Any of us could give her reasons good enough to go, goodness I didn't know how much I loved her negative answer, obstinate as ever my wife was staying with me. I gave her a million of opportunities to take and she chooses me... I can't be more happy but I didn't wanted to show it to anyone else... that feeling was mine and for her.
The first thing I made when the guys walked to their cars, was to lead my angel towards my studio and get my wife inside.
I surprised her with a kiss and having her against my body, I was satisfied last night but I actually wanted this too, I was secretly celebrating she choosed me again and again, I made plans to have her surrounded of people that love her and will definitely be on her side when difficult times arrive.
Making plans in case I'm not enough, making plans to have her, making plans to see her happy... I accepted a path, losing myself to be sure she doesn't leaves, those promises she does in the middle of the night... I wanted them to be true... I let her choose, but later as time pass... I know that she will not have any options. It will be me, because little by little want everything to just myself... I will have to learn to not get bored... to see in her everything I need and want, I don't want to hurt her... I don't want to be an idiot leaving her love to dry and die.
- I will be nicer in the future, let me learn how... I don't know my limits love... maybe one day I will go insane - I said very softly... wasn't sure if she had understood what I said... I used a vocabulary a little complicated.
I don't usually say anything about myself or how I feel she always has to figure out and do the biggest efforts... first my language, then my culture, my job, my family... now my feelings.
- you are the sweetest and gentle man I have ever met, go ahead do whatever will make you smile like now - she answered.
- Jin loves you... you don't know him, but he will never let you down... forgive him if you can - I said taking her to the sofa, to talk a little. I kissed her again and couldn't stop my smile... she bites me playfully
- what makes you smile so much? It's a secret?
- Are you scared ? Sometimes I feel like smiling... it's creepy? - I asked.
- no, I like it but would like to know the reason to repeat the miracle more often.
- So brave of you... it's because you choosed to stay, I was ready to let you travel with Jin, and accepted that maybe I don't have enough to make you happy... completely happy. I didn't wanted to be chosen actually, that puts me in trouble beautiful - I said yawning and laying down, I gestured her to accommodate her body over mine.
- you left me without energy last night but I slept well... you are still sore? - I asked even if my hands wandered around her body.
- you didn't hurted me Yoongi, just my body doesn't let me forget about you - she said and that exited me... goodness now I'm also a perverted dude... I tried to move so she didn't noticed... I really wasn't thinking about it.
- let's talk about something else, please - I said
- when is your next appointment? - she asked
- I have days off, I submitted my album... they will take some time evaluating it but can't stay at home waiting. Furthermore if there are inconvenient details. I will have to solve them, get them into the control process again, then plan my promotions and everything related to it... it will take some time until someone can hear the final result.
- you made it, good job... I need a nap... I feel tired after all this situation.
- go get comfortable... you can wear one of my spare shirts - she opened my hiden closet and pulled out the biggest sized one and entered the bathroom to do a small routine, before sleeping. I arranged the sofa and pulled out a soft blanket. I smell it to be sure it was clean enough to use... dammit her habits are brushing on me. It made me smile and something felt different inside of me... I don't know what was it... just ignored it.
The yellow lights I set were dimmed to the lower intensity and her hair glowed golden when she returned. She looked tired and sad... she has been crying but I really didn't get why... based on what Jin said.
- you and this trend... why anyone would pay for broken clothes... sorry... hope isn't noticeable - she said trying to get under the blanket and ripping a little my outfit when her feet accidentally got caught in one hole and we ended tangled.
- wait... - I helped her out of my pants and had to resist the temptation to repeat my actions from last night. I sighed, a part of me was very angry because I wasn't taking it... Baika doesn't refuses me.
- they look good on you thought - she said looking at me... she doesn't like much the trends but would say if she liked how I chose to be dressed.
- you cried... when we left the apartment you seemed ready to anything. what happened? You want to tell me now?- I needed something to distract my mind.
