- love... mi amor... mmm, where is she? - I walked around the apartment to find her.
- hola... - she answered immediately now that I was in our bedroom, she's doing something on her phone.
- what are you doing? - I asked
- thinking about to go to the cinema to see Coldplay or not... I don't know if I should see it or not.
- why didn't you asked him to invite you? He surely would love the idea... I can ask him too...
- Hold on, Yoongi... I am not traveling anywhere so far away without you, unless there is not choice. Right now, I won't even go to the convenience store with him, if it's my choice who can be with me.
- But.. you...
- mi amor, no... hear me out first - she insisted
- I trust you... it's okay, concerts are better in person. You can go... you know all the songs for the concert... not the new one but....
- Isn't a matter of trust... I am not comfortable with the idea,
Yoongi. Jin has been behaving like... like a lunatic with me, I don't know what... no.... I don't want... no, no, no... why is fine for you to see me with him? that didn't take a minute to talk to me, and is brave enough to kiss me or tease me next to you? Why should I forgive him? He didn't gave me any opportunity... none, just decided by himself everything... and keeps doing things on his own without asking.
- sorry... I don't intend to upset you, because I have been talking a lot with him, Jin wants to arrange things but doesn't nows how to approach the situation, to talk to you... and arrange his mistakes.
- You... he wants to talk with me? And arrange....
- yeah, lately, Jinnie have been asking when you would go to the company... tomorrow him and Jungkook are leaving so, I was wondering if you would like to meet them briefly before they go.
- okay... and about Jin... is his last opportunity... with me or I will start doing what he asked for... I don't like games Yoongi, and I am telling you this because you are the one helping him with his things... I deserve an apology, and that he permits me to have a say, he can't keep taking from me freely.
- Ana... I am sorry... I thought it was funny for you too, since you don't... I thought your feelings were different. You wanted to have him back or that changed?
- Because it hurts, they are starting to change, and I don't like it. I can understand is a joke and that slowly he is trying to be in good terms with me, but it's not right, Jin has hurted me and doesn't mind if I am fine to have him around... it's like, he forgot everything about me
- can I... ask...
- you know me better than anyone Yoongi, ask whatever that is in your mind.
- At that time... why you choosed to follow my lead? I really reacted badly afterwards... I am so sorry, I have to admit that sometimes jealousy hits me... I can't control it... so sorry love.
- you know your members better than me, and think highly of them, all of them... with Jin, he... always looked for me, and never tried anything romantic, until he noticed that couldn't control his feelings either, but repected me... has a lot to deal with. You and I made it, fighting and staying together. Jin decided that you are important in his life but I am not... talks to you, but he gave me the cold shoulder for a long time, and now is teasing me as if everything was fine between us.
- He loves you, has the same feelings as I do, I can see it, and Jungkook was a little worried about it becauseis noticeable, but we are here. And I can't stay in the middle, you too need his love, your dear friend... or whatever Jin means to you.
- Yoongi... he forced me to learn that forever doesn't exist, I am not so sure if I can forgive him, or start over... I don't know what he wants, I don't know what you want... I am not ready... this conversation is the first one about it since that day. Even when I wanted to be there for him when Seoah... you know I always appreciate him especially compared to the other members because he teached me so many things.
- Do you remember the biggest reason of our fights?
- of course, that you are free but I wouldn't accept certain lies about certain things... just the mention of it was impossible for you to tolerate... Didn't wanted to talk about it, or hear my thoughts to understand anything about it... but you always wanted to be with me, your worries where at the beginning when we met and started to be close... afterwards, I never thought you wanted to leave me, no matter how horrible we where fighting for the stupidest thing.
- think that nowadays I finally understand it... thanks to him, and you deserve the same... even if the possessive part on my personality is totally against the idea, I think you are right... you are free but mine, if that makes sense... but still, you are mine... just mine, only mine.
- Thanks for telling me, but doubt I will use that freedom... I love to be yours exclusively... I am lucky you aren't playing with my feelings.
