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CHAPTER 5

Chaeyoung's P.O.V:

There was darkness. Then a crash.

I was in the car again. With......him. It was happening all over again. I could do nothing to stop it. 

I watch as the car flips into the trees and crashes. I watch as he pushes me out at the last moment.

I watch and just watch. I watch him die, because of what I did......

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The door bangs open. Jin is standing in the doorway, staring at me. 

I was screaming.

Jin comes and sits down on my bed. "Chaeyoung...? What happened...?" He asks worriedly.

I am panting now. I shake my head. Then I burst into tears and cry on his shoulder. 

"Shh it's ok," whispers Jin as he pats my head. "Did you have a nightmare?"

I nod my head. "It was all real....I couldn't do anything to stop it.....and now he's dead, all because of me!"

"Chae?" It's Yeonjun.

I look up from Jin and sob silently. He rushes over to me and grabs my shoulders. "What happened?" 

I start to shake. Why are these nightmares coming back again....? I just want to forget it all......I don't want to remember it.....I want James to come back.....

Yeonjun burries my head in his chest as I sob. I watch as he nods at Jin who gets up, pats my head once then leave. Oh, what am I gonna tell him? He must think I am a physco or something.....

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JIN's P.O.V:

I can't sleep. I don't know why. There's this feeling inside me that something will happen, but what is it?

Suddenly someone screams- I jerk up from my bed. It's Chaeyoung. Should I go check on her? Her dorm is right in front of mine....

Her screams begin to intensify. I run from my room and rush into her dorm as fast as I can. 

She is there, sitting on her bed with her hands in her head, sobbing. 

Why is she screaming and sobbing like this? I go and sit on her bed. I ask worriedly, "Chaeyoung...? What happened...?" Yeah I know, probably not the best thing to ask at the moment, but I am worried, okay? 

She is panting now. She shakes her head and cries in my shoulder. I pat her back. "Shh, it's okay. Did you have a nightmare?" Another dumb question. But I am really worried, okay? So don't judge me, I have never been in a situation like this.

She nods in reply. "It was all real....I couldn't do anything to stop it.....and now he's dead, all because of me!" 

Okay, what?! I am clueless. What the heck is she talking about? Who died? And why? When? And why is she blaming herself?

Right at that moment, I hear footsteps behind us and I tense, but it is only Yeonjun. 

"Chae?" He says worriedly. Chaeyoung looks up at Yeonjun. He rushes over to her and grabs her shoulder. What is he doing to my Chaeyoung? I mean.... what?! No! Not MY Chaeyoung.....Aish, why am I acting like this...! He is only her friend..... right?

Chaeyoung burries her head in Yeonjun's chest and something stirs inside me. What is going on with me? Why am I acting like this?

Yeonjun nods at me as a sign to leave so I unwillingly get up, pat Chaeyoung's head once then I leave.

But one thing bothered me the entire night. What was Chaeyoung talking about? Did something happen in her past or was it only just a nightmare....? And earlier today.....when Yeonjun was saying that they had lost contact with Chaeyoung.....he was saying someone's name....James....but Chaeyoung had shrugged and said 'I don't want to talk about him right now.' Who is this 'James'? Maybe I should ask her, but I am afraid that she might be uncomfortable in telling me, I mean I don't blame her, we only met a few days ago.....

I sigh and roll over in my bed until sleep finally washes over me.

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