I am very upset, used all my energy to enjoy our date before talking about it... I know Yoongi is a good man that will hear me out and support my decision, even would try to understand if I decided to leave him.
I could feel his uneasiness when I confess that they asked me to change my name and forget my life to start a new one as the family where I was present. I was feeling like the worst daughter in the planet but I actually prefer that over cutting ties with Yoongi, he was my strength too, I opened up my heart to have this relationship with the person I am interested in... I learned how to love him, how to take care after him and how to put a smile on his face sometimes.
I know our relationship has been full of unnecessary stress and troubles and maybe if I didn't wanted a relationship I would have stayed in my country since that incident with my sister... I don't want to be the one shadowing his reputation, he had finally found his place in the world and was recognized as a great and good influence for millions of fans that needed his words, through hearing the lyrics and hold into his music to walk out of the hole they were into.
I am accostumated to do everything on my own for the sake of my family and pushed me over my limitations to get more than just the necessary but I actually wasn't living... I was like a creature without feelings that only served to make money I was withering instead but by luck I got an opportunity to travel to a new place.
I started focused on getting a new dream, yeah Japan was a great excuse to try again and find something to think that life was something more than working and earning money to give to someone that wanted it, because I was happy with a simple roof over my head, a meal on my table and something to do and don't be all day in bed letting the darkness eat me alive.
I wanted to live and fortunately BTS was on my path, not just because I was going to work on their company and liked the work they did, I actually got closer to them and suddenly forgot all that was stopping me from living the moment, all that was unnecessary things now where things that I was trying out. Learning languages, instruments, how to sing... or just how different is the culture here... it sparkled my life.
- I love you - he said once again when he stopped on a red light.
I touched his leg and he looked at me to see what I wanted, it was opportunity to steal a kiss without causing an accident and he responded to it as if he needed it. He is a great driver even if he can't use his car often, actually I'm the one taking it almost every day and he haven't asked me to buy my own or nagged about my decision to keep the bike when is so dangerous to ride it, since nothing apart the helmet and the gear protects me in case of accidents.
- goodness beautiful... what are you doing to me? - he said moving to give me another kiss one that melted my heart and he just finished it when the drivers got impatient to move.
- be careful love, I'm not going anywhere without you tonight - I said and he smirked driving smoothly as ever because I asked him to not hurry up.
- you are mine forever not just tonight - he murmured but I have heard him and just looked at him focused on the traffic and the weather getting suddenly worse.
We arrived at the same time as other neighbors from our building so he parked carefully and we walked towards the elevator without calling anyone's attention.
- my daughter it's a fan of your group, seems you are the "it" of the moment - said one man and I felt uncomfortable because he wouldn't stop staring at me, mostly my legs that wasn't covered enough like the rest of my body.
- that's very generous to say, we are just trying our best and working hard - Yoongi said standing before me, maybe he also noticed that man called the attention over us on propose, not that he really was interested on the great artist in front of him, I can tell he looked at Yoongi as if he was a flower vase, pretty but unnecessary.
- must be because you are young that have the energy to enjoy your life after work... elderly like me just want to get home sooner and are lucky if my wife doesn't demand anything else when I get home... must be hard to remain single.
- In my case... hopefully I'm not disturbing the neighbors with my music... sometimes I work from home to have more time - the other people on the elevator said they can't heard any noise on their apartments, he was avoiding to tell who I was even if I had heard around people talking about us and looking at me like a pitiful creature.
I was the dark skinned gold digger living a carefree life, I try to stay inside as much as possible to not meet people like that. I don't like to hear the comments when anyone cared to meet the great man he actually is, in my old neighborhood most of the people is from other countries so I don't feel weird and they don't see me as diferent to them.
Suga's P/V:
I held her hand and pulled my wife out of that elevator, my blood pressure was on his limit after his words and looking hungrily to her legs, I know I was walking too fast, I could hear her steps trying to match my long strides.
- love... I am here, let me - Baika said softly carresing my arm and hand to be the one entering the code to enter our home, I tried it but the machine haven't reconogized all the numbers in time so just marked a mistake and didn't opened the lock.
