IT WAS ALWAYS YOU

(PAST) HIGHSCHOOL EP-12

a week went by

y/n was struggling to even come out

Mr and Mrs. Min were hopeless and for the abused and abandoned families they again started working

Yoongi was speechless about what was happening around

the friends came and visit them and go

today was another same morning after the incident

y/n was moving towards this side and that side

04:30 AM

she couldn't sleep ...

she sat on her desk and started scribbling on her memory diary

she started crying at her helpless self

suddenly a knock on the door

Yoongi always knocked at 10 am but today it was too early

Y/N

what?!

y/n asked trying to hide her weak self

she opened the door as there was no response

but to her shock it was not Yoongi or her parents it was....

Taehyung and Aaron

TAEHYUNG

y/n...

taehyung was in tears he hugged y/n

Aaron Yan

y/n..you should... come with u-

y/n shaked her head .

Y/N

drink water first

she said giving a slight sigh

she didn't want to see her friends cry afterall..

Y/N

why are you here so early? where are my parents? Yoongi?

y/n asked looking at them confused

taehyung stopped drinking

TAEHYUNG

there's no time you should be THERE

taehyung said confirming

Y/N

tae..what is it about?

Y/N

you know my situa-

Aaron Yan

please come with us , once

Aaron asked again with tears pleading her

Y/N

wha-what happened ?

y/n understood that there was something wrong

taehyung broke down in tears

catching y/n's hands

Aaron patted y/n before speaking out

Aaron Yan

ju-jungkook did an

Aaron took a deep breath not to break down

Aaron Yan

suicide attempt

y/n eyes widened at the word "suicide"

the glass in her hand fell down

the othe two started crying hugging y/n

y/n stood there speechless

everything went blank to her

Y/N

so?

y/n asked trying to hide her tears and feelings

why should she feel sad ? she doesn't need to anymore

afterall what he did to her ...

taehyung looked at her in disbelief

TAEHYUNG

you don't talk like this

TAEHYUNG

y/n keep your anger and ego aside for a while please

Aaron Yan

Jungkook's chanting your name since damn 2 hours . your mom and dad are there to comfort Mrs.Jeon

y/n scoffed it off

Y/N

your believing him?

y/n asked still not believing how she is talking like that

can love turn into hate like this?

taehyung got up banging the table

TAEHYUNG

FUCK SHIT! YOU ARE NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT'S HE GOING THROUGH!

TAEHYUNG

HE'S UNCONSCIOUS SINCE 10 HOURS!!

TAEHYUNG

HE'S JUST CHANTING YOUR NAME WHENEVER THE DOCTOR IS ASKING FOR A RESPONSE!

TAEHYUNG

IF YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT STUPID WHO LOVES YOU

TAEHYUNG

THEN VISIT HIM! FOR GOD'S SAKE

taehyung said leaving the house in tears

Aaron Yan

please think

Aaron said concerned.

Aaron Yan

am sure love doesn't fool anyone

Aaron said leaving

Aaron and taehyung left

07:21 AM

y/n was eating the breakfast she did for herself

y/n's pov.

why should I even care about him

shouldn't have trusted him or my damn feelings to leave to meet him

I don't care if he di-

I stopped thinking all of this when I understand what shit I was even thinking

it wasn't destined to end up like this right..?

am sure about that

tears came down falling

I picked my phone to see texts from all my friend pleading me to be near the person who's desperate to see me

I don't care

I do care

I want him to live

positive thoughts took over my mind

I wanted to be there beside him

I immediately took my bike keys and was about to leave when another thought switched into my mind

if I be there will we get hurt again?

or will the god forgive him? ...

my stupid self

I decided to leave this house ...I packed my bags

08:35 PM

I looked at the time and laughed

I wanted to leave all this behind this thought was strong tho

I wanted to leave the past behind and give him a visit and leave him

I erased my tears and left closing the door taking a deep sigh.

is really youth Beautiful?

it's never a Blooming lovely one

it's just thorns and stones .

but stupid us and poor us trying to find life in the pain

I entered the hospital room to see my parents and Mrs Jeon crying , beongseon crying in yoongi's embrace

sochul patting a crying Aaron and hoseok

Seokjin and Namjoon talking with the nurses and doctors trying their best

and inside was Jungkook a bloomed Autumn leaf trying to hold onto his last breathes

all of them looked at me with a slight hope

I didn't look at them and went straight to Seokjin and Namjoon who were shocked to see me looking all fine

I was a good actor and presenter of course

Y/N

will he live ?

I asked in a heartless way while my heart was pounding for him to breathe

Seokjin looked at me in disbelief

Namjoon sighed and nodded .

NAMJOON

he's fine but just that he's not opening his eyes

I nodded

while beongseon came near to me

BEONGSEON

unnie

seon came near me and hugged me while I just patted her head and gave no expression which shocked everyone there

I wanted to cry with her and comfort her but my monster took over me

BEONGSEON

save him please he needs you

I sighed

Y/N

he will open his eyes don't worry

I said when taehyung arrived with two drinks in his hand and handed it to my mom and Mrs.Jeon

he looked at me

TAEHYUNG

so FINALLY are you waiting for him to die?

which made everyone gasp

while I wanted to cry hugging taehyung but just smiled

Y/N

why would I want someone to die

I asked trying not to break my voice

TAEHYUNG

Someone? IS THAT WHAT HE'S TO YOU??

TAEHYUNG

YOU KNOW WHY HE'S LYING THERE LIKE A LIFELESS BODY??

