- what?! That my family is what?! - Yoongi softened his hold on me but wasn't leaving me alone either, I could feel his lips on my shoulder, trying to tame my reaction because he doesn't knows what it's happening but knows me quite well.
- No, sorry but I can't go with them... I said No!, and it's final!- I said before throwing the device on the bed
Yoongi looked at me weirdly, he never saw me said adamantly no to something related to my family, I usually keep silent thinking about what should I do with anything they would ask for, specially when last time I got a surprise call, something really complicated happened.
I regret almost every second of my decision at that time, I abandoned him without any explanation or an opportunity to convince me to stay. I was so scared he would take it badly and wouldn't hear my apologies and reasons to disappear for almost a month without a trace because I wouldn't answer his calls or messages that where the only thing keeping me going, his voice, seeing him on my phone and my nephew because the child suddenly lost his mother and nobody could understand his loneliness, but I could, because I left my heart behind and with big chances to lose everything....
Returning to his side to face the consequences of my decision was a lesson I would never forget and I made my goal to not just apologize and explain why I sudenly disappeared, I made sure he would fall in love with me again, the me that was losing hair was thinning into illness and was overwhelmed with a problem that I taken as mine because I love my family.
- mi amor... why are you trembling? Tell me, so I can do something... please don't shut me down - Yoongi said softly trying to get my face out of his neck.
He has covered us with the bed spread, we didn't get properly out of bed today, we should prepare a meal and be up to be able to rest at night and don't have strange routines, the vampire habits that Yoongi gets so easily because he works on loads of inspiration mostly coming at night hours and afterwards he doesn't know how to manage his freedom, because he is tired all day and haven't cared after himself enough.
The busy schedule he is trying out now, had resolved on getting him more time to enjoy the normal things that make him more relaxed(watching a basketball game, a movie or just cute animals on tv, sometimeshe likes a good book ), so the next day he has all te energy and patience to go through another challenging day to play his instruments, dance learning new things and also working on his music.
- the trouble my sister got into... is ugly again... I don't want us involved - I reunited all my strength to talk to him and don't keep everything to myself.
- Us? okay.... okay.... I don't know how to take that, but... are they in danger? - Yoongi hugged me against him and I really apreciated
- I don't know all the details but probably aren't totally safe, the lawyers I hired and the police think they need protection and they are in my apartment in NewYork.... you know how I do things, I thought on the worse scenario before and left you behind, without a word... I don't know how to start... I want you to understand what is inside my head... can't you become diminute and enter there to put some order? - I exhaled the words as he had teached me to get things out of my head... but Yoongi is an artist and it comes out on different and beautiful ways for him, not just musically.
- Are you sure you want me messing around with whatever you have in your mind? - he said taking a picture of my messy hair and sleepy face, but he was trying to humor me.
- yeah... can't be worse that what I already do, my mind is full of unnecessary things... you can make them disappear from my head?.. you, great, sexy and reliable existence... for me? - I said as I watched him getting dressed, not enough to go outside but something he likes to wear around the apartment.
- thanks?... you are important for me too but I am hungry... come with me love and talk to me - Yoongi offered his hand and I groaned a little because I didn't wanted to tell him something that will make us uncomfortable to deal with, this time I wanted to hear what he has to say, even if that wouldn't change much my answer to the lawyer.
Suga's P/V:
- love let's eat out, here wear this... or I will be totally distracted with your body to pay any attention and think how to help you - I said looking at her as she got out of bed.
- okay... but isn't this a little provocative? - she asked blushing to my choice for her
- nah! It's just a little open on the back, do you want me to look nicer?- I asked since I was wearing black trousers and a white and long sleeved shirt.
- just wear shoes, I know you don't feel cold at all, but apart from that, your picture should be the definition of elegance - she put some jewelry on me and stopped me from choosing a black blazer
I smirked she likes to see my toes and black clothes, just can't understand how I can walk around without covering properly when the weather is not warm. Because I don't like the cold but my feet don't feel it like the rest of my body, the first thing I want to do always is to take off my shoes and wear sleepers or something like that. And about colorful clothes, I just don't like to call the attention when everyone is also wearing black or white, she learned I actually like to wear vivid colors sometimes, they are in my closet and I bought them.
- hey... is that Jungkook or I'm daydreaming? - Baika asked carefully when we arrived the restaurant, it was a place where Idols like to come and have dates because nothing gets leaked to reporters or any fan can actually come and look around to see easily who is here eating on the tables.
