Secrets.... we have a lot of secrets. That's why I couldn't sleep and didn't wanted to see my husband going to those military basements. One in particular, where is Jin because I could get out of that hell using him.
Jin was my freedom ticket once and now... Yoongi gave me also Jungkook to hold on. Didn't wanted to admit it but I needed it, more people that would be on my side. Jin and Jungkook choosed that, I don't know why.... they can get any woman they want but where trying something sordid with me.
But if I talk... if he knows that on my way there exists a road of corpses behind me.... sometimes one doesn't need to take action to kill a person... sometimes you only have guide them to hell.
Thanks to my father I learned all the illicit that can be done but choosed to not be as stupid and use my brain to not get tied by that dark world... yes I got money knowing things I shouldn't... being in places that I shouldn't be ever. Heard things from adults and faked to learn how the world works.
But I got in the middle of something... and Yoongi blames it to himself. I promised myself to fall for a bad man like my mother did... but the apple can't fall far away from the tree and all the freedom I gave to Yoongi was playing against me.
- love... we should go home... tomorrow I have to work... do you wanna stay?
- mm? Ah no, it's fine how do I clean this now? - I asked, I didn't knew much about painting with oils.
- It's complete?
- I supose... can't control the way the paint sticks and settle... sorry I already wasted the black color - I said giving him the materials he told me that I can use.
- mmm... yes it's not that easy but you managed to draw something that I can tell is a person in some kind of room.
- It's one of my nightmares, I don't know who is him... but I remember his voice even if I doubt I can recognize him only with that.
- You never painted that scene on your diary....
- I am not sure if it happened for real or it's just a bad dream... I just want it out of my head... as time passes maybe I'm remembering more or just fabricating things because of my fears... things that remind me where I came from
- Wish I could erase them, do you believe that you childhoodwas as bad?- Yoongi says getting me in a tight hug when I admitted it was true... I remember the double life my father was living and that I took as normal because I was so little.
SUGA'S P/V:
She was sleeping meanwhile I got to check a few things on her old notebooks she didn't wanted them to be forgotten on her country or where she couldn't find them. At first were only drawings of people and places, she got more accurate to draw things and started to have some notes on them.
His father.... and the people related to him that wasn't her family.... who ended dead because she could remember things about them... things that lead the ones looking for him to find them. Useful information, money movements, trades, traffic.... everything she noticed was there. I wasn't particularly interested on what she did for his father due her innocent existence... he was a criminal and she did whatever that pleased his father, specially before understanding what she was doing.
- Yoongi...- her voice startled me and the notebooks in my hands scaped my hold.
- Ana...
- Are you going to start a book at this hour? If you don't have to leave, then come to rest - She was tired and didn't tried to know what was in my hands.
- Just thought that I should use my free time during lunch or the snack time wisely... I will go back to bed in a moment, don't worry.
- I thought would leave without telling me... don't get up in the middle of the night to do weird stuff please, the feeling that someone must be in the apartment but couldn't be sure who, is scary.
- Okay... I will have that in mind... you scared me.
- Because of the bat? I can recognize you even half sleep darling...
- No... because you called my name suddenly... well... grateful to know that "that" wasn't for me.
- Then do that in the morning - she extended her hand to bring me back to bed with her.
- Okay...
- Slowly Baika, nobody is going to steal your breakfast.
- Aren't you going to be late?
- I wouldn't invite you out to see you stressed, take it easy...
- But your uniform...
- I can get changed there, just that I haven't been using that option, before I only put my bag in my place to take it when I am done, each locker has a combination to open.
- You haven't been much around... I didn't know.
I looked at her surprised, I really abandoned her to be with Jimin and my friends every day, until she moved out of our apartment... I know she doesn't like large places... but never imagined she would leave me forget that I have to go home from time to time to be in a relationship with her.
- Don't give me so much freedom, would you?- I said and she blushed.
- You too...
- Have you been doing things in my back? - I asked to tease her.
She was looking to my lips without answering my question.
- Wait until we are inside the car beautiful - I hushed.
- What? I don't know what do you mean.... I haven't opened my mouth
- You would prefer my tongue instead of your food inside your mouth right now.
- ... some could hear you... don't tease me - she admitted that I was right and that turned me on, to play a little in the car as the driver takes us to my office.
She covered her face with sunglasses meanwhile I used a combination with my clothes that varely let my eyes in sight. She yelped in surprise when I, as soon as the doors of the car where locked, pulled her against me to kiss her.
My hands traveled to one of her legs and her waist to move her onto my lap, one look from the driver to start closing the pasangers space from the two seats on the front.
- love... don't stop...- she sighed frustrated
- I will continue tonight... Tell me the details of your work schedule so I can go take you.