TAEHYUNG

YOU

Aaron stood up to stop him while I looked at him shocked

TAEHYUNG

HE COULDN'T SUPPORT YOU STRUGGLING IN YOUR ROOM FOR THESE 5 DAYS AND DID A SUICIDE ATTEMPT

TAEHYUNG

WHY? DO YOU STILL WANNA BREAK HIM AND CRY AFTER THIS ?

TAEHYUNG

IF THAT'S IT THEN LEAVE!

taehyung said crying

SEOKJIN

he's right please help Jungkook

Seokjin said with his tears in eyes

HOSEOK

it's difficult to see him like that

YOONGI

I know how you feel dear but he's important for not us only

JIMIN

he's important to you too ...

jimin said trying hard not to cry .

I gulped and looked into Jungkook's bed who's lying there lifeless

when Mrs Jeon held my hand in tears

MRS.JEON

we will go away and will never disturb you please once save my son , y/n

MRS.JEON

I have no one to take care of if I leave beongseon alone

aunt said crying

I patted her while my mom nodded saying help Jungkook ...

she knew how I feel...

my father opened the door to go visit him

I nodded while I looked at my friends and beongseon and went inside

whenever I looked at Jungkook before he looked like a golden butterfly in the darkness

but now ..he looked lifeless

I went near him

sat beside him

Y/N

ju-

my voice broke down

I started lamenting out of nowhere

sobbing catching his hands

Y/N

open your eyes idiot!

Y/N

everyone's cr-crying for you

Y/N

don't sleep like this go play basketball with my brother and start talking sweetly like you always did

Y/N

let me listen to your voice once

I said completely weeping for him

I knew I love him that second when our heartbeats started beating in unison

I could hear my heartbeat as I saw his heartbeat rate .

Y/N

wake up so we can be happy

Y/N

wake up so that beongseon won't be left alone

Jungkook wasn't moving but tears fell down his eyes

I looked at him

I hugged him and started crying while he was crying with his eyes shut .

Y/N

stupid wake up for our friends for your future

Jungkook moved his hand to gesture something ..he pointed at me

Y/N

wake up so that I can smile

I said kneeling down and crying

Y/N

please don't fall down like autumn leaf but stand up like a blooming flower please

I said catching his hands and cupping his cheeks to tell him I was near him

the doctors came in saying he will be fine

Y/N

no , noo let him open his eyes

DOCTOR

mam if you disturb him he will go into coma don't disturb him .

Y/N

I will leave if you give me a chance to see him open his eyes I won't stay beside him

please Jungkook open your eyes

I panted out of crying

Jungkook moved making me freeze

tears filling my eyes

the doctors immediately started asking him things

he didn't respond

the nurse looked at me and told to tell him something

I got up on my feet

Y/N

ju-jungkook wake up dear

I said when his eyes moved

the doctors told everyone else while they rushed in and thanked me

taehyung looked at me

TAEHYUNG

I know you love him

I smiled and hugged taehyung crying

but my will was strong

I wanted to leave forever

so that everyone can stay fine and okay

I looked at Jungkook who was smiling hugging his mom and sister and thanking everyone while looking around to find me

I cried a silent cry

I took my bag and ran outside

to hide my pain I collapsed down

I came out of the hospital I looked at the room where Jungkook was

room 301 floor 7

I smiled

bye...my love...

I wanted to leave even though my heart needed some time

I will leave Jungkook for our good future and will make sure that we will never meet

bye .

I erased my tears and left to the airport to leave for Malaysia where my cousin leaves

I had some money

my heart was pleading me to stay but I didn't want to

what I heard that day still echoed in my ears saying it's waste of my life if I stay here

I should leave atleast for my sake

yes I will be selfish

and yes I will let the monster out

yes I will break down everyday for him that man who made me smile

I wrote a letter to my family in the house and left

I was stupid I know that

I suddenly got a call

???

come faster unnie

Y/N

yes yeonjun I will be in the airport sooner

YEONJUN

damn just leave him and come don't cry

my cousin always supported me

he never stood up with anyone's opinions expect mine

even though he was 6 years younger than me

he was mature enough and that's what made him live alone in Malaysia so I decided to leave and find hope in my future and myself

Y/N

I will be there sooner in another 30 minutes

YEONJUN

done I will tell my driver to pick you up

YEONJUN

if you wanna cry then don't come near me

he said in a stiff voice

YEONJUN

come as a women raging with confidence and trust in herself

yeonjun reminded me .

I smiled he knew me so well

a new journey started in my life I was so sure about that

i know I did make some things a mess but now all I want to do is

start anew

Y/N

I am okay yeonjun let's get back to the business project

yeonjun was Happy to hear that response from me

YEONJUN

don't think you can let go of him so sooner

I nodded

YEONJUN

like a phoenix rise again

he said which made me feel better

yes the monster took over me

the side which will be feared by everyone

the y/n who will rise now will be raised from ashes of tears and pain and regret

and no one will see it coming

a autumn leaf who will grow into a flower

thanks for my past I will never forget you ..

end of y/n's pov .

YOONGI

Jungkook grow up into a man your meant to be

YOONGI

which Mrs Jeon wanted you to he

YOONGI

don't collapse like a joker card

YOONGI

forget about her ...leave to Taiwan with Aaron

Aaron Yan

you should gguk

HOSEOK

start newly

TAEHYUNG

don't worry about us

SEOKJIN

hyungs will stay here for you

JUNGKOOK

okay..but remember ...

SEOKJIN

what did you just say!.

Jungkook nods

JIMIN

okay...

Yoongi nods sadly

JUNGKOOK

I will build my own empire as you guys said , a new Jungkook and will bring her to me

to be continued