- What the fu....!! - My superior couldn't finish his sentence.
- Is there a ...problem...Sir?- I couldn't talk, to take in the disaster before my eyes. A hurricane came and we didn't have any idea?
- Ah, Han...you returned, how was the night walk? - the office was the messyest room I have ever seen and he was asking us, if taking care od the recent training period was not the big issue of the basement.
- Regular... what about you sir? Need a hand to contribute to the disaster?
- This?? Don't worry about it...a team from the city will put order from tomorrow on... but close the door we have to catch the rabbit.
- The rabbit ?
- Yes... my children's pet... they let it out the jail by mistake. Has been running away all morning. I saw the small animal scared to death from the persecution.... the poor animal can die because of the stress so thinking, prepared some water and the lettuce someone brought to the night walk, it was in my backpack to return it to the kitchen later.
Soldiers can be surprisingly stupid during their first training, because some can't understand well how easy is to follow simple rules and commands.
- Sir...another congratilaton - A soldier came to tell me, he opened my letter from the supervisor, but I didn't care at this point after more than a year here, I accepted that privacy is a luxury.
- stop opening my correspondence, in a war you can die with developing my a poisonous one so, keep the envelopes sealed.
- Sorry sir... what have you done? A secret mission?
- what? Don't imagine things, the Boss got his children to visit him and brought their pet... it scaped and I found it, returning the mascot. It's not a big deal... furthermore people from the central office will come around to review the camp, don't get a punishment.
- A punishmentment.
- Yes, that's my correspondence don't open it. Baika too, she wrote me something again? Between all the letters he gave me I started to read hers first.
Hey Jin!
Time flies and I can't believe your birthday is around the corner again, I wanted to make this letter to arrive that day...I made it? Hope so.
Happy birthday, I wish to see you soon. Sorry I never visited you there.
I couldn't continue reading, no my birthday passed already I met her around those dates and her letter I moved to the window to see better... the letter was sent with time enough, why It didn't ended in my hands earlier? I looked at the document.... they have been reading it so many times... what she said? What could be enough for others to want to read itand share the letter like a gift. She said something that needed an answer from me? What if she wanted to let me know something before going to see her. Yeah I planned my redemption with Yoongi and she knows that we will met again soon.
I shouldn't be telling you this, but thanks again, your friendship is very important to me, the hours you spend explaining to me how a cooking machine works so I can eat. I loved it, and miss you.
Don't get anxious trying to return to hell were I regin, leave everything to me, hold on me for once and take it easy. How many fanatics you got there?
Hey mister handsome be happy. Don't cry missing us, your mom invited me to eat... I eat a lot, she misses you a lot because like me can't just call and hear your voice as much as we would like.
You are important to me, I do. Think that maybe I confused you when we are together... my mouth says no but seriously want to be bad and take everything without mercy.
Do you think that I can blame you without blaming myself? I am the one behind you sometimes. Be easy... well that are my wishes dear Moon.
Let's met in your birthday and celebrate my evil existence together, see you soon... and get a girlfriend for good sakes!! Your pictures wearing your uniform are collapsing my gallery.
Love you mister WWH.
Be happy, and come back soon.
I can't believe her... to make things easier? No, I can't.
- she is the girl from that time... why you don't ask her to be your girlfriend? She seems pretty enamored with you already, scared of something... maybe because you are famous... your family already accepted a foreign woman... can't be so difficult to make her your girl.
- She has someone else already, thanks for getting your nose in my business and make this arrive so late.
I left the envelope over his head. And worked, all my late correspondence was waiting for me when I returned to my bed.
I ordered everything by date and realized that most where just be proof that she took a moment to think about me...letters were more special, she wanted to talk, she loves something about me.
I sent a picture to Yoongi, I don't know what to do. She is the girl that without a word knew I wanted her food,that teaches me the real meaning of soft, easy and love.
He called, Yoongi's voice came to my ears.
📱- what is the problem? Someone finaly returned your letters, is not that special, she also thinks greatly of you idiots and all of you will get plenty of those until you are back and she can torture you in person. You can love her, if you dare.
♡Don't laugh like that, it's super creepy, is like you are about to something cruel.
📱- Did you heard that? She knows me well, that's scary. - Yoongi says.
The talk calmed my heart, a few minutes hearing that their relationship was fine and that he knows what means to have me and Jungkook trying to cure our deception,our bad description of love, loving her.
She was hanging in there, not because of us, because of his father even now, with the secrets coming out of it's box. Never thought that was better to not be completely honest.... was her first lover who, no it was my friendship... was Jungkook's unmanageable behavior that made us become...lovers, friends... nothing of that was for us, but they agreed to get married and be lovers.
And I can be with her...if I wanted but, our reasons to not is still strong, to tell us that is going to be late to turn back if we dare to do more.
YG: She will never hate you, that would be easier.
Love me, is what I wanted to say, love me is what I wanted to hear. Because she is not a woman in my bed... she is not a friend that I can kick out of my life easly... she is not a game, a conquer or anything.
- Morning - Yoongi salutes me as if it was correct to say it that way.