- oh dang! But no that's not our Kooky, look at his hands and body... but the face... they are like twins... I will take a picture to show it to the members... woah! this is unbelievable - I hushed back, it was so amazing. As we passed towards the bar noticing that from another perspective he was totally different from our maknae.
That man wasn't tall or fit, at that moment even I got shocked on how similar was the expression on his face, I discretly took other pics to show the reality and the awesome features. But I muttered my phone to be present on my date with my wife as my friends blowed our chat room with comments. We ordered something to wait for an available table, seems tonight the place was busy.
- Hey! What are you doing here? Who took you out of your cave? - someone passed his arm over my shoulders and I put my phone on my pocket to pay attention to my surroundings, Baika has gone to the bathroom afterwards waiting if we could get a table to eat peacefully.
It was Kihyun and Minhyuk was behind him telling he had to force him out to eat something better than delivery. I greeted them and my friends also took a seat next to me to have something since they came without a reservation tonight.
- Woah don't look but a monument is walking in this direction... goodness why I have Kihyun instead of her? - my friend got upset and playfully nagged about Minhyuk comments and that he will never get a girlfriend with that personality.
Someone touched discretly my elbow as the person took a seat next to me, where my wife left her things and I turned to see if it was her or someone that wanted to met me, but I actually prefer if they would talk to me first.
- Baby... come closer, I will introduce you to my friends - I said when I saw her face of not knowing what to do, we usually don't date on restaurants like this one, because tons of people would recognize me and she used to behave like a simple manager or assistant, that nobody should pay attention to.
Baika steps out of her stool and smiled concerned if she really should be so close to me in public, the members of Monsta X were so surprised that they just looked at my hand helping her and not understanding why I sudenly called her "baby".
- She is Baby Brown and works in my company, this is Kihyun and he is Minhyuk, they are members of Monsta X and my friends.
- Oh seriously? I like your music a lot, it's a pleasure to meet you, sorry I couldn't recognize you it's difficult to me remember people that I never seen in person - my wife extended her hand in their direction but they just looked at us, goodness...
- mmmh...would any of you shake her hand or she will have to endure the embarrassing moments? - I said and maintained her clearly closer to me, I was so tempted to touch the skin exposed on her back to comfort her... it was fine to show them we had something between us, unfortunately they weren't the only ones paying attention and even if this place it's famous for maintaining everything low key... I prefer to not reveal anything important here.
- sorry this is surprising, his girlfriend's usually are all over him even to go to the loo... or you aren't a thing? - Kihyun asked smiling at her and flirting meanwhile he holds her hand.
Minhyuk greeted her like a normal person, I am closer to Kihyun actually because he doesn't has a filter between what he thinks and says so it's easier to me to hang around him.
- it's my wife - I said very softly so nobody else would hear it apart form my friends and Baika that only said that I have gone nuts, before returning to her seat and having a long sip of her drink.
- why haven't you told me? Wait you didn't invited me to your wedding? - I laughed at Kihyun reactions, it was so funny.
- Kihyun stop, would you? Everyone is looking in our direction, at least give the impression you have talked to a woman before this moment - Minhyuk said to him, that was a cruel way to make him stop and act more seriously... no wonder he is the leader of the group.
- we didn't made any wedding just one day Mr.Bang dropped the documents on his hands and he asked me to sign them...I was really worried he would like to settle our relationship in documents because I didn't know how long the secret will remain secret to the public - she was saying so softly so nobody would hear our conversation.
- excuse me Mr. Min, there is a table available - someone from the personal of the restaurant said looking at my wife from head to toe, it was a clear rude gesture towards her, the only non famous and female... probably that amd how sexy she was dressed compared to the restaurant's uniform.
- Oh, Yoongi would you like to share the table with your friends too? I mean if it's possible? - Baika said quickly to the waitress, she never said my given name to talk with me in front of people that didn't knew about our relationship, it was a first but still maintained her distance, I was the one doing all the touching gestures towards her, she just accepted it all as it came.
- yeah... whatever - said the woman irritated, following her we passed a table ready for two to one that would fit us and another 2 if necessary but was still unclean, looking around Minhyuk asked if we could get another table by the window since it was ready for 4 like other few tables her colleagues were quickly setting up for waiting customers.