- I thought... he was still the same guy I learned to love and respect. I really want to arrange our friendship but in my head can only remember that he easily can throw me away... I can't trust him anymore... is really something sad because of Seoah he considered it was better to hurt me, who is going to be the next one? Who is going to be better than what he shared and worked on?.
- It was difficult for him because we are in a relationship already... he didn't wanted to get hurt and hurt me, we have been together for so long that can't give up on me... you just arrived to our lives.
- So easy then, are you going to do the same when you get bored? Is that what I should spect? Because you get bored of people really easily - she turned around to not look at my face... that really was punch of reality... is true... people is interesting to observe fron a distance and see how stupid can be... I know how to mess with them... can do good or bad it's my choice.
- I'm still here, two years and I didn't let you go... mmmm your skin is so smooth love - I said returning to the sofa less dressed to tame her sulking mouth, I wanted to laugh.
- It's not funny... the entire sofa is moving, stop it evil creature - she touched around to find my ass and slap there without looking. I laughed harder in her ear.
- you are too cute when you are annoyed, can't resist messing with you. Sorry love, it's really funny to me.
- I noticed, you aren't the only one... That's why women fall for the little Agust instead of dealing with you... they go crazy for him is more easy to deal with your urges than call your attention.
- so they only loved the least of me? Enlighten me - I trapped her and made her be sprawled on my sofa under me... I liked this game, when she resist the temptation of me showing her that I am excited but don't want to fall for it. Want to control myself and dominate my urges.
- no... I came here to sleep... sleep you even prepared a blanket for me. My insomnia would like it.
- The doctor said to let you sleep at night for six or seven hours every day - I was taking it seriously, I get really worried knowing she will walk on her sleep or not sleep a wink for days. That's not good for anyone I'm accostumated to sleep anytime I feel like it, the world is not that interesting be energetic about it like my friends...they are crazy.
- I'll bite you, don't think I won't because I really pretend to get your heart? I am dangerous be careful with that, darling you are leaking... what got you so excited?
I looked down... it was true, I was wetting my underwear. I am very pathetic sometimes so I blushed and covered it with my shirt.
- well not a beast in bed, as you can see, pathetic actually. I'm not sure why today is like this.... I really didn't have anything in mind for today, last night was amazing though... today though it would be death and let me impress you.
- well... I am the culprit ? I don't mind the blame - she smiled not doing anything she learned the hard way that I am not nice when my flaws are exposed out of my control... I learned she isn't going to laugh or use it to make fun of me, so right now we can talk and be comfortable together.
- Don't tease me, I'm embarrassed about this love, if I wasn't comfortable with you... it's been a while nobody would be able to find my whereabouts. Forget about it... that bastard is in his own party when anyone called for it... unbelievable, at this age and so pathetic - I rested on top of her not moving.
- There isn't an ounce of you to be called pathetic, just would like to know what happened to make you feel like that... it's because I am wearing your clothes? I know you like to see me on those - she removed the lose strands of hair covering my face.
Baby's P/V:
I touched his forearm and all his skin got goosebumps
- finally... I made you feel what I do every single time you touch me - I was holding his hand, so he couldn't take it away after my touch. I put his hand on my cheek before he started to find reason to hide from me... today though he was still here, embarrassed but here with me.
- I'm embarrassed about this... on my firsts times I was like this... I was very in love with that girl... it was the first time for us both... I was so excited because she suggested it... you know I don't like to pressure anyone.
- yeah... but when you have something in mind, ask like a million of times to think about it again.
- sorry.... not telling details of my teen years... I thought that everything was fine until after 3 years of relationship, during my night shift doing delivery... the client was in a hotel, he was a friend and she was there. They confirmed going on my back for a long time and using the money I gave her for our dates, so she could come to see me... I was in group of underground rappers, he was part of it so when I saw the auditioning notice... I don't think it wasn't really that mature to stay doing music with them. They were older, adults could buy her alcohol, pay for hotels rooms... I was the idiot that faced her parents. Gave the money I earned with effort, choosed to trust her.