‐ Salute soldier - I corrected him with a smile
He changed the jacket of his uniform, in the base he has to wear the same kind of attire as us not the blue office one.
Can get changed properly later, they arrived before lunch to get his assignated dorm and met the one they have to respond towards. Luckily, Doberman was that man, he and Yoongi wanted to have a chitchat about Baika so, today we will eat together. My duties should be done by seven to be able to go on my short vacation as planed. Will be the last time that I would go home having to return for more.
90 days or less if I can manage a few points. Some did wanted to be out as much as me, but are calculating to be sure they can take their leave at the same as me.
- Min Yoongi... finally - my superior turned to talk to him after talking with the leader of the unit, he have mentioned something about those office visits. They should help with the paper work but any action to correct the issues in our base is up to ourselves they look and report and are respected because they will inform without personal judgment about any case, since they don't know people so well to discriminate them.
- Sir... this is for you, she haven't forgotten about her days here. Jin this is for your friends she will provide you all your favorites when you return to Seoul.
- See? I told you- I smirked to my superior and he looked at us surprised that such an angel exists. Fresh home made pastries and and the amount perfectly packaged to have portions of it.
Since Baika's rescue our meals were nothing to talk bad about, she lived from our leftovers and survived. The ones cooking made efforts to deliver special menus to all that had to be held on the medical area. Even have special menus to those the doctor's noticed that need something not regular.
The taste was better too, and I haven't got any accident because they couldn't be sure if I could eat or not something because of my allergies. All them knew what was served properly.
- umm... silece, the food is going to be good here - Yoongi noticed.
- It's better, not perfect - I confirmed.
- Min... don't start... you haven't tried it yet and you always have something to say against it - A girl pushed him to be ahead of us.
Her hips moved unnecessarily, unnaturally but still wasn't anything to pay attention so I returned to my friend, for an explanation.
- She hates my guts because I choosed my lover over her, and when she saw Baika hates even the air I need to breathe.
- Better be hated than the previous attempts to seduce you - another college comments, I looked at him... this bastard, he only needs time to make people get crazy over him. He can become a beast or a demon with a glance but as time passes, he is the sweet man any woman thinks that can play with.
‐ Will keep trying, the bitch is adamant to have his flesh, specially because he never comes with visible marks of being taken... also started to say that the model is your... you know... to not be called gay - another one says and I laughed so hard that became the center of attention.
- stop asking for her number and we will talk later - Yoongi jokes
The office couldn't be so boring if Yoongi is having friends or something to enjoy his days working with them, was something I couldn't imagine but was glad to see that, he doesn't have more reasons to become more difficult than he is already.
- She? has been painting with oils, working the less I have noticed since I met her... I mean as ballerina or going to the agency... his manager is someone that keeps turning work down, because I know people called to ask if she has any inconvenient and worked without telling directly to his manager.
- My bad... so he is not getting anything from it. Sounds like she will have to confront him when learns that have been left out of business - someone asked.
- No, because on the contract says that they have to provide to earn... she is good on business, plus she doesn't need to work, with her business in her country earns enough but doesn't like to be on permanent vacations.
- seriously?
-IS SHE THAT RICH? - Someone that hates to compete for Yoongi's attention was hearing about it.
- No know all the details but one peso from her country are 23 wons of ours... so with the change she wins even if there can't even get constant electricity everyday but a lot of people works in the States so the value of her money is not that low. She comes from a rich family in Spain and Euros are almost one to one with American dollars so depending from which account you look at she makes more money not working here.
- Then why is she here? I don't understand- she insist to know.
- Girl... here she sleeps with him and not any idiot, do you understand now?- I said
- Jin... that's too much, only because she didn't wanted to date the ones on her circle of people doesn't means that came to find a lover here - Yoongi blushed
- No, she didn't came to met you, or to be your lover but that happened as soon as you noticed her beauty and stoled her phone to get his number - I teased him.
- I exchanged it with mine because it was the same model, and returned it when she wanted.
- After collapsing her gallery with your selfies, she told me - I teased him.
We didn't talked seriously in the canteen, but Yoongi in private confessed me his thoughts. Baika killed anyone trying to hurt her, in that deplorable state we found her. The scary thing is that proof doesn't help the criminals, are pointing them undoubtedly, to be just like a fair relate of an extreme survival experience.
- Have you talked with Jungkook about it?
- No yet... he shouldn't worry about that right now, no when he can't even manage to look at her eyes and ask his doubts straight to her.
- Okay... she knows already that we aren't exactly... saints.
- She knows mostly about me.... is up to you to tell her about yourself, but please... talk to her about your feelings... She might end believing that you are using her to cure your broken heart, that your love is a lie.
- Why are you...
- Love doesn't hurts Jin, now... I can understand she better. That is why I started this process to get you and Jungkook in her life.
- So you thought about everything properly?
- Yes... surely isn't something that only happened when I figured out that you couldn't be around her without loving her, she wouldn't accept anything if she couldn't love you guys back.There exists differences, but my place is only mine and yours is unique too. Jungkook is driving her insane, I can't predict what will happen with them, but about you...I don't have doubts.
- We can't force her... do you understand that?What I want ,what she wants with you... that is not going to be easy.