- Are you going to consider it seriously, if Jin tries to arrange things with you? Would you like to have him back?
- why? Would you like to see us being close? Things aren't going to be the same, can't be... but I can start over, finding a place in my heart for the Jin of the present.
- Better than see how things are now, he scared to talk to you, and you are irritated anytime he tries something new... Just for you to know, that I will be supportive on any kind of relationship... thingy.... whatever that makes you happy again, you can have it... anything you want, I mean it.
- It's not funny when the tries to kiss me.
- He is crazy over you. Only you.... since that moment, Jin can't forget about it and how you always have been with him, I knowing everything, both sides... I don't regret it now, the way he looks at you... I am glad to not be the only one losing his mind about someone... isn't what you usually tell me? That is fine if everyone is completely comfortable and sincere?
- We will see... I should teach you a few forbidden steps... now that you are going solo... Armys will appreciate it... - she was trying to redirect our conversation so the time to talk about Jin ended.
- thanks, but I actually... appreciate my life and having clothes on when I'm on stage - I teased her.
- Are you sure? You haven't heard my ideas yet... - she played around drawing heart shapes around my body.
That is how we ended in bed missing our dinner, forgetting about the entire world for a kiss... because in my bed, she is my prisoner and I am slave of her love.
I need to know what is she going to decide... or I will go crazy not knowing what she is going to do when I am not around... better with someone I can trust, that is like me... in love... trying his best... Jin is a great man... and a better friend that is not trying to compete for her love, just it's the first time we like the same person.
- No even killing me... you are mine... I will return from the other side to hold you, Mrs. Min... and you will scream my name in the ears of your collection of lovers, fulfilling my household of colorful children that I wouldn't dare to ask how you made them... I am putting a spell on you Ana... - I said using all my strength and energy to pleasure her and myself... sometimes I am rude but not with the intention to hurt.
- seems you aren't certain yet, where I belong... tell me the favor you crave tonight babe... show me the way to paradise, because I am holding back for you babe... please love I'm almost... go harder - she dared to say.
- Say my name darling, be loud beautiful... I love you... you can't imagine how much...
Can't she see that I'm scared to lose her? because I know my flaws... I prefer to share, even if it stings at first or gets me so jealous that I can bite... I need more reasons for her to stay in this marriage, not just me... that I'm quite... impredictable and ambitious is not of help.
That I will use her feelings for my teammates against her? I will. That... if they will fulfill my lacks? I will do it, will do anything to have her here, volunteering, happy.
With everything that I am, everything I have and don't have... I will tie her to my life forever... because I am not going to lose her to any future "friend" with a conventional lifestyle.... she is going to make so many new friends at university, is going to meet so many people that will see... how bad I am.
My angel has to be free, to grow and bloom with her interests and likes... but I can't let her go as she does with me... dammit I will ask to Jungkook and Taehyung to go take her at the university, on their flashy cars when I can't... see if they will scare the ones trying to get her heart or less... just for lust.
- Yoongi... what are you thinking? Mmm ? - she turned us around meanwhile I was planning ahead, I begged she marked my skin as hers... I stopped thinking and opened my walls to be loved... the only one that has gone so far with me.
In the middle of the night, I felt that I have slept to the fullest, it was early enough to stay in bed longer, spend time on my phone, and remembered to sent a text to Jin, the moron must be on his games until someone comes for him, he can sleep in the plane... 40 hours... it's carzy what he wants to do... but I'm proud of him.
SG: Dummy be on your knees
JN: dammit vampire, can't she give you one of those honey buns she bakes? think that stone in the middle of your chest needs a replacement.
SG: what are you doing?
JN: working in the song you promised but never written for me.
SG: upps ... wonder woman was thinking to buy tickets, to the cinema, to see you, can you believe her?
JN: dammit, I'm a coward
SG: At least manage to talk seriously how to arrange things... Baika have candles to hide your face in pictures at home... it's disturbing.
JN: dammit, have to be in the company in an hour....