- sorry... - I didn't know what to say.
- Afterwards I became colder, distant not just because of the girls I met, my family, my friends, my injuries... this... I became different, hidded all that I considered a flaw... learned to play hard... In a short period of time I became a monster on propose, and hurted on path.
- Yoongi... you aren't a monster, you are a very valuable man.
- let me tell you now, please ... I had terrible fights with RM, ended hurting Hobi with my wicked games because ... well I was the man his girlfriend choosed and left him for... but I was playing around making anyone fall for me, girls, boys It didn't matter.
- But... - he made stay silent.
- I never told Hoseok because when I found out she was already with a producer from another company to cure the scars I made, so I think he doesn't knows and blame the other guy for taking one he loved.
- Ah.... that explains... I won't tell him anything about it.
- Thanks babe, but if one day they end meeting again and talk about the past it might end all out. In that moment, I decided to stop the nonsense and not hurt others, by the time Jungkook and Jin were definitely in our group I had become a hard version of the me you met... was very overprotective of my group members too so I gained that fame of being rude and nasty Jin started to date Seoah around the time we debuted and I tried to select better who I wanted by my side... still didn't ended well at all.
SUGA'S P/V:
- why you want to talk about that now? I never asked... I didn't wanted that those stories from the past made me think differently about you when I did much about you... now I understand a few things better, but that doesn't changes anything you have a past like I have one.
- I got your first-time in a lot of opportunities, would like to be like you and waited for someone that deserved my feelings... I am so sorry Ana... - she kissed me before I could say more.
I deepen the kiss, we got undressed slowly... sex wasn't a priority as we loved each other, carefully feeding our conection as couple. I didn't hurted her and she made me so happy that couldn't take my smile from my face.
- I love you, and I'm not the only one... I know it - I hushed on her ear, when we were resting comfortably.
- Tell the others that I am all yours and to not pester me, I don't like to deal with people that can't see reality as it is... I am with you, tell them to give up - she said getting comfortable on top of me, we are naked so I covered us well to take a nap.
Later Baika was taking a shower and I started to clean my studio... It was necessary, I have been working hard lately so today was the perfect time to do it. I never imagined that I would break the rule about having a girl here and doing it on my sofa... I will never forget this moment, my emotions are important to her, and she cares about it to treat me nicely as much as posible... is my wife, my angel.
- Sounds sweet... is the kind of music you want to do from now on? - One manager walked in.
- maybe... what are you doing here? - I asked talking loudly so Baika wouldn't get out of the bathroom... I got distracted meanwhile I cleaned, and the door was open to renovate the air faster than the system can do by itself, plus the cleaning products always smell a little.
- Nothing special... Jimin has me running here and there, I heard you submitted your work... how many songs?
- Ten like the others, ask for help... with some members overseas and I waiting the green lights must be people free to do some chores - I said trying to get him out of here... it was a weird visit... he usually doesn't like to approach me.
- Cleaning by yourself? Shouldn't someone take care of that? - he said looking everywhere as if looking for something.
- I don't like people touching my documents, cleaning is not an issue but people getting his nose on my things are - I said.
- I thought your wife was with you - he commented coming in and taking a seat on my sofa uninvited.
- Do you need something from her? - I asked
- No... just curious, didn't she offered to do the cleaning? She can enter here as if this was her home - he said passing his fingers to see how clean was the surface of my things.
- It's my woman not my maid... I don't like finding fingerprints after cleaning - what was this interrogation? He was one of Lee's minions?... he has several and no all of them showed their real thoughts when some started to bully her.
- I see... well I should be going... are you going to be here all day? Shouldn't you take her on a date... you have your own car doesn't it? - he said getting up and looking something... what he wants?
He suddenly opened the bathroom door but it was empty, I got irritated and kicked him out of my studio and locked the door.