I realized that all day long the things that was upsetting me came to us, we were in peace before our families called, I had to assist to a funeral that I didn't wanted to go and my wife is losing her family to be with me.
- I really love you, I'm not playing around - I said once inside the big tears wanting to leave her eyes told me I was right, this decision was killing her... she does all on her hands for the people she loves and giving up wasn't on her vocabulary.
- I... I am not a monster, right? - she asked me, she always lived for them here with me she was trying to be happy and took me some time to understand it... Our relationship was her egoist act, she lives here with me and left the rest for those moments when we can be together.
- No, do you think I am also a monster because I never hear anyone and always do whatever is more convenient for me? - I asked her, she shaked her head to answer me that my lover doesn't think of me that way.
I kissed her and Baika melted in my hands, we didn't wanted to think about difficult things right now even if we should. I undressed her slowly until we reached our bed and she was doing the same to me.
- forgive me - I said on her ear when I pushed myself inside of her, Baika moaned my name with pleasure and hold into me. Since she told me about her family wanted to take her from my side... was like trying to kill me, I breathed deeply her aroma of riped fruits.
- so hot - Baika said back when she was feeling more pleased with my actions. I needed to have her all to myself, that nobody could come and claim her... we are married but that it's just a paper... I couldn't show to the world that she is the woman I wanted to create a new life, to help me grow and give me meaningful reasons to be by her side.
- ...love.... tell me what you want... I... - I tried to control my feelings and pulled the little boy out of his heaven against everything inside me telling me to mark her forever, to make her unable to be with anyone else and to oblige her to endure me if I get her pregnant tonight.
- Yoongi... I know... it's a little scary to start a family but I want... ready or not... if you want it now, don't stop yourself.... I love you so much - she said cleaning my face, was I crying? Fuck I must look like an idiot instead of appealing.
I was dying embarrassed and confused covered my face, I could feel that sensation of being ridiculous in front of the woman I wanted to convince to give me another chance to become parents.
Baby's P/V:
I haven't made a mistake, maybe he haven't noticed but I believed it every time he says that he loves me... it wasn't the words coming out of his mouth... was his entire existence looking for me, having a second to check where I was, to be sure I wasn't struggling, he offering his help... now was fighting against himself to stop for a second and be sure he wasn't forcing me into anything.
I belong here, that's the only thing in my head when his emotions overwhelmed him, it wasn't my intention to keep pulling the strings that makes him realize how sensitive he is about love and what is the right thing to do.
I started kissing him again and surprised he looked at me weirdly, he would never understand why I fell for him, we can talk about it for hours and afterwards he will still believing he is not enough to be considered a good lover.
- I would love to be yours, believe me... Yoongi can I borrow this for a while? - I teased him but didn't waited for an answer taking the little Agust D inside my mouth and try out all my ideas to pleasure him.
- ahhh...mmmh fuck! - he moaned... tomorrow in the morning his voice would be all husky and cracked... so sexy, he was unable to tame the pleasure and hide it.
I can feel him trying to let me do whatever I wanted with his body even if he was dying to hold my head and trust his hips to go deeper, he was on his limit begging me to take my mouth off because well... probably was told it was a nasty thing to do to a woman, but I actually liked it ... I don't ask things that will stay in my mind torturing me, I know he had lovers before me and I was learning everything with his guidance... all I wanted to try he would like to adapt it to our taste so even if we don't repeat some things we don't regret it... nothing goes banned at all but I actually know we keep things close to the basics or traditional?
I stopped with a popping sound but didn't resisted going on top and continuing with what he started a few minutes ago. He cursed badly and hold into my hip to stop me from moving. Yoongi looked at me hungrily he wasn't on a level where he would have the strength to stop but at least wanted to know that I liked everything too.
I stopped thinking and let myself enjoy the experience, the way he touched me, something rough and nice... I can't explain it better... but I remember vividly his heartbeat, the warmth of his embrace, the sweetness of his words in my ears and the taste of his kisses, the strength of his fingers as he holds me or a bite of his mouth because he could control himself as he feels the pleasure.
The next morning he was evaluating me, all the traces screaming that someone in my bed did whatever that wasn't just sleeping, well... maybe at some point afterwards we fulfilled that need.
