Collection of congratulatory messages and congratulatory messages from Hwayangyeonhwa UA
☪ Birthday Wishes (October 1, 2018)
_Subtitle: ARMYs' Untold Truths
Ⅰ. ARMY A
00. Answer: lovemyself The darkness of grades. The darkness of comparison. The darkness of pain. Any darkness, it was all the same. The fear was the same. I wanted to avoid that darkness, not want to see it, so I closed my eyes. I never wanted to open them again.
Because I didn't have the courage to face the darkness.
01. I open my eyes. In the darkness, the sound of my heart beating feels unfamiliar. When I heard BTS's voice, I unconsciously opened my eyes. Even in the darkness, if there were other ARMYs to talk to, if there were BTS to make me smile, I was no longer afraid.
My heart was pounding uncontrollably.
02. I face myself in the mirror. Frightened eyes. An age-old question. I looked into the mirror. My eyes were filled with fear, and my appearance was indescribably haggard. I stared straight at myself standing in the mirror and asked a question.
"Why am I afraid?" I hated myself for being afraid without even knowing what I was afraid of or what it was. Perhaps what I was afraid of was myself.
03. Perhaps loving myself is more difficult than loving someone else. I love Kim Seokjin, I love Min Yoongi, I love Jung Hoseok. And I love Kim Namjoon, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, and Jeon Jungkook. And yet, I wasn't loving the most important thing: myself.
No, is it true that 'I' is the most important thing?
04. Let's be honest and admit it: The standards you set for yourself are even more stringent than your own. Average score of 95 or higher on tests. All A's in class. At least two awards per semester. The goals I set for myself kept getting higher and higher, and I kept belittling myself.
I was strangling myself.
05. The thick rings in your life, they too are a part of you, you. The rings, their patterns tell the story of the path we've traversed. They explain the pain we've endured.
06. Now, let's forgive myself. Our lives are too long to throw away. Trust me in this maze. "It's okay. You'll do well." "I trust myself."
07. When winter passes, spring comes again. We've endured too much pain to be called winter, and it doesn't feel warm enough yet to be called spring. It's probably still late winter. If we just hold on a little longer, the season of beautiful flowers will come. And I, too, will become that flower.
08. The cold night's gaze. I tossed and turned, trying to hide my shabby appearance. The gazes seemed to look down on me. I hated those gazes, so I tried my best to hide my haggard appearance.
09. Did I fall to meet those countless stars? ....I was born to live, embracing all those shining stars.
10. I'm the target of those thousands of brilliant arrows. So...so...that's why it hurt so much...
Ⅱ. ARMY 2
00. Answer: lovemyself It doesn't matter if I'm sick, in pain, or torn apart. I'm old, but I'm not me. I've been through so much that I can't even feel the emotion of "hardship" anymore.
Just as a wound becomes a scab, my wound has hardened and I can no longer feel the pain.
01. There may not be a right answer. Maybe this isn't the answer either. There's no right answer... So frustrated, does that mean there's no way to get back up? So, what am I supposed to do?
02. Even just loving myself required someone's permission... That's right... I wanted to ask anyone... whether I was worthy of being loved.
03. I'm still searching for myself. But I don't want to die anymore. I'm old, but I don't know if I'm really me. Am I the one doing these things? Am I the one saying these words? If I can't feel anything at the word "die," then I've already given up on everything, right?
04. Me, sad, me, even in pain, more beautiful Ah...even in sadness, even in pain, I...I am me...In every moment, I was me. Can I become beautiful? Me?
05. Yes, knowing that beauty exists is the path to my love, and the most necessary thing for me to do. Knowing that I am beautiful is the path to my love, and the most necessary thing for me to do. *After hearing those words, I climbed a high mountain without thinking.
"I love myself!!!" "I loved myself..." "I love myself..." "I bought myself..." "I myself..." "I myself..." "I myself..." "I myself..." "I myself..." "I myself..." "........." The echoes of the voices filled me with relief.
06. The steps I take now are the ones that bring me happiness. The attitude that I take is the ones that bring me happiness. I need actions that are meant for me. But I've never tried it before, so I don't know how. Still, I think I could try it once...
07. I'll show you what I got I'm not afraid, because that's who I am, love myself I'll show you everything I can do. I'm not afraid. Because I deserve to be loved just for who I am.
08. From the very beginning to the very end, there is only one answer. I wondered what that answer was. From the very beginning of my life, when I was born, until the day I die, is there one thing that remains constant?
09. Why do you keep trying to hide behind your mask? I won't hide anymore. Because the imperfections of my true face are better than the perfection of a false mask. Because that's more beautiful. Because that's who I am.
10. Even the scars I inflicted on myself by mistake are all part of my constellation. The ends of the paths I've run will be at the ends of the constellations. Even those ends will be stars. That star will be me. I was born a star and will die a star.
Ⅲ. ARMY and BTS
End. There's still a clumsy me inside me, but even if I'm a little clumsy, my love for myself, for you, for us, will never change. It will only become more beautiful. Even if I stumble while running, I won't give up, but will hold your hand and run until the very end.
You too, don't let go of my hand and let's be together for the rest of your life.
Thank you for allowing me to love you
Ⅲ - Ⅱ. Epiloge.
You'v show me the reasons I have, I should love myself Answer with all my breath, all the path I've walked
Yesterday's me, today's me, tomorrow's me (I'm learning how to love myself) Everything, without exception, everything, everything, me
W. In the Mood for Love UA To. Hualien and BTS
화양연화UA
Thank you BTS for making me love you