SG: see you there.... Jin, she said it's your last opportunity before she cut ties. Arrange it, I don't think I can be of help anymore.
Jin's P/V:
- you love her, like I do - Suga said observing my MV, tomorrow I will travel to show my song to the world next to Coldplay.
- What are you talking now? That bad is my song? What do think? is good?
- why you used a child? Could be a woman. The song is amazing.... and this character, Wotteo... you said?
- Hobi was designing Mang again... I got jealous and made my own character... one separated from our group collection... something just about me.
- can I have this stuff? It's so cute.
- They are going to send me some for the group members and... I want to gift some around... this one is traveling with me tomorrow, Cris... it's for him and his group members.
- You have to come again to my program... I promise you we will do it properly this time - Yoongi is so good convincing people...
- You wanted an excuse to get me drunk that day ... you actually recorded a thing? How is going to work... if it is just the two of us in a room drinking... I will spill the secret. Baika hates me enough to do something like that to her.
- yeah... but I edited it... we talked about very private issues and I didn't wanted anyone else knows about certain things... now that I materialized my idea, I got a small crew, a place... RM tried already and we will air the chapter later.
- have you talked with Baika?
- and you? - Yoongi asked
- I don't know how to approach her, she is not happy with me.
- I will talk to her tonight, I don't know how she feels about you... actually, never wanted to talk about you after that day, just changes the matter of our conversation - Yoongi said
- must be hating my guts... take care of her.... and yourself... what you are doing for me... Believe me, I'll be always in debt with you - I admited... something made him accept my feelings for her not ruining our friendship... I don't know how is going to result but, he already decided to take action and not just observe us struggling.
- It's her choice in the end... Baika loves you, on her terms or wouldn't ever let me introduce you into our private issues... my wife is not the kind of woman that needs a row of men behind her to get her what she wants... she got me all by herself - Yoongi smiled to the little character I created.
I couldn't sleep last night, that short conversation in the agency kept me thinking why he was being so nice... some time before he was scared to lose her for me... and before that was even scared to be bad for her... He is so brave to achieve new goals... always thinking what he can do... cannot wait and see, he works on every detail... now he has everything and don't stops working on all the things he thinks can be improved.
Says he doesn't gets obsessed about anything... Baika... the one that can transform Yoongi into a decent man, not scared to show he likes soft and cute things, that he is insanely doting, that loves us without having to use words... a lot of things we could only see when he gets really drunk, are seen more often without the need of alcohol.
He is secretly the one that maintains us together, is the only one that says I need you, please stay... don't leave. And is the one that suffered more when we fight, can't leave it alone when one member has trouble, no matter if the issue is with the group our outsider struggles... sometimes takes him time, but ends getting what we need, and smiles even when he is the corner of the room ignoring us, on his own planet... and we are goofing around being too noisy.
First thing in the morning Suga contacted me, sometimes he remembers those devices aren't just to play games when he is bored.
- hey.... sweets like you, should walk on the shadows, cannot end melted before I can take the wrapping - Baika greeted us ( me and Taehyung).
- And you just dressed like the sun to make that joke work - I laughed
- it's not a joke, is an appreciation of the reality - Baika smiled to us.
- and Suga hyung? - Taehyung asked... think he won't let me a second alone with her if Yoongi is not on alert.
- looking for Jungkook, the same he did when Taehyung left for his reality - she said.
- I thought my plane was damaged or something worse, that I had and illness and nobody wanted to tell me... Should I rescue my baby brother?... can I leave you two alone? - Taehyung asked.
- what question is that? - I made him leave us alone, he turned around a couple of times to see what we do.
- why is he behaving weird?- Baika asked.
- He figured out that I kissed you, and Yoongi covered us the other day - I decided to be honest with her.
- well... the mask was in the middle, he is old enough to know that shouldn't give it second thoughts.
- I told him that I love you still - I said and take a seat next to her but don't have the guts to look at her, as I confess my love for her again.
