I CAN'T LEAVE YOU....
Feelings....
Now me and tae are at the cafe
It's like an escape for me from all of those thoughts that keeps popping up in my mind
Taehyung
Wanna have something?
Y/N
No...I just want to spent sometime
Taehyung
I'll make a call and come
Y/N
Sure
I gave a slight smile
This is what I like about him ie knows when leave me alone and when I need someone around
Thinking about that reminded me of Lisa...her playful jokes and how we both kept teasing each other back in our school days
Water formed in my eyes as I tried hard to not let it fall, but......
Failed
Now this was bad....I am trailing off in my past again
Jimin...jungkook...my aunty...Lisa...Yura...I could see everyone's face repeating in my mind
I feel like I regret what I did...b-but it was because I loved him more than anything maybe more I loved myself!
And I did want him to be safe atleast until I am alive......he's safe now...but is he happy? is he fine? will he be smiling like before?
In the depth of my heart I want to know ...I want to see him ...I want to talk to him, ask him if he is fine...but
but a part of me still refuses...what I'd something bad happens again?
I clearly don't have the strength to take all that pain again....I may sound good from outside but I am so weak from inside
Literally a person who lost all her hopes of living....living just for the sake of it!
Taehyung
What happened ? why are you crying?
I was snapped out of everything when tae called me....
I saw him approaching our table while sliding the phone inside his pocket
I would thank him a million or a trillion times for getting me out or else I would have died right now ,here!
Taehyung
Talk something gurl!
Y/N
Nope ...I am good
Y/N
Just a bit of flashbacks
Taehyung
Really? now?
Y/N
I don't know it just ...you know keeps coming
Taehyung
You are obsessed with him
Y/N
I won't deny that
Taehyung
Seriously when did you get so open huh?
Y/N
Life taught me tae
Taehyung
Ah!....lemme show you something?
Y/N
Like?
Taehyung
Like a video?
Taehyung
And a pic?
Y/N
What exactly is it?
Taehyung
A video of two guys dancing
Taehyung
And a picture of both of them and a girl
Taehyung
It was took almost 5 years before
And that one sentence made my heart stop.....eyes grew wide
Words protested to come out
He turned his phone facing me
Tears streamed down my eyes as I saw the three of us stading together with me in middle smiling widely at the cam
I missed them so badly.....I missed his smile
Y/N
W-where did y-you get this from?
Taehyung
am I supposed to answer?
Y/N
Tae don't act silly...atleast not now!
Taehyung
Yah...calm! jungkook posted it!
Oh my....they are still.....
Taehyung
Don't you wana call them?
Y/N
as much as I wanted it to...I don't want to
Taehyung
That day was special right?
Y/N
It was.....specifically the most beautiful day I have ever had
I looked outside the window and closed my eyes .....recollecting the day....