She smiled and said those were actually reserved and our last minute arrangement on the numbers is what made us get that unpleasant situation were her colleagues had to carefully work over us, without opening our mouths or moving from our seat, very uncomfortable actually.
- soo... must be true Hareing fell for you, man... she gave us the worst table because you came with a girl here - said Kihyun
- that's not my problem, I don't come here often enough to acknowledge all the people that works here - I said looking at my wife to see if she could understand the menu by herself.
- thanks... - my wife said blushing when I ordered what she was trying to read for her and I felt like smiling but probably it didn't showed on my face because I got accustomed to hide my reactions about Baika towards anything I do.
The night was going well as we talked briefly about how we met and promised my friends that I would invite them if we make our relationship public... the treatment from the waitress was annoying she would be all nice to us but not to my wife.
Her blouse was already dirty for all the food she settled down strongly and making it look like an accident, even my friends said a couple of things to her but the woman wouldn't become more gentle with her work.
- sorry they have never been like this before, I will talk to the owner, your clothes are totally stained - said Kihyun offering his napkins since the red soup she ordered was also wetting her blouse and was becoming a little see-through, without tell all the food that dropped on her lap.
- isn't a first to me... every time I dres nicely to eat out gets me in trouble... seems male or female they would find iteasy to makea target, let's her be... the entire room is watching us... I don't want to createan scene here - she laughed trying to ignore her discomfort she made a gesture saying softly the last part, we looked at the kitchen's door where someone was red like a tomato and entered pissed the private area where only working people can enter.
- uhhh ...that's one of the owners... think he saw everything by himself and didn't liked it one bit... I have never seen him get that red since I became a regular here - commented Minhyuk.
- aren't you jealous? I mean lots of girls even refuse to date Idols the media can be really nasty and as you see, a lot of people would like kill to be in your place - said Kihyun a little worried.
- Yoongi haven't done anything to make me feel that he doesn't respect me or that he will accept anyone just because he can choose and change who he wants to date... maybe it's the long hairstyle, he already drives me crazy about it and it's great to see I'm not the only one, actually - she said teasing me but wearing her jacket since she noticed that her blouse wasn't covering her properly anymore. As my friends laugh because it came out nicely like a joke but showing her confidence that I was doing the right thing with her.
- it's nice to see you truly mean it, any other would say how perfec is for Yoongi to have a relationship and that he will never would be loved... I mean because he is famous and everyone thinks too high about Idol's lifestyle - Kihyun said and Minhyuk hit him playfully... he really said everything as he thought it.
- miss...I would like to apologize for my employee... my daughter said you can have this, she is a little young and maybe you don't like it but at least is clean - said an elderly and a girl dressed like a student behind him.
- oh thank you so much, you shouldn't take the trouble... but I'm sure it's very beautiful, it's that your daughter sir? - Baika said smiling brigthtly to see her hiding behind his father.
- yes... it's fan of you apparently, you went to her dance school to teach a choreography for an audition where she could participate...
- Oh! You are a successful fan then - I said and the girl blushed even harder.
- well, accompany me to get changed, I would like to become friends with my first fan... see? I'm getting a famous teacher, come darling, tell me your name... - and at some point we saw the girl hugging her as my wife laughed
- she can make friends so easily... - I said smiling
- I won't forget her being so nice to my child, as for tonight... the dinner it's on the house - the owner said.
- not necessary, everything was delicious anyways and because of her the order it's so big, we are just trying to get where all that disappeared towards, so don't worry much but thanks for the clothes, her blouse was becoming all see-through- I said.
As we talked and waited for the girls to return, actually the way they are with Idols it's because of that little girl and the daughter of his associate that had explained to them why Idols don't go often to restaurants and why all go always to the same places... like other restaurants never really existed.
- sorry I made you wait long?- my wife said and I think the entire restaurant stopped to see her take off her jacket and see the new outfit, it hugged perfectly her curves.
- sorry my daughter it's so young... hopes you don't find it inappropriate - was trying to apologize the man about the short outfit
- mmm, I have similar things in my closet, just a little informal compared to what I was wearing before but her size fits, maybe it's my lucky day - Baika smiling said before they let us finish our dinner alone.
- woah, that child really loves you to give you her clothes - said Kihyun as always without thinking.
