Thank you always - If you can twist it, try twisting it

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Hello!! Today I'm going to tell you a special story about myself.

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First of all, this is my dad's story... Actually, he's not my dad either.

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I've lived with child abuse and sexual violence since I was little...

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I was too young back then to know much about it.

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At first, they lived well, but after she gave birth to me, I was too young and was in the hospital, right?

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But it was so comfortable back then...

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I'm healthy and free of any illnesses, so it must have been very comfortable for my dad.

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Of course it's hard when I'm sick or in pain...

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I wish I was so healthy

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Now let's get to the main point.

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You brought Chani to our house back then, right?

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It just seemed like a happy family home...?

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But no

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My mom still has scars from the surgery.

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The surgical scar is because of that son of a bitch

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I was about 5 or 6 years old? That's when that kid sexually assaulted me...

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But I didn't start all at once, I started slowly and quietly... I started doing it little by little, and then the days when I was being harassed gradually increased.

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I was so... so young that I couldn't do anything.

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Every time I struggled, he hit me with a metal bar.

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Sometimes I hit him with a tree

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I hated it so much... I was sick and cried all day

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I'm sorry. I was wrong. Please save me. I won't do it again. Please...etc.

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He even hit my mom

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It was so painful right in front of me

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I hated it so much...

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As time went by, when I was 7 years old, I made my first friend.

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Boo Seung-kwan.

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You comforted me

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I'm 7 years old

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Even though I was miserable, I always sneaked out and received comfort from Seungkwan. Because of my circumstances, I was the one who always waited for him.

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I'd die without Seungkwan

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But I have another precious person?

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Chani... comforts me

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If you see me sad, ask me

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But I... I'm so sorry for only relying on other people.

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I'm so sorry to Seungkwan and Chani

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I don't have much to give, so I just take... I hate that so much

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But when I was in 5th grade and on my way home from school

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I was crossing the traffic light when my dad died right in front of me.

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On the one hand, it was so good

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On the one hand, it was painful

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Because I was abused, I saw my precious mother get beaten badly, and I saw my enemy die in front of my eyes.

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I heard that the kid was hit by a car so badly that he had to be taken away in an ambulance, but he eventually died.

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Now the second

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You all probably know

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Boyfriend story

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That piece of trash is dating me and threatening me with stories about my dad.

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I do avoid skinship though

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I'll accept it a few times

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I have no choice but to accept it. If I don't accept it, I'll get hit again like I used to, so I hate it so much that I have no choice but to accept it.