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it's hard

It's just so hard. I'm posting this because the comments are all exclamations or I won't post anyway. I won't say much, it's just so hard, and honestly, the fandom is really bad right now, all the half-hats are leaving, all the precious people are leaving, and it feels like everyone by my side is going to disappear, so I'm so scared, and I have no one to lean on, and I don't even go up, but it feels like a sudden drop...? Honestly, even if I say this, it's hard to leave a comment. It seems insincere to write something to cheer you up, but I don't really have anything to say.
Then just tell me the truth and comfort me? I don't even expect that kind of thing. That's been my life up until now. No, I don't know what you're saying, but honestly, when I first had a hard time in the real world, I received strength from the night people, but now I feel like I'm becoming a burden to the night people? Actually, I was really happy when I woke up and saw that I had left a comment on the fan club. When Special Hee Joo-bin unnie left a comment, I checked when I went out to the bathroom or get water in the morning, and anyway, I really feel uncomfortable leaving comments on posts like this and I feel bad just passing by. I'm not asking for much, just communication and sincere feelings, that's all I need. Oh, I'm sorry for suddenly speaking out, but this is something I've really wanted to say since a long time ago. I've lost a lot of my original intentions, so I'm trying to go back to the old days, but we have to make efforts together, right? The unnies, friends, and even my younger siblings I met on the fan club chat have all left, and I miss them so much. Now, I'm leaving the fan club at night, and on top of that, the writing and fan club are coming together. It's hard in real life, I can't study, my condition isn't good these days, I have depression, and my self-esteem is low, so I'm saying this. If it's hard to leave a comment, I'd rather go to another fan club. I don't really like it when people only comfort me when I post things like this. No, I do like it, but anyway, it's a little late, so I'm going to sleep. Good night:)❤🧡💛💚💙💜🌕