- why you don't hit me? I mean you are well trained to stop me when I go crazy - Yoongi said softly as I was trying to find something that covers the love bites and fingers marks of his hands trying to control my moves.
- I like it on those moments, or are you trying to tell me that I should refuse to my own pleasure? - I said and he smiled shyly.
- so it was pleasurable last night? - he asked and I wasn't sure if he wanted to make me go shy trying to tell him or maybe he needs to hear he is not an horrible lover.
- babe... don't flirt with me, my knees are still trembling in your presence and thanks for taking care of me to wake up...I don't know why I tend to forget how to walk... it's really normal to feel so relaxed?... like I don't have any hard bone to hold me up? - I said and he smirked.
- that one beautiful, that's perfect, will you be comfortable to travel with that on? I want to go and return on the same day we aren't spending the night in Daegu - he said and I looked at myself in the mirror to check if I needed to cover something with makeup.
We finished getting ready but Yoongi said he would call her mother whe we needed instructions to get the right place, he didn't want to discuss about it over the phone, my husband was sure it was a mistake to go there but anyway for his mother he would do the impossible posible...I texted Sejin and since I was with Yoongi didn't protestested when he called and said he would go on his own without security since he wasn't planning to stay in the city more than a few minutes to mourn Jia.
- Let's buy something to have during the drive, this coffee shop is really good - suggested Yoongi as he drives carefully between the buildings of our area.
- okay... there between those white subs on the right - I said
- mmm seems narrow but I will try it - he said bitting his lower lip and trying to park the car flawlessly.
- you are a better driver than me - I said before going out the car and he covered himself really well.
- bro! Come around!- said a male voice it was Namjoon holding up his iced coffee, Jin was with him and turned to see who arrived.
- you came to get a coffee or the money? Dammit Yoongi where are you going dressed like that?- said the oldest.
- good morning... do you know what you want? I will order and you can talk with them - I said
- mmm iced americano and a pancake, I want a salty one please... thanks - Yoongi pulled my hand and kissed me briefly through the mask but I actually felt the pressure over my lips and that was surprising to not say shocking.
- Can I have your order? Asked someone on the counter in front of me and I blushing ordered everything to go - Yoongi was slowly showing his affection for me in public... it wasn't a bad thing but unfortunately unusual and I didn't know how to react to it, I would never refuse his affection but I don't know why he would do it in front of his friends and the few clients that came this early.
Suga's P/V:
- don't look at me like that... she is my wife after all and she doesn't like this vicinity at all, everyone is Korean here and look at her as if she would do strange services to anyone, she doesn't like to get out of home alone here or make friends like she usually does... I want to see her more happy but her apartment lacks too much security to settle there.
- yeah, but tell her first... she was so surprised that couldn't hide it, be careful anyway because some rumors will start and the paparazzis will follow you intensely again - said Namjoon
- you look oddly beautiful today... are you two out for a date? - said Jin
- yeah I will take her to a funeral, nice don't you think? - I teased him rudely.
- who... sorry I have to take the call - Jin said getting up and walking outside the store, Baika came to wait for our order to be ready to take, she was given the 13th and we were surprised... I asked her to keep the waiting ticket for her diary that was more like a scrapbook of her lifetime.
- anyone knows where is this place?- Jin asked us when he returned he couldn't help himself to check the figure of my wife but tried to not be very obvious or stare more than a few seconds.
- Mint Mental Health Care? I think...I know it's on the City hall area next to the police station... I saw the name when I visited the lawyer to cancel my contract with the company... I used the 10th line by bus to get there but has a lot of parking options since there is a pretty observatory behind the building.... patients walked around the green area - Baika said.
- we can drive you there, we have the car outside - I offered the only person close to Jin on a mental hospital was Seoah... she probably asked for him.
- ahhh... but Yoongi aren't you out for a date?- Jin comments
- my mom asked me to do act of presence on a funeral, I know the mother of the dead girl because is friends with my mom but if she haven't insisted I wouldn't go - I said.
- oh...
- order number 13!
- that's ours, sorry - Baika got up to get it.
- come, I won't let you alone with Seoah - I insisted taking his hand to bring him outside
- who do you...