- she likes how I teached the choreographyand and the way I danced, I will try to be friends with her from now on since she is training for one of the brands under Hybe's wings and also would ask on her highschool about university, she is taking the exam this year and I would like to study something here too.
- oh you haven't ended your studies? - asked Minhyuk curious.
- I did but in the States you can enter the university sooner and skip levels, I finished my high school days at sixteen and finished my university degree by my 20th anniversary, majoring in classic dance, there was a time you can see someone at twelve going to university but they got several social troubles since they are actually kids so right now nobody under sixteen can access to university like the rest of regular students that are around 18 or 19 years old to enter and get superior studies.
- Oh? So you are looking to master it or something? - asked Minhyuk totally interested on what she was telling.
- No... I renounced to my job actually, but since I still have contracts I accepted before then I am still working here and there until everything it's settled.
- Bang PD will sell his soul to the Evil before accepting you are getting out of our company - I said as we watched her finish all the food in the table, she was so cute enjoying her dinner
- aren't you scared of getting fat? - Kihyun and his mouth, I tried to not laugh and Minhyuk was just embarrassed by it.
- goodness heard you or here your friend will start believing he fell for the skeleton of his biology class from his old high school - she said and they enjoyed her good sense of humor, all night nothing ruined her good mood.
- Let's get going and leave the couple enjoy the the rest of their evening, see you around man - said Minhyuk when a new waiter was taking the empty dishes.
- It was a pleasure Baby, hope to see you around too... don't hide her all to yourself ummmh? - Kihyun said to me and my wife found it so funny that couldn't stop her laugh.
- go before I kick you out - I teased him back and asked her if she wanted something else or go to eat something sweet in another place but she would like to walk a little bit on a park before going home.
- are you going to tell me what happened to your family? - I asked since she was avoiding the conversation focused on her.
- you remember I helped my sister to be on a prison where she would be safe and that she would have the smallest amount of time inside? - she said moving my arms so I was embracing her by the waist and she hugged my neck.
- yeah... I know you have been taking care of your family and not just the sister that ended in prison - I said moving us towards a tree so we could rest a little against it.
- The father of her second child almost died in prison... apparently he is in debt even if the ones that sold the drugs he made knew he was discovered after blowing up my house.
- continue talking Baika, this isn't your fault so don't feel ashamed to tell me everything - I said and kissed her, she calmed down again and relaxed her body.
- Rebuilding it made people think about where the money comes from but since I already imagined the worst, made sure my family would be out of trouble with anyone asking to pay that debt, if you give money they will ask for more and more everyday... but they went to get info from that man...they are looking for my family to try to get money, so the police asked them to get out of the country... right now are looking where to send my sister, one in prison to end her punishment since I paid the monetary debt with the authorities for dealing with drugs.
- okay it's not that horrible, see... I will support you with anything you need babe, anything just ask for it - I said and a tear rolled down her cheek and I trapped it with mine and comfrted her with a hug, rocking her a little.
- My family is changing names and is looking for a place to settle until the risk disappears to prevent to be found they want that I would go there and leave my life behind to be with them for who knows how long.
- what?! - my heart skipped a beat and I hold her in place to be sure she wasn't going anywhere, changing her name and dissappearing from my life with any way to be found.
- I'm not going to solve their problems again... I will have to forget about my entire life and start over again with nothing, find a job to maintain them until the risk dissappeared but nobody can measure how much time that would be... I don't know how my mother would give up on the only way she has to earn money... I mean, to go out the country and change names to avoid criminals it's okay, but starting over means... no I can't go anywhere in that uncertain manner and give up on all my rights to not be bothered by some idiots that think the police aren't behind them.
- you want to stay with me? But they are in NewYork with your friends helping around doesn't it? I thought maybe they would need other things since they asked for you. But not to give up your life to support them since they decided to leave everything behind.
- Yoongi it almost killed me to solve things alone once...I will support them somehow but no... I am not going to live a fake life somewhere as if my relationship with you never existed...I am so sorry for telling them to don't count on me this time... I worked my entire life for them, helping on anything I could and they are looking for me to forget about the only thing that I want to be happy? - she was becoming too emotional and I walked faster back to our car to drive us home.
- hang in there love, we are going home now so I can comfort you as much as you need... I love you beautiful, I promise you that you won't regret staying with me - I blurted out, I know she doesn't like that kind of promises that can become just empty words if I ... no doubting about what to do with our relationship I drove a little fast to get her home.