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mom

u r worthless

dad

have u ever looked at urself in the mirror? ur dark skin tone just makes u uglier!

sehun

mom.. dad.. u pls don't talk to her like that.. she feels hurt..

dad

look at how kind this fair boy is! he is ur own brother! look at how adorable he is!

mom

have u ever seen anyone this ugly? u r 10 years old now!

y/n

I am sorry.. mom.. dad..

tears filled up my eyes

dad

so here's this house. u get this house and here is the money u get. we cannot live with u anymore.

y/n

but dad-

mom

talk back and see what we do.

y/n

sorry..

sehun

mom.. dad.. r we leaving noona?

mom

yes honey, why else do u think we have packed our clothes and other stuffs?

y/n

please don't leave me..

sehun

mom.. can't noona come with us?

mom

no honey, she is different from us.

i cry hard.. i cry but no one was there to wipe my tears away.. no one was there to hear my screams.. no one was there.. for me.

only a lady came 3 times a day to give me breakfast, lunch and dinner. but then she stopped visiting me when i turned 15.

is it that bad.. to have a little darker skin tone? why does it make everyone leave u?

so this is the high school i will be going in from now on?

its.. cool..

some girls walk past me laughing.. i want to have friends too..

anyway. the school was far from where i live. so i decided to stay is the dorm for a while.

i go to my dorm.. i heard i am going to have a roommate too.

i guess a guy lives here.. is he going to hate me too?

after putting all of my stuff in my room, i sit quietly in the living room. i guess u get to call this a living room only.

i heard someone open the door.

it's a guy.

i bend my neck and look at him without any expression

y/n

r u my roommate?

Suga

i guess so. r u y/n?

y/n

yeah..

Suga

i am suga.

y/n

hi

Suga

i just hope u don't nag me all the time and i hope u r not clingy

y/n

i am not clingy. and ik my place.. who am i to nag u?

Suga

cool. so some of my friends r coming over.

y/n

alright. i am fine with anythung as long as they don't enter my room and start bullying me.

Suga

not everyone is a bully uk

y/n

i have been told that my skin tone makes people want to bully me even if they don't support bullying me.

Suga

why would anyone judge u by ur skin tone?

y/n

idk.. i am making coffee. u want some?

Suga

no its fine.. u r the new kid. so I'll make u some.

y/n

no.. its fine.. I'll make it myself.

Suga

u r different.. uk..

different. the word i hate the most.

Suga

i mean u r not clingy. and that's great.

atleast he didn't judge my by my skin tone..

soon there was a knock on the door. suga got it.

Suga

hey guys

Taehyung

hi hyung. is she ur new roommate? hi! i am taehyung!

Jin

hi! i am jin!

J-Hope

u r my hope! i am ur hope! i am jhope.

RM

hi i am rm

Jimin

hi. jimin here.

Jungkook

jungkook! nice to meet ya.

y/n

hi i am y/n. nice to meet y'all too.

Taehyung

haha i am glad u r not obsessed with us yet.

y/n

hm..?

Taehyung

usually his roommates start jumping when they meet us

y/n

let's just say i am different then.

J-Hope

why would u be different? i am a human, u r a human too. so we all r same.

they r probably the only people who don't hate me.. and who didn't tell me i am different..

Jimin

u r cute lol

Jungkook

yeah and u r pretty too

and the only people who called me prtty.. and cute..

y/n

thanks.. if u r being honest, then u r probay the only people who think i am pretty.

Suga

why?

y/n

bcoz ppl hate me.. and judge me..

Suga

why would anyone hate u?

y/n

u see.. this skin tone i have makes everyone hate me.

J-Hope

but u got such a pretty skin tone.. it just makes u more adorable.

RM

people r bad. don't mind them..

y/n

thanks..

Jin

hey! I'll make y'all dinner! y/n.. we can't do much since we r under the school province.. but pls consider the dinner as ur welcome party.

y/n

haha omg.. thank you.. i don't meed a welcome party though..

Jin

yes, u do. u r the only sane girl out here. and probably the sweetest. and u r new. so u r having a welcome party.

i just smiled.. this was the first time someone ever treated me this sweetly..

Jin

what do u like to eat?

y/n

anything would do.

Jin

oh c'mon. tell me.

y/n

ask the rest of the boys. u actually cooking me food is itself a great gift for me.

Jin

why would u think so?

y/n

no reason.. we just go to know each other.. and u all r already so sweet to me. thank u.

Suga

u don't need to thank us. see? not everyone is a bully.

i just smiled.

the dinner was amazing.. and everyone went back to their room. and now it was the part of the day i hated the most..

i keep having nightmares everyday.. i cry to myself every morning.. the same dream every damned day!

them.. leaving me..

TO BE CONTINUED