When I sat on my reserved seat, my attention was caught by the young females, who looks very excited about the comeback concert. They kept on cheering the names of the members.
I weakly smiled, before looking down.
"I was once like them," I murmured, before sighing heavily. "I think sneaking inside the backstage was a wrong move," I added. "I only cause them trouble..." I smiled bitterly, before leaning over the backrest of my seat. "I should've stayed here," I uttered guiltily, before closing my eyes.
I am feeling so weak and tired when the hall we're suddenly filled of loud music and the lightnings turned on, covering all the corners and even the huge stage infront.
Everybody squeeled in excitement, since we all know that the concert is now starting...
"SHINee's back~
SHINee's back~
SHINee's back~"
That familiar deep and manly voice registered in my ears. If I was in a good mood, maybe right now, I am one of those fans who are dancing and squeeling wildly, as if like my throat will going to move out of my body.
But this time, there's no energy left in my body. Guilty solely invaded my system.
The song Sherlock registered on my ears, and then the spotlight focused on the center stage, where the five boys we're there, dancing the choreography. From where I am sitting, I can see their smiling faces, followed by the loud shouts of the fans around us.
Jonghyun Oppa looks amazingly lovely while performing. Leader Onew looks calm, yet he always gives a best performance. Taemin, as usual, the sweet smile is plastered on his face, and its very obvious that he is enjoying his dance. Key oppa, on the other hand looks so focused, he's giving his best. And lastly, the man I adore so much, Minho is now pointing a fan using his finger, while dancing gracefully, on the beat.
I can't help but to smile at them. SHINee never fails in exceeding the fans expectation. They always shows their best, all the time they are performing. SHINee really set the standards too high.
As for me, no one can beat them.
Fans continued singing along with the boys, and when it finished, the song was instantly replaced by their another hit, Lucifer. Again, the crowd gets wild, and slowly, I smiled, and slowly started to cheer.
The song was replaced by their another song which is Replay that is known for being their debut song. They kept on singing and dancing wildly, making the crowd wild too.
Later on, the lights all over the arena turned off, the same time fans opened their lightsticks. I immediately took mine and turned on its light, and sing along with their another hit song Good Evening.
Cheers after cheers from the fans boosted their confidence. Onew tried going down, maybe to get closer from the fans, together with Minho. Since I was seating at the center part, where my location is really just infront of the stage, I can clearly see Minho's profile infront. He looks really manly in his red hair. He screams power and flaming charisma!
I smiled inwardly, as I started waving my light stick while also singing.
Minutes of performing, the spotlight also turned off, followed by the DJ's announcement that the boys will rest for a minute and also change their outfits.
The crowd turned calmer, while the young ones are busy checking their respective phones. Some are checking their recorded videos.
While me, I just stayed silent and calmed down.
Later on, after several minutes, the stage' lights turned on once again, followed by presense of the five boys. They are now wearing different outfits, and from where I am, I can clearly see that familiar outfits they are wearing.
That's the outfits from the box! The outfits I kept at the comfort room on the second floor!
Thank God, its not ruined!
"Annyeong!" Jonghyun greeted, and got responded by a loud cheers from the fans. Jonghyun just laughed a bit, before clearing his throat. "Shawols, are you enjoying the show??!" He asked.
"Neeeeeeee!" The crowd's response'.
"That's good," Onew intervened. "We really want for all of you to enjoy this concert, cause this isn't just a simple and normal concert, this is our comeback concert, and we want for you all to feel how thankful we are for the past years." He added, that received a loud 'yes' from the crowd.
"Yes, and to show our thanks to all of you, we have a suprise!" Key said, before turning to Minho, whose now smiling widely. "Drop it, Minho!"
Minho just nodded, before taking something on his back pocket. Everyone we're anticipating what it might be. I am actually curious too.
When he successfully took something from his pocket, I realized that it was a one piece of tiny paper. Everyone seemed curious and kept on asking what it was.
Minho hold her microphone and spill. "This paper has a one name written on it, a lucky shawol that will have the chance to show up here, on stage, and have a chance to sing, dance and be with us." Minho said, that made the crowd go wild.
Everyone is excited! They are shouting their names. Everyone wants to go up, and join them.
Taemin laughed loudly, before walking closer towards Minho. Minho showed the paper to Taemin, and they actually talked a bit. Later on, Taemin nodded, and looked at the fans.
"Minho-hyung gave me the permission to announce the lucky fans name," he said. "Ready to hear it?"
"Yes! Yes!!!!"
"Wahhhh, I hope its me!!"
"Oppa! I badly want to be with you on stage!!!!!"
"Pick me! Pick meeeeee~"
Almost all of the fans gathered inside the concert hall are shouting, their loudness actually makes me dizzy.
"We really want to have all of you here, but I'm afraid that the stage might break down," Taemin joked, before inhaling. "Okay, I'll spill the name now..." He said, before reading the lucky fangirls name.
Everyone was silent. Anticipatingly waiting for their names to be called.
"You are welcome to be here on stage with us, Yeon Ra Park!" Taemin loudly announced, that made all of the person inside the arena turned silent.
No one responded. Eventually me, I can't respond.
I mean, did Taemin-Oppa really mentioned my name? MY name??!!
Is it really true? Am I really that ONE lucky fan?
"Yeon Ra Park, I know you're here. This is our offer, so come out now~" Jonghyun said, while looking around. As if he's trying to find if there's a girl standing, and walking towards the stage.
"We're waiting..." Minho seconded, before gawking at my direction. I know that its impossible for him to see me, but I still did hid my face. Afraid that he might have a hawk-like eyes and find me.
I am torn between showing myself or just leave the place. I mean, is it fine for me to go up there after what I did? After causing them trouble? Is it really okay to show up, and act like nothing happened?
Can I really enjoy and be happy even after the trouble I've caused?
Those are the questions running on my mind.
I looked at them, and they are really waiting. They tried scanning the audiences, even the spotlights started roaming all over the hall, definitely trying to see if someone has stood up and walking towards the stage.
Its actually a once in a lifetime chance for me. I am indeed lucky to be chosen, to be in the same stage with them.
But after what I did, I'm too shy to show my face.
I can't afford to show my face.
And with that thinking, I stand and immediately walked away. Leaving the hall.
