We decided not to cross the line (Season 1)

Episode 84. Mistake

"I came because I was worried about Hoonji, that's true.

But the person I'm meeting right now is

this person, isn't it."





"So the person you just called was

your boyfriend?

I had a feeling, but I still hoped it wasn't true.

I thought you were saying that to make me give up...

And you told each other you loved one another in front of me.

Do you like that person too? Or do you love him?"





"I'm not sure about love yet... but he's a good person."





"You saw my article,

and even forgot the promise to meet that person's parents

and came all the way here to stand in front of me now.
 
That's love.

Why do you keep denying how you feel?"





"Even if... I still love Hoonji

I'll choose that person."





"Why... why?

Why am I not enough?

Why are you so

cruel to the person you love!!

If I quit being an actor, all of it—everything, I'll give it up, okay?

Then will you stay by my side?"





Only then did I

realize that rushing back to Korea

and standing in front of him like this

had been a huge mistake.





"Why are you meeting that person's parents?

You said you weren't getting married.

Are you saying you'd be okay marrying that person?

How is that fair!

You're so cold with me, cutting me off completely,

so why are you so lenient with that person?"






"It's because I couldn't cut Hoonji off cleanly

that things ended up like this.

I'm still like this because I kept stupidly letting my feelings drag me around every day."

"Even after going all the way to Spain, I still remember you,




and even when I meet other people I keep thinking about you and worrying.

I really feel pathetic and stupid.

I should never have met you in the first place."

After hearing my last words,





his expression was utterly hollow.

"You really... think so?"





"If I had... if we hadn't met,





I would have lived my ordinary life.

I wouldn't have had to struggle like this, get worn out like this,

or keep avoiding you."

"You're not serious, are you...?






Please, tell me you're not."

I bit my lip hard.





Then I said slowly,

"I am serious.





I regret meeting Hoonji."

He looked into my eyes,





and in the end I looked away from his.

Then I quietly picked up my bag





and left his house.

'If I came here... I messed everything up.'




I went down to the first floor





and sat on a bench.

I had no idea where to go now,





or what I should do.

Why is it that only in front of Hoonji





do I become such an emotional person?

I couldn't understand.

Should I go to my parents' house,





should I go to a hotel,

should I check my plane ticket first...?

Both my body and my heart were utterly exhausted.




I decided to sit here for a while




and think about what I should do first.

About thirty minutes passed like that.





Someone was pulling along the suitcase they'd left standing beside me.





Startled, I looked up.

It was Hoonji.





"Hoonji! What are you doing?"





"Come in.





You didn't even make a hotel reservation before coming here.

And...

I can't send you away the moment I see you."

"I'm going to win you back, no matter what."