- Seoah is the only mental patient that would keep molesting you ...I am glad you decided to forget about her - I said.
- thanks... Yoongi I don't know what to say.
- I'm not going to leave you alone, I prefer to have a problem with my mom than let you go alone there - I said holding his wrist so he wouldn't go anywhere without me.
Baika was doing all the driving towards the clinic and I never really realized she doesn't likes driving at all, but she does every time without calling a taxi or a driver from the company. I could see the tension on her body as she drives or how she really can predict dancer coming our way because someone it's eating, smoking or sending text messages on their phones...
- Baika you should be a police officer, everyone relax on the rules as they get experience driving, you got your license quite recently - comments Jin
- yah! When you get 15 stitches on your pretty face because a mofo was burning his precious balls with a cigarette we can talk about relaxing on the rules - she said stopping smoothly and distant from the previous car on a red light.
Before they used to have a lot of things to talk about when they were together but Baika didn't said anything unless we talked to her directly.
- why you bought a bike if you hate so much driving? - I asked suddenly
- the traffic is horrible, everyone drives here as if their lives were more important than the rest of the humanity, people doesn't use bikes so often because the higher maintenance, the weather and that you can't transport much apart from yourself that why delivery is so quick by car is almost impossible.
- Isn't like that in your country too?- Jin asked
- police can't do all the necessary to get out of circulation all the possible cause of accidents you don't imagine how risky can be go from point A to point B until the driver of the taxi you hired doesn't even got a license, and more than half of the high valuable cars doesn't have any license either.... really avoid traffic in my country, there are more possibilities to end dead that jumping from a bridge to the Han River here.
- then what people do?- Jin asked forgetting about where are we going.
- Pray? Seriously my country is not that secure, money is law and justice... my grandmother always talks about her past and was difficult, a lot of people died and culture wasn't something the ones ruling the country wanted intellectual people that he can't beat.
- shouldn't you say you'r country is the best and everything? - I asked
- I am proud of my country and love it, it's a beautiful place and the food is awesome but in terms of security... laws working properly and justice... I can't demonstrate is something to be proud about, from my personal experience - she said.
- ah... what about here any flaws so far?- Jin asked curious
- mmmh they are too strict.
- why would you think that? - I mean she married me a very average personality here.
- People is very educated here, their intellectual skills are very important to everyone but also makes it difficult to conect with other, when you don't look into the eyes other people, would end a friendship because the age difference and feelings aren't as important as the right thing to do...
- I am like that? I mean... - I couldn't understand what was wrong with that...
- you are, but here I am so you won't lose hopes about love, we fight because we don't see the same thing in the same way... Jin likes people actually so it's more easier to me to create a relationship with him.
- that... Yoongi actually sometimes we think you would like to exterminate us to feel comfortable - Jin teased me.
- your are too noisy and energetic for your age... act your age more often please - I said to defend myself.
Baika suddenly stepped on the brakes and she apologized but she just saw a place to park the car, that she can manage perfectly without struggling.
- ah... thanks goodness, we arrived without incidents, thanks dear - she said to the car, my wife murmured but we heard her, it was so cute, like the car would have any power to have a safe ride.
We heard the doctor telling how to manage his conversation with Seoah he has to talk with the truth but about the baby and the wedding he must treat her like a real lover, with all the affection possible so she starts to get attached to the baby, she was getting better but her fantasy about Jin being the solution to all her problems haven't ended yet... the woman couldn't let go the only unconditional love she has ever met.
The doctor was monitoring the visit so we could see and heard everything as if we could be present and Baika was in a corner trying to not know what happened actually. Namgoong instead was burning with jealousy when Jin kissed her, he really convinced her that the baby was something good to wait for and that she was safe there.
Namgoong tried to start a fight with Jin but we stopped him, it was his fault she ended this way and Jin had to solve it after enduring the woman he always loved dearly, changed him for that failure of human... or at least that was what Baika called him on his face whe he tried to convince us that Jin was behaving like that to win Seoah over and play with her head to think an Idol would love an insane woman so easily.
Baika probably had a lot to say to her dear friend but stayed in silence holding his hand even if he tried to not a few times, I drove him home because I was scared that he would go to the first bar to drink up until he can't remember his own name.
