... I wasn't so sure of her love anymore, that's why I looked inside her room and phone to see who she permitted to be called gorgeous and who could see her dressed so beautifully, if she was getting ready to come to spend the night with me. I can bet that she told Jungkook and Jin that I invited her to my room tonight with the intention of her taking the lead this time, not me showing that I was still fighting for this relationship to work.
- I am scared Yoongi, it's easy to love you, millions do, will come from every corner of the world to see you sing, they can't meet you like I do, can't feel your kisses or be by your side like I can do.
- I don't know, but I can't live from scrubs anymore... I also need from you babe. Ana... you don't imagined how scared I was when they found you... I didn't know if you would want me back... because I couldn't manage without you.
- It's easier to love you more than myself, Yoongi... don't hurt me please, because when I look in the mirror is like they killed everything in me but when you are around, my heart beats strong enough that I can't ignore it, your hands are warm and soft your lips...
- then why you can't tell me that you love me? Nothing that I do would work on you to feel like telling me, if you want this, the same that I want.
- it's been a while that those words are too small to describe what I feel for you Yoongi, mister wonderful and amazing - I couldn't believe my ears my glass rolled on the table as I hurried to kiss her.
Since she returned our roles in our relationship changed, I was the strong one that could be warm, welcoming and walk on eggshells to not commit a mistake, meanwhile she was the iceberg that will break into million of pieces if I dared to be noisy or move too much around her.
The kiss was salty but full of passion, her mouth wanted mine. I felt her hands trembling trying to sneak under my clothes, because she was wearing something nice and I could enjoy the warmth of her skin as I hold her close.
- Dinner.... love you have...? - I couldn't ask properly, I didn't wanted to stop kissing her, carressing her to her close.
- I can't... I need you more than food right now - yes... that's was I wanted to hear...
If she wasn't so explicit sometimes, I would have lowered my hands long ago, but she always had the interest on comunicate her thoughts clearly to me, so I felt a little stupid now that I can understand what is going on in that head, her feelings, not just the little she dropped off.
- I need a shower at least beautiful, you smell so good that I feel dirty by your side.
- okay, do what makes you feel better... I will be right here.
- I'll be quick...- but couldn't find the will to stop kissing her so she walked me into the bathroom and washed off her makeup as I shaved to be soft and clean for her.
- Do you mind if I practice with the guitar to make time? - she asked.
- You don't need to ask for permission love... all of mine is yours.
I knew the song and the lyrics, she made me hear it several times... reading English is very easy for me lately, so when I finally wanted to know what exactly the lyrics says my heart melted. Being in the hospital was hard for her but any time she opened her eyes and I was there, she would play that song.
All this time she played music for me to hear, but sometimes I would prefer the silence, observing how different she was now, more shy, scared, silent, sad... I was just like that long ago and my life never happened to be as hard as hers, but somehow we met and things changed.
I was still wearing the hotel's robe because I hurried outside the shower to hear her better, I don't know how she learned to play the song with the guitar but her ritm was falling behind so I turned on my piano to help her a little. She left the instrument to get on my lap and tell me the last part almost kissing me, that nobody else gives her what she wants, that she feels this way for me, because I will scream her name and take care of her. That she wants to be with me.
I carefully unbuttoned her dress, I didn't want to damage it, was pretty. Wanted to take her on a date wearing it again. I played music for us and took my time to appreciate her beauty, I had a Playlist with all the songs she made me heard lately but I was busy and couldn't check the lyrics but I will do because I think she was trying to tell me something and I wasn't hearing or paying attention to the little details.
That night, after we loved each other, I slept well almost six hours without awakening in between. She was still there by my side, in my bed peacefully. I ordered a nice breakfast, visited her room to get her something to wear today, and couldn't be silent when she snoreed a little... She rolled around, probably missing my presence.
- mmmm... tell me you have food or I definitely have lost my mind?
- Breakfast just arrived beautiful, Are you hungry?
- mmm... yeah... why aren't you here warming me up? Don't tell me I kicked you out unconsciously because it wasn't my intention.
- I slept well and was hungry. You must be too. We skipped dinner last night.
- was worth it... loved last night. I want to repeat it... please - I laughed
- we should eat real food for now... come babe.
- I love you - Baika said out of nowhere, when I was waiting to start my concert, things were smooth now that we were on talking terms again.
- sudenly.... why? - I asked confused, I wasn't specting it now that "the word love was to small to express herself" ( I just tried to put more attention to the little details to get the message of love that she uses nowadays).
- Haven't you heard? They are chanting a million proposals to you... there are some savage ones... someone will return home without voice - she was right, there was a lot of noise to be the first night.
- jealous? You shouldn't - I say
- Oh, Lord, they are going to destroy the place - she says
- don't get scared... you promised to sign in the back until Adora can be around and do her part.
- yeah...I practiced until everyone said that it sounded like the original, but it's my first time, and they sound pretty furious.
- they are impatient and have been waiting long for tonight, here start warming up - said the singer who was doing the male voices next to her.
- that's for us that can drink... the other liquor is for our little one - my friend, the captain says.
- ah... upss I didn't know what is it Dissa..... what is this?
- Disaronno Amareto, almond liquor, with a Italian recipe, it's 40 degrees but sweet as caramel, it's too sweet for me but she likes exactly for that reason - I said, Baika wasn't particularly interested on our conversation. I convinced her to be on stage discretly singing a little and she practiced enough to not fail any time we tested her, perhaps she was still nervous because it was her first time going on stage with me and sing instead od dancing or just help to coordinate things like any assistant or manager should have.
I looked at my wife when I could, she was experiencing this for the first time and I am going solo for the first time. The public was doing great, fortunately for me the place was full and was singing what they could. I can't ask for more because my songs are difficult and they don't even speak my language.
Shit... I am going to have a cold... my fault for getting angry with myself. My defense system gives up when I am pissed about something, something that really matters to me. That and I forgot to put the heater in my room because I had been sleeping in Baika's room before.
My wife decided to hide on the last part, I could hear her voice, but when I turned towards my band, she wasn't standing there. I will check that later she can't be moving around as she pleases, or I will go insane if she disappeared again.
People are crazy and my band is worse than fans. They have been teasing me during the performance to play around with my fans, and that soon will be their fans because one thing good about army is that they try to support anyone who works with us.
I saw my wife back when the fire spectacle ended. She was fine, fortunately, jjusta few steps away from the artifacts that were producing the visual effects. I talked a little with the public so they would calm down a little because from time to time they would push forward to be closer.
All in all my first impression is that my start couldn't be better afterwards, but we will try to do better tomorrow and every day until my tour ends.