So much has happened these past two days. Yesterday, I just wanted to check out Jongin's pictures on Weibo, but all I saw were negative comments, curses, and insults. Reading them felt like knives stabbing into my heart. I don't understand. A big reason I started liking Ethan Ruan was because of the united and adorable fans. I just don't get it. It turns out time really can change a lot...
Last night, I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I talked to my EXO-Ls. I was so sad, and I talked to her for a long, long time, saying one thing but not another. Then she sent me those three photos of Minseok, Kyungsoo, and Suho being patted on the head by the other members. Just one glance, and I couldn't stop crying. Seriously, this is the first time I've ever cried like this. I've liked them for so long, and this is the first time I've felt this way.
Some EXO-Ls comforted me, telling me not to take idol worship too seriously. I understand, but I'm really feeling overwhelmed. I also suddenly remembered what Suho said in "Heart For You," "It's already quite an achievement to have persevered this far." I've been persevering, and no matter what happens, I'll always cheer you all on and face it with a smile.
I... am a group fan. I don't know what group fans mean to individual fans, but I always see comments like, "We... usually help out the other members, we hope group fans can treat us well..." I don't hate this sentence, but hearing it too much makes me feel helpless... It's because every member is so wonderful, indispensable, and irreplaceable that group fans exist. So please stop questioning group fans... it really hurts. We try our best to vote for each member, doing our work quietly, but even so, when something goes wrong, we might not even know, but we're already shouldering the blame.
Solo fans don't quite understand. We really think things through carefully every time we speak to make sure it's accurate. It's not that we're overly sensitive, but we're afraid that we might have overlooked something and that you'll overthink it...
Being a solo stan has its advantages; it only means liking one person. I really enjoy visiting each other's various fan clubs on Weibo; it's simple and fun.
EXO made them who they are, and EXO-L exists because of EXO. So we are one!
My favorite scene is the third tour. The nine of them sat together, with Lay and Chanyeol at either end playing guitar, the members singing, and EXO-Ls cheering from below. That year, the sea of silver lights was truly dazzling, along with the smiles in the boys' eyes—that was the most beautiful look of youth.
We are one！