- Don't make plans Yoongi... your superior likes to take you out after your shift.
- Jealous?
- A lot...- She laughed, it was a joke. We kissed lightly as a goodbye greeting instead of using words before I opened the door, I arranged my coat and took my things from the back of the car.
- Min... using the changing room... woow... is that perfume?- one of my co-workers says, he was almost done getting dressed when I was introducing the code of my locker.
- Yes... I had a date, with a model - couldn't resist to say something about my wife.
- A model? Shouldn't you take her out at night? I mean she might be a beauty.- I changed quickly, I don't like to change my clothes here because everyone turns to pay attention to me.
- And who told you that I couldn't manage to see her again without looking desperate? You should date people during the day too, probably wouldn't think the worse of you when you invite them straight to have alcohol - All he can talk about is about flirting and going on dates. He must be desperate to get a girlfriend.
- You are a genius... I knew you are made from another paste.
- Sheis intelligent, beautiful and dozen of bastards comes around to flirt as soon as she speaks a little in our language. The last thing a great woman would like is another imbecile that is not going to hear what she has to say... and that goes for most of the girls - I was telling him as we walked towards our area.
- Yes, we don't wanna date horny dogs... only decent human beings - that female coworker said when she heard a little of our conversation.
- Good morning, I arrived - I said and everyone that works on my team and was present, responded automatically everyone on his own style because others were already seated in front of their computers and others were making his way in, just like me.
The meeting was boring this morning... maybe because the supervisor used my information to help his resume of the work we have realized in the camp we visited last time.
Soldiers also need help, they get in situations where they cannot be with their families because at the moment of their enlistment every was fine but during their entire service period was not exactly that way.
People gets ill, hurt or into accidents... bad is when someone try to use that as excuses to not complete correctly the service, to get more money than they should or just end in trouble for desapearing after a permission to go home.
Not to talk about those that are addicted to all kind of sustances, who committed crimes here or during their time out the base.... A lot happens and nobody realizes what is going on, not even most of the soldiers that can finish the expirience without any special circumstance.
- Great... for once your report is complete... how many incurred in incident that can be managed by a simple communication of their punishment at the base? - my supervisor seems lost, really is always the same thing over and over. I am here for a few months and already know what I am supposed to do and to know I rised my hand to end this sooner.
- Min, there is something you wanna say?- Our superior asked me.
- Yes... our supervisor seems to miss to find his notes, there were 12 soldiers that incurred on minor issues and only one of them has been notified of their mistakes previously to this intervention, 6 have committed little crimes that bases take action over without getting them into bigger trouble with superior authorities. And one was found as not present on the basement camp, since there is not info about him doing any mission, also non reported as at home, on medical leave or any of the usual causes to not be in the base. Was reported as missing until the basement reports us his situation.
- Great... do we have any notice about that case? And anyone knows if he has incurred into any other faulty or reported with bad behavior? - I was getting seated again. I felt that female hand on my leg under the table but ignored it. As the boss asked the how many needed a better salary or especial permissions and how much is going to cost to the center... a apart from other things we consider before sending the dates to the superiors that will decide the limits and suggestions that place will follow. In the worst case will get an external supervisor (nobody wants that).
- soldier Min, since you have a great memory... would you mind to take the meeting from here? - My supervisor said with a smirk and I heard voices of protest to defend me and also someone mentioned that my superior was only reading my reports to get this done.
- Order and silence! It doesn't matter who wrote the reports and what is found out, here mister Hwang is who has to decide how to explain the issue and if the soldier here can help, then please... there is a lot of work waiting for us to stay here wasting air... there is so much work that we are insufficient and late to control all the bases in the country, You aren't the only team doing this work but we have a sistem that is to be effective, efficient and the most accurate we can manage, stars to scalate higher here aren't as easy and common as serving as a regular soldier that will be on the front if something, God saves us that that ever happens... so whith this said... you... Min... tell me.
- Yes Sir, the basement haven't found him leaving the basement or irregular behavior and has been seen entering the base after his last permission, until now the soldier is reported as missing inside the base borders, the family hasn't been reported yet due they haven't asked about his absence, his phone is also missing and the basement has started discret seek missions without alerting other but the necessary soldiers to complete the search. That unit has been restricted from doing other activities outside cleaning and surveillance guards.
- Perfect... Hwang, send me all related to that case, proceed with the other cases as usual.... and get back into work, report me as usual. We are considering to separate teams to get to do more visits but is not settled how are going to become the subunits since we have to maintain the effectiveness of our work due the lack of people that will travel to each basement. Get from this that you will always travel with the less efficient workers and that we may mix teams depending on the data bases they can manage, if someone can manage alone will also get the trouble to do all the work on bases alone even if we know it's dangerous that only one person control the resources of an entire basement. We don't want bastards getting rich with morons that can follow simple rules and commands to realize the service without problems.