I supported her decision to be gentle with Jin even if she understood their relationship was very damaged after cutting ties the way Jin wanted, I realized that my lover isn't one of those that will ignore a friend in a low moment just because they aren't on good terms at the moment.
She a few hours ago decided I was more important than her family and Jin needd that hold all the way back to Hannam e en if it could be misunderstood, but I understood and didn't said anything, she hugged him without any word or explanation before we returnedto our original plan, didn't gave me excuses for doing that in front of me and didn't tried to talk about Jin hyung the rest of the day.
- I will call my mom now, we are close so it's better to ask with enough time to decide what way would be the better to arrive.
- okay I will try to write down the address - she said pulling the notebook I always have around, to write my ideas when I needed.
My mother answered so quickly that made me suspicious why she really wanted me here, if someone hadn't died, today I will kill someone... I had enough today seeing how someone smashed Jin's heart again, an obsession had lead him here... her obsession and his kindness, Jin was keeping his heart but didn't wanted to admit he made a big mistake this time.
- Do you remember her address? - my mom asked, telling they wanted to do everything on their house... that was so weird but anyway I was already here.
This was a party not a funeral... what was this? My mother set up something? I tried to find my father but he wasn't here. Baika was behind me looking around as confused as I was.
- 오빠! Thanks for comming to my birthday! Come... you must be tired... - a woman came to tell me, and reconogized me even behind the mask.
- what are you talking? Who are you anyway? EXCUSE ME - I grabbed my wife's hand and pulled her with me.
- Yoongi, I clearly said to leave her in Seoul... don't make an scandal okay?... smile - I couldn't permit she would touch me.
- where is dad? He knew this was a set up? - I asked directly
- no I conveniently set a doctor's appointment today, he will come later and I will explain him things...
- I can't believe you... why you organized such a thing and lied to me? - afterwards she would protest if I don't trust her.
- you would come if I had told you the truth? - my mother said
- I don't know... why is so important for you that I show my face here anyways?.
- This is the most important people of Daegu, you should start looking for your future and settle a safe place where to go when you end playing around with your friends.
- Mom.....
- Look just met people around and let Jia introduces you.... but you brought her... couldn't you keep her in the closet a little longer? - my mother hushed behind a plastic smile.
- Here your favorite Whiskey, I asked your mother to have the brand you like... why don't you come and talk with me...mmmh? Here are a lot of people that can offer you to be the face of their products, you can be very popular, I am a very good influencer and can help you, you can be the most profitable member of your group before your popularity drops because of the military service.
- No thanks, I have my own buffet of brands waiting my actual contracts comes to end to make an offer - I said looking at Baika, she must feel much more uncomfortable than me.
- and...she...who is she? Or it's a little secret - she laughed but I didn't found it funny.
- I am just his protection and assistance, just think of me as a shadow, don't mind me miss - Baika said
- Of course not, permit me to present you this beautiful woman is Baby Brown and works in my company and also it's a great artist too, not many can say that can do well in front of the cameras and also behind, my father arrived, let's greet him - I pulled my wife with me and didn't minded if anyone would talk about it, I pretend to have Baika next to me all the time and isn't going to be long.
My father was very disappointed that his wife, my mother, would go this far to set up a for those influent people she thinks we should be surrounded by. He already wasn't happy when she called me to convince me to come, she lied on propose and that will be a problem for the entire family, my father has realized this people was just a facade any of them was as well off and important in reality once I could help with my earnings and they can have all those expensive things we always dreamed about but those things wouldn't change what we really are, just would impress those that can't buy those expensive brands.
- Dad we should get going I have things to do tomorrow and it's a long drive back... I haven't restored my energy from my work overseas and I should be resting at home not driving around the country.
- at least eat something before going, dear how are you settling in the new apartment? I see you much healthier and beautiful than the last time we met - my father greeted her and guided us to the buffet, he was comfortable with my wife by his side. Since we married he treats her like a real member of our family and would count with her as if was another of his own children.
- oh... thanks for your concern, I am doing fine actually just need to learn how to endure all those posh people in the vicinity - she humored my father(he didn't liked them much)she always knows how to deal with his personality and my father indulges her because he knows she is a good girl and was trying her best to respect our lifestyle, learning from them also would do anything they considered a wife should do, they understand most of things are new for her.
