Light in my Dark
CHAPTER 30
THE NEXT MORNING
Your POV
The girls and I are having breakfast quietly, but I can feel they keep on giving me side glances.
Soohee
If you guys want to say something, you can tell me.
Lia
Well... First off, let's talk about Han.
Ryujin
Are you two together now?
Your POV
Great. The Hot seat.
Soohee
No...I mean not yet.
Yeji
But you kissed, what's that all about then?
Soohee
He started it.
Ryujin
You could've pulled away...
Soohee
You know me...do you think I could pull away?
Ryujin
Oh right. You'll be frozen like ice, then you'll burst into flames after...did you?
Soohee
No. I didn't get mad.
Yeji
How long did you liked him? Why didn't you tell us?
Soohee
I don't know. Really. I think it started somewhere when we got closer. There are instances that...I feel weird around him.
Lia
And when you mean weird...you mean butterflies in your stomach and all that?
Soohee
I guess you could say that. I thought I won't get over Chan, that's why I pushed it away..that I like Han. I didn't let that thought
Soohee
linger in my mind for long. I denied it over and over.
Lia
So you lied to yourself that you don't like him whenever that thought passes your mind, and Chan is the reason?
Soohee
You know what we had...and he's here, I'm afraid to hurt him like that. Imagine if I was him.
Ryujin
I get Soohee's point. So do we still have to continue this trip?
Soohee
Of course. Hyunjin planned this. I won't ruin it because of my complicated love life.
Ryujin
Okay, we'll tell them, because they texted.
Yeji
Let's go over their room. I bet they're just waiting there or pigging out.
Lia
You two go ahead, and come back here after 10 minutes with the boys.
Your POV
Oh no...Mom Lia mode is on.
Your POV
Yeji and Ryujin went to the other room, leaving me and Lia starring at each other.
Soohee
Sooo?
Lia
I'm kinda disappointed with you.
Soohee
Here we go...
Lia
Listen!
Your POV
Lia grabs my hand and gives me that look that's the same like my mom gives me when she's both angry and concerned.
Lia
I don't understand what's in your heart or that big brain of yours, but you should be careful in everything you do, especially when Chan is
Lia
around. Thankfully he was mature enough to just leave instead of starting a fight with Han.
Your POV
Lia's right about that. Chan can be very scary when he's angry, a lot scarier than me.
Lia
I thought you let that go?
Soohee
Let what go? Huh?
Lia
Your feelings with Chan.
Soohee
I did! I'm just...scared for him that's all.
Lia
Chan will definitely not accept that at first, but when he finally sees that you're happy with Han, he will let you go. Stop thinking about
Lia
other people, and think about yourself. What will make you happy?
Your POV
Chan and I... we've been through a lot. I had a lot of "firsts" with him. First love, first boyfriend, first kiss, first heartbreak...
Your POV
You name it...I just don't know how to end things permanently with him without hurting him.
Your POV
But that's hard, unless we talk it through.
Soohee
I just need to talk to him. So we can figure this out.
Lia
Okay. And please... don't hide something from us. If you're confused about something, we're here to help you. Okay?
Soohee
Okay. I'm sorry. I will next time.
Lia
Starting now...how was the kiss? Is Han a good kisser? Where was his hands placed at??
Your POV
Oh boy...The nosy friend mode is on.
Soohee
Shhh. I can hear them. I'll answer them later.
Lia
Okay. I'll hold you on to that. I need deets!
Soohee
*laughs* Yeah yeah..
Your POV
They all entered the room...and I swear the color of my surroundings changed when Han appeared. I can feel my cheeks burning..
Hyunjin
Sooheeee~
Your POV
Hyunjin ran towards me and hugged me like a little kid..
Hyunjin
Please let's continue this for one more day! Just one! We can all go home after that please!
Soohee
Okaay..what did those two girls tell you?
Minho
They said you don't feel so good and you want to go home
Changbin
And I don't want to go home yet!
Your POV
Ryujin and Yeji were both trying hard not to laugh.
Soohee
I didn't said that. I'm completely fine.
Your POV
Hyunjin stood up quickly and pretended nothing happen.
Hyunjin
Great! So where should we go now?
Felix
You guys must be blind or deaf, because it's raining like crazy outside..
Your POV
We all looked at each other and opened the curtains. It was raining, and it'll be hard to travel like this.
Hyunjin
Oh great. What should we do now?
Han Jisung
What's wrong with staying here? We can have fun indoors too.
Changbin
Anyone up for some games?
Felix
I brought card games!
Lia
Great! Let's crash in your room. Come on~
Changbin
It's more spacious here~ I vote we stay.
Felix
Yeah. I'll just grab my card games.
Hyunjin
Oh wait I brought a board game too, I'll get it.
Ryujin
I'll take the snacks that I brought.
Lia
Let's order something too!
Your POV
While everyone was busy with their own businesses, Han and I sat in the couch quietly.
Your POV
He left without saying a word last night. After hugging me until I stopped crying, he just wiped my tears, caressed my cheeks, gave me a
Your POV
weak smile and then left quietly.
Han Jisung
Did you sleep well?
Soohee
Yeah. My eyes were really heavy last night.
Han Jisung
Sorry for leaving like that last night.. I didn't know what to say.
Soohee
We're you listening to me?
Han Jisung
I did. I'm sorry. I'm really good at eavesdropping.
Soohee
It's okay..
We were silent again...
Then he holds my hand...and I let him. His palm is really warm, and it's really comforting.
*coughs*
Your POV
We both looked up and saw Changbin smiling at us.
Han Jisung
What?
Changbin
You sure you two aren't a couple yet? You can kiss if you want.
Han Jisung
Oh shut up..
Changbin
Worth a try though. *laughs*
TO BE CONTINUED..