- Sir... that, when has been decided?
- Yesterday, you were off, don't you? Should imagine something was off with the amount of docs we piled up your desk... but check your mailbox often, please. We can get this as finished you... missy... nnn... Park?... you should get your uniform repaired, write the meeting inform, I saw you very attentive without taking notes... maybe you have also a great memory like your partner or I am mistaken?
- I will do the inform Sir.
- well... where has gone my assistant now, she is never where she is suppose to be ... you take this and follw me, Hwang I'm borrowing this one until my assistant dares to do some work today.
- Of course Sir... - it was his favorite soldier, but seems like the boss see more than enough. I sighed to get back to my cubicle.
- Min you really don't need to take notes?.
- I made those reports myself is not like I can't remember the conclusions being told, you should know the conclusions too, you made your part of work, isn't like I have done everything. We all got our batch of expedients to read and interviews to do afterwards to get to that conclusion... It was my turn to coordinate the team so is normal that I know the content of the documents.
- Aish this time everything was smoothly... I don't know why we have to rotate the position and if we get on smaller teams... I can't imagine the amount of work.
- since you realize... come to my desk, let's give you something to cry for.
- Ahhh.... mister Hwang... don't be cruel... my days off just finished....
- like everone else, I know that you will do the work Park is in charge if I don't bother you - still he handed his notes for her to carry, I ignored it, they aren't like me that will leave when my service finishes, they do this work permanently so the temporary staff here usually doesn't get any credit no matter what they do. Medals are for compromised soldiers that will give their life to this mission, that was as needed as all that exists.
- Yoongi... I mean... Min, Aren't you going to come out with us for lunch?
- No, I have something from home again.
- I heard you came with clothes today...
- I came straight from a date.
- A date?... but you are an Idol...
- And?
- No... nothing... I thought you didn't had a girlfriend.
- Well... that can change whenever I want.
- You already refused to date me.
- Yes I did. Sorry, I'm trying to finish this.
- You are so cruel!
- Hey Park.... shhhh - another one commented
- He went on a date and turned me off, me! You can believe him.
- He dated a model, Don't compare shorty, plus you said several times that can't relax dating someone who works with you.
- He is not a militar, some day he will leave.
- Then ask someone else, I'm not the unique on that situation, just not interested, I like someone else already, sorry - yep, I didn't even looked up from the screen of my computer.
- Bastard!!!
- Park!!! Jinsun.... control yourself... let's eat out, let's eat out.- my team took her away, leaving our corner almost empty.
- Don't believe her... Daewoo, is crazy over her because he was her target once and couldn't get over it, but he doesn't have move than what he earns here so she made as if it never happened, he wasn't her first victim.
- I haven't asked.
- I know... I am married so she only try something on me when is drunk and horny, if she can't get someone new, a babyfaced like you.
- Just my luck then... but I'm not interested.
- Because you have choices, my wife doesn't open her legs unless my mother comes around asking her why she is not pregnant yet.
- Man... too much information...
- She knows and doesn't cares, she is using me anyways and I got tired of being her prince, loyal and everything we settled into this I have my affairs, she has hers but if we ever get a child is going to be mine.
- You know... numbers are against you, for what you just suggested.
- I can't have children, my mother knows, my wife too... but they fake ignorance. Family is everything to me, so even if it's not perfect... I will get my dream, just hope she doesn't fall for one particular dude and will try to get divorced from me... Because I didn't get into all the trouble to be honest with her to end being the ridiculous that a woman kicked out to get a man that can get her pregnant.
- Good luck with that then... but just out of curiosity, why are you telling me?
- You don't judge people, did not suppose within any of the expedients, doesn't talk about what happens in the office, and I know you saw her doing the dirty with those she interviewed at the bases and seems like you have a life to mind what kind of hell we decide to enjoy better.
- I will tolerate her insults than giving her hopes.
- Congratulations... you are the boy every girl dreams about.
- Don't molest... work
- My wife loves me but also wants kids and you?
- maybe... it's not that easy. - I thought on our little "dot" for a second
- No... is not easy to love and get what you want - I nodded and tried to be invisible the rest of the day.
- Mimosa... ah... sorry - I said, lately I've been coming to the store myself instead of ordering.
- Don't worry everyone does that all the time... right know is what we have in yellow. Or the roses painted... but they are more for decoration... for a date gift, natural are better... because of the smell.
- mmmm.... natural doesn't last but give me the natural ones, I always can buy more.
- That's the spirit... mind if I ask if the flowers are always for to the same person?