- I heard you the first time... and all the times that came after that one, also heard you telling me that you didn't, that you were just lonely, or that wanted for yourself someone special that wasn't someone else's... happiness ....or worse.... when you said "hey let's forget about everything and be like strangers"... I am still struggling with that, you thought everything was like... if all the time being by your side was nothing to you - I felt her sobbing and turned to see what was my responsibility.
- I'm sorry but...
- Jin, I didn't came here to hear you out, just wanted to say something before you go.
- what?... okay... I am ready, tell me - ready my ass, I can't barely manage myself to stay calm looking how she cleans her face( shit... the last thing I wanted to see is her crying).
- I... just because he accepted doesn't mean I can forget how you hurted me. My love for you hasn't gone anywhere but earn it properly Jin... just wanted to say that, and wish you to have a safe trip, that everything goes smoothly for you and to see you happy again.
SUGA'S P/V:
- hyung... I am not going to die going there... aish... what are you going to do when Jin hyung goes to do the service? - Jungkook said but smiled
- look like everything is okay until I get home and cry until I am dry on my Wotteo body pillow... what else? - I said, everyone was shocked with my honesty
- what... I am sensitive man.
- hyung.... an the princess? - Jungkook finally asked, pouting.
- waiting for Jin, they will be here soon... - I went to the window to spy.
- could have waited here, he needs to come anyway - Jungkook pouted some more, but I returned to see how looked their interaction.
- they need to talk for a bit... mmm... that idiot I told him it was his last chance....
- a chance to what? - Asked Taehyung, getting into the room immediately, like an storm and startling everyone with his baritone voice.
- To be friends again... he realizes it was so stupid trying to ignore her existence - I said.
- That moron kicked out the only one looking to spend time with him at any given opportunity... not like she wouldn't prefer you hyung... - Jungkook realized his words sounded like she would prefer Jin over me.
- I know, that's why I been pushing Jin around to aproach her, but he is nervous and does a lot of strange stuff - they were talking at least, so I stopped looking, but was nervous about the situation.
- that explains a few things... but dude, trying to kiss her...- said Taehyung.
- ki- kissing?- Asked Nicole and Monique at the same time, those two one day they will take each other's eyes... I haven't met girls as competitive as those two, that's why I always secretly go to get Daniella Kim as my A&R or whoever else that is free.
- From his perspective, it was what it looked like... doesn't it, dear Tae-tae? - I mentioned and he gulped.
- Anyways, she said that was going to do a party on your funeral or something alike - said Namjoon coming in with gifts for the ones traveling.
- Anything for me? - asked Taehyung extending his hands.
- You are going away to France soon, wait for your turn.... and the others... thought Jin would be here already, Jimin surely is running late.
- Hobi said he can't make it so yesterday dropped at my apartment, probably talked already with Jin too - Jungkook said paying attention to what Suzy was telling about the clothes he was going to wear.
- Jin is talking with Baby outside - I said taking another look at them... some tears but still talking... is a good sign or not? Comfort her moron... don't you see her crying? I stopped looking at them.
- why that face? something interesting is happening? - said Nicole trying to lift the curtain, to let everyone see the scene. I stopped her.
- Don't mess around Nicole, is my friend and my wife who you are waiting to destroy with your comments - I said.
- Came on... don't tell me you pretend to make us believe you prefer that those two return to be stiked to each other again?- Monique said... those two can team up for the most convenient to them.
- Baby's not like you two, so be careful before I open my mouth - Jungkook said and they paled and disappeared to their offices.
- They are always looking who they can stomp over... not like is bad on business but... really? Jin is part of our group and Baby always have been considerate to them - Taehyung said noticing that they really don't like anyone.
- Forget it, they are a couple of harpies sometimes - Jungkook said... they have used him to get higher on their positions so it's not funny for him when they treat badly someone else on his presence.
Jimin came like a hurricane and tugged at my clothes, the sudden proximity of his face to mine made look somewhere else isntead of his face. I am not good taken by surprise like at this time.
- Do you know what's going on? - Jimin asked.