My wife was waiting for me outside as I said my last words to my parents before driving back to Seoul, they will enjoy the party a little longer since my parents always feel better when I am not distant and fighting to do things as I want, even if I didn't enjoyed the way my mother managed this... I really missed them both.
- Do you think you are the big thing because you know his parents?... I have been next to Yoongi my entire life - Jia followed her and I wanted to she what she wanted.
- Sorry, I don't see your point... Is a problem for you that I'm in good terms with the Min family? - Baika said
- Yoongi is mine, our mothers will arrange everything to get us together when he finishes his contract as Idol, then he can will learn how to manage my father's company - daydreaming said Jia.
- I see... good luck with that - Baika said uninterested, checking her phone for a second. Jia laughs irritated because my wife didn't wanted to pay attention to what she had to say and was jealous of Baika because she can be close to me an I never wanted to met her in person this was the first time and my mother had to lie the entire family.
- He is mine... I am famous and our families are already close - Jia insisted.
- Seems you have all your future plans done, must be so happy about it... why you don't go ahead and talk with him before he has to return to work? - She said smiling briefly
- Talk with him ? - Jia was surprised that my wife acted like that wasn't her business.
- Yeah... If I was set to marry someone the last I would try is communicate my thoughts to him and see what he thinks, I haven't known anyone with a future planned like yours... maybe in books, but that is pure fantasy, my family loves me too much to let me marry the man of my choice - she at least tried to make her think about that absurd fantasy in her head, I know my mother never corrected her or said a word about how distant I was with my parents sometimes, mostly when I started in Big Hit.
- It was my opportunity today but you ruined it he wouldn't take his eyes from you! - Jia said.
- Sorry but he is a super star now and unfortunately there is a lot of crazy people that wants to hurt him, inmediatly he arrived the city a woman entered the company's building and persecuted him for hours until security could arrest that person in a safe way so the issue wouldn't end in the newspaper... so far I have seen people trying to hurt him with cutting instruments, taking his clothes against his will from his boby, enter his private space and robbed his things...also a gun pointed at him and his group members, fortunately the security team is well prepared and the police is always collaborative so he doesn't have to worry unnecessarily. - that actually was true but Baika said it in the most scary way
- his parents haven't said anything about that... I never heard something more than getting calls or being followed by fans - Jia said
- well he doesn't want to make anyone worry about his safety but if you want to marry him you will recibe the same treatment from people that wouldn't respect anything.
- and why are you here? Why he didn't came with bodyguards instead?
- because I the security team knows I'm capable enough for that and criminals don't see me as a strong inconvenience and do less dangerous things, Min also said that can't stay long enough to be in much danger.
- But he treats you so well... - Jia said
- He is a great man and I think its better to talk with him directly instead of making plans through your family... maybe he doesn't like the idea of being set in a marriage with someone he haven't chosen himself... I heard a man only ask a woman in marriage if he has plans to create a family and Idols usually can receive a positive response from any person of their choice.
- person? You mean any pretty girl? - Jia made a weird face.
- Baby never minded what I or anyone in the company would like to have in a relationship - I said.
- Ah... mmmm can we talk? - Jia asked and I could see her interest on me.
- I don't have much time, only came because my mother wanted me here but actually I couldn't rest properly since I came back, this wasn't on my plans.
- Can you give us some privacy? - Jia asked to my wife
- prefer if she is present in case you don't like my opinion - Jia felt offended by my rude comment.
- mmm I would never hurt you Yoongi, but okay I understand... Yoongi have thought about your future? - Jia asked
- sometimes, I am very content about my life at this moment so I would like it goes the same way for a long time - I said looking at my wife but she gestured me to look at Jia, I didn't wanted and my wife sighed.
- I think our families will be very happy if we get into a relationship to marry - said the girl without shame.
- I am not famous for following my parents desires, you know that much or not? - said irritated
- yes but if you want, we can get into an arrangement our parents doesn't have to know what... I don't know maybe you will find it more appealing if we talk about it...alone - Jia said touching my clothes on the chest area.