- Yes, for my beloved person.
- Good luck.... you often get flowers... I supose you have much to choose over.
- Mmmm... no... they are always for the same person despite my profession I don't get to connect with people easily.
- First dates are always special.
- Dating someone special is better.
- Hope to see you again soon.
- Yeah maybe...
BABY'S P/V:
Yoongi came as promised, and with another arrangement of flowers... he was amazing, when I didn't asked for so much... he surprise me with his presence. Just knowing he stopped a moment to think to bring them around was enough to love him more.
When he does something he is not proud of, always hide from me but if there is nothing he just comes straight to me... with that beautiful expression on his face.
Longing to be recognized, to see me go there, ah... I want to hug him, to kiss him. When will the photographer get enough take?
We have taken an eternity with each outfit before he gets ready to move on the next one.
- For consideration, let's end things here... look, I understand that the brand wants your pictures but also to not exceed the time in the studio, if we can't get all the outfits is okay we can arrange other options - The producers from the magazine weren't happy.
- Okay... you know how I work - The professional removed the camera from it's places and told us models that we are good to go for today.
- Wait... aren't you going to ask for my number ? - he hold me in place.
- Sorry, but someone else is my life already.
- Can't be as famous as me.
- I don't need to give you explanations, excuse me.
I hurried to greet my husband, before he would become more insistent.
- Are you done?- Yoongi asked.
- Just need to get changed... wait here, don't move please.
- Okay... but if there is any ruckus our car it's outside waiting... I can hide there too.
- I will be fast, I promise - I wanted to be in his arms and kiss him but only hold his hands for a moment as we talked.
- Pfff.. you are so delusional - The model took the flowers without asking and threw them away, the bucket was ruined, the yellow flowers became a yellow dust and the other colored flowers in the middle ended on the floor were people ended stepping over them to collect the settlement of the session.
I knew that expression on Yoongi's face... if he could mold that guy's face will in a worse state than the flowers ended.
- Come, ignore him he is just jealous because you have all my attention and love - I moved him towards the changing room.
- So.... all your attention and love - Yoongi hushed, I got surprised when he kissed my cheek.
- Yes, all for yourself to handle - I teased him. He didn't answered but seemed more comfortable with the situation.... I am not going to make a drama over some flowers, even if Yoongi wanted to give me something tonight.
Of course it was something I always cherish, he always demonstrates that no matter what, he takes a minute to think about me. Yoongi removed his hat and coat because the temperature is high and he was waiting for me completely dressed but I really don't mind when he decides to wear less... his perfume remains on him but with diferent accents after so many hours... is the fragrance that I recognize as his own.
I hurried to get my clothes back on and given the green signal to leave until I get another call. This time wouldn't wait to monitor my work if Yoongi preferred to leave early for whatever reason he has in mind.
Was not the end of the world if I can't say my opinion about the photos selected in this situation.
- That bitch has been, wait .... you.... you are...
- None of your business - I interrupted, pulling my husband with me towards the door to leave the place.
- Go quickly, I will finish up here. - my manager says.
- Baika... I want to show you something that I... well we can talk later... - He says nervously and I didn't had any reason to not do as he wished.
- A boxing club?... Oh... so... here is were you have been damaging your hands... ummm... show me more.
- okay... gimme a moment, I need to change my clothes.
- mmmhmmm... I like what I can see- I said when he called my attention over him. I tried to not call more attention after entering the place being hold by him.
- I came to get my frustration away, today has been getting worse and worse, except that you are here appreciating my existence and being my sweet angel.
- Do you wanna something in particular from me?
- Observe and be on my side.... we can talk later at home.
- Fine...
‐ I need to warm up... it's been a while that I don't exercise myself properly... don't roam around alone. Sometimes idiots comes around to get a fight.
- Boxing? You know that I like this... don't tell me you started because of those dudes in the States? They are not...
- Questions later... bandage my hands, serves you are focused on something.... - I was teasing him because he was a little jealous because we went to their match.
- You are very distracting...
- Don't tease me, focus on this.
A clandestine combat? Out of nowhere?... why so many fanatics taking pictures? Was this real? I was carrying the medical aids for his corner and was wishing not having to use anything from it.
I have so many questions that I should start to write them down to don't forget them. Here nobody called him Suga or Yoongi, neither Agust D only "Gloss the assassin".... the nick name made me think he was a savage fighter and that probably likes to bathe on his opponents blood to win when the other can't continue.
If he wins by K.O. the nickname would be different, something about leaving his opponents to rest or in a flat line... but he was "the assassin" not a punisher... maybe someone ended dead because of the combat... even if it wasn't inside the square.
Doesn't he made a song that says just that that he kills?