I'm bullied

48. Self-harm again

서은광

We need to make a comeback.. Our activities have been sluggish and the response has been good lately..

이민혁

I'm worried about Changseob

이창섭

I'm okay now.. Minhyuk hyung and Secretary hyung will protect me.. haha

이민혁

okay..

서은광

I'll protect you too

임현식

me too

프니엘

me too

정일훈

me too

육성재

Well...me too

이창섭

Thank you^^

이민혁

(Hmm... Is this really okay? Should I ask for advice?)

이창섭

Haha (covering wrist)

서은광

Hmm..Changseob..give me your hand

이창섭

Hand? Why? (holding out hand)

서은광

Are you harming yourself again? (wrist raises)

Changseop's wrists are covered in scars.

이민혁

you!!!!!!

이창섭

Ah.. no.. that.. ugh.. I was wrong..

서은광

Oh my... I knew it

이민혁

Let's get some counseling right now... We'll heal your emotional wounds and your wrists too.

이창섭

Ugh..ㅜㅠ

육성재

Bro.. if you're scared, stay with us.. don't hurt yourself..

정일훈

We're also scared that something might go wrong

이창섭

I was wrong.. I won't do it again..ㅜㅠ

After that, Changsub was never left alone and one person was always with him.

A few days later

이민혁

Changseop... the counselor will come to your dorm... Don't be nervous and come for counseling.

이창섭

Woof..

상담의사

Hello.. I am Dr. Kim Taehyung who will be consulting with Changseop^^

이창섭

Wow..the teacher is really handsome

상담의사

Thank you..^^ First, please lie down comfortably on the bed.

이창섭

Ah..yeap

이창섭

Can I just lie down?

상담의사

Yes.. you did well.. would you like to tell me a story about Changsub?

이창섭

Um... I was bullied before I debuted.

상담의사

Like that

이창섭

I couldn't tell anyone.. They threatened me with naked pictures of me.

이창섭

The people I believed were my friends suddenly changed and treated me like a toy or a send-off.

이창섭

Then I got really hurt...here (showing the back wound)

상담의사

It's pretty big...

이창섭

I fell over after being hit by a vase, and a piece of the vase got stuck in my back.

이창섭

He was rushed to the hospital and threatened not to tell anyone that he had done it, and Eun-kwang heard about it.

이창섭

But the guy who hit me is the grandson of a big business owner.. Even if I told the company, Eun-kwang and I would have been the ones who got kicked out.. I was devastated by that.

이창섭

I was seriously considering dying because I wanted to, but Minhyuk saved me.

이창섭

Minhyuk sent that bad guy to jail... but... there was nothing I could do...

이창섭

It was hard.. I couldn't solve it on my own.. (sob sob)

이창섭

I feel relieved... I think I'll be safe as long as I'm by your side.

이창섭

I feel disgusted with myself for thinking like that

이창섭

I was glad that I didn't have those thoughts anymore after self-harming.

이창섭

Recently, he's been targeting me again. I think he thought it was my fault that he went to jail. He's no match for Minhyuk, so he's targeting me, who's easier.

이창섭

I'm human too...sob...sob

상담의사

Changseop...hmm...it's not your fault that something like that happened.

상담의사

And that person is bad, it's not that Changseop is weak or easy.

이창섭

thank you..

상담의사

Then I'll come back for the next consultation. I'll give you some medicine, so take it. It'll make you feel better.

이창섭

yes

이민혁

How is it? (They are friends)

상담의사

Hmm... I'm quite heartbroken that I couldn't do anything when I was being bullied.

상담의사

I rely on you, but I also have feelings that are similar to jealousy.

상담의사

Hmm... how about trying some exercise?

이민혁

work out?

상담의사

Things like boxing or self-defense to protect your body...

상담의사

I think this will help... I'm not very confident.

이민혁

Really? Hmm

상담의사

Don't leave him alone for the time being. I gave him medicine, but keep a close eye on him so he doesn't eat it all at once.

상담의사

I'm feeling very depressed... I need to control my emotions for a while and don't cause any problems.

이민혁

huh

이민혁

thanks

상담의사

I'm getting paid to do this, so... I'm going.. See you next week.

이민혁

okay..

상담의사

Oh, by the way, Changseop doesn't call him by his name. He refers to him as the guy who beat up the bad guy. He's afraid to even call him by his name.

상담의사

I'm going~

Changseob fell asleep, perhaps because the consultation was difficult.

이민혁

Hmm...what should I do with you...(stroking Changseob's wrist)

이민혁

Should I make him gain some weight and exercise?

서은광

I'm out.. Is the consultation over? (Everyone except Minhyuk was out because they thought it might be burdensome to have the consultation.)

이민혁

Yeah...I fell asleep

서은광

what?

이민혁

Since I gave him some medicine, I thought it would be good to feed him some and have him exercise?

서은광

work out?

이민혁

If you become healthy enough to take care of yourself, it will help you gain confidence.

서은광

Hmm... Shall we learn together?

이민혁

It must be boring to do it alone, right?

서은광

huh.

이민혁

Let's ask the kids and learn together

서은광

okay..

Sending messages and asking questions through group chat

임현식

I like it

프니엘

I like it

정일훈

good

육성재

good

서은광

Yeah..let's all learn together

이민혁

The unity is going well.. I'll ask Changsub and prepare the gym and everything, so just come in good shape

End of chat