- Yes, but... don't give up so early - he held my hand and I wanted to cry. Why this happened to us? Never really wanted the same person ever... why his wife? We slept with plenty of girls that would collect us as medals because we never exposed much about our privacy.
- My car is here... I will keep you informed.
- Hey... I trust you...
- You will have to deal with her anyway... better to know the situation.
- Okay... have a safe trip.
- Careful here...
- I know... G-dragoon is not happy with her answers.
- That explains why you are all worried, he will kill her if she dared to move against him.
- Don't tell her why we are enemies... I want to explain that by myself... this started with me.
- Don't blame everything on you, he is out of control and you were right, I would do the same if I were on your shoes that day.
BABY'S P/V:
- No!! - I screamed as much as possible.
Jennie and Jungkook... what a nightmare... but why? Ah... this is Yoongi's fault... my conversations about my feelings towards him are messing with the fact that the girl hates me enough to try something crazy.
I was in my bed and someone was holding my hand, I started the lights and Jin was there sleeping... I hit him.
- Fuck!!
- Don't protest, why are you in my bed?
- Actually it's my bed, you fall sleep waiting for the laundry in my apartment, thanks for the nice welcoming... the meal wasn't necessary but thanks babe.
- sorry... I... should leave now.
- No please... I... only rest... I... will go to another room. - He could become a criminal but was here fully dressed, like me, holding my hand. I hurried to grab his clothes.
- It's fine... if you wanted something by forcing me, had the perfect opportunity and you choosed to give me your bed instead... Jin... lay down... we need to talk when I can think straight.
- thanks goodness, I am tired as hell...
He was surprised to feel my hands undressing his uniform. He didn't said anything about it, nothing when I returned to the previous darkness and undressed enough to be comfortable to sleep.
He was looking to the ceiling, could see his eye open. Hiding his now varely dressed body under the Nordic cover he uses to be warm in winter.
- hold me... it's cold - I said turning my back towards him
- Baika... I am not going to do anything that you don't want, never- I turned to look at tjis moron.
I kissed him there straight on his lips without mercy, introducing my tongue at the first opportunity and he returned it, felt him wanting more but moving his hands again to not take control of the situation.
- A liar... but good night Jin - he passed my first poof... A very cruel one.
I don't know if he can sleep at all but I will... I couldn't care less if I asked for it or not, if he thinks that I will endure their own strategies... sorry but not... here everyone start to show me facts or their game will blow up.
- your home is too cold - I said in the morning with his expensive nodick around my body, he moved to another room as soon as he thought that I was sleeping again.
- Any of us remembered to start the heater last night, it will be better later. Baika... what was that ?
- I don't understand, be more specific - I smiled but he didn't.
- Shit... that kiss, why you kissed me like that?
- It's not what you wanted?
- No... yes... fuck!!! Baika ... I was trying something we used to do often, sleep, only sleep in the same bed... but you did all of that... what... Do you know what could have happened if you do that with a regular man?
- One that is not you? Or you are talking about yourself, wanted to do something with me? Of course, I will do it with anyone!!- I pushed his buttons because he was talking so loudly to me.
- Shit!!! BAIKA!! For Christmas tree and all that represents the purity in wintertime!!... yeah wanted to make you moan my name on that bed last night, because of that kiss. Do you understand that I am a man and you a woman and we can't be kissing like that for fun?
- Oh yeah!! I am fucking loving it!! Speaking of that... you and Yoongi wanted this... what !!! now that I'm not against it is not funny?
- We never said that we were playing...or finding who can fuck you better... you don't understand shit!!
- Obviously!! Who is going to explain me what are you thinking about? Eh?
- Baika...
- I hate...- I stoped my mouth, a few tears scaped... but I collected my things to leave his apartment. I shouldn't be here, wasn't my plan to met him last night.
I was walking fast, but stopped suddenly. I looked for my phone and called Yoongi, insisted to get an answer now. Hurts to fight with Jin for nothing.... a miserable kiss, I have seen him gifting ths to girls that never loved him one bit.
📱- Love... are you okay? Why are you calling me so many times?- he sais softly
- Yoongi - I sobbing managed to say.
📱- Babe?... what... hey beautiful....let's make a video call okay?- still hushing carefully.
- Yoongi...
🎦- Love... hey look at me, I'm here, what is it? Why are you crying? Ana...beautiful... where are you? Need me there? I am like ...like 3 hours away but...
- No... I know you can't return without permission... can you please don't hang up yet? - I managed to say.
🎦- yes...yes... but tell me, are you hurt or something? Something happened? I can ask Jin to...
- No... it's fine, don't mind me.- I cut the call and he was trying to get any response, I ended getting his call, shouldn't make him worry about me when he can't do much for me.
📱- Ana..love... where are you darling?- he says nervously obviously worried but his voice was sweet, calming something I really needed right now.
- at..at home... well down... in the street that connects our apartment with Jin's place... well now, right now I need to sit down but it's fucking snowing - I was more relaxed because he couldn't see me.
📱- okay love... relax, breathe is winter and you love the white snow more than any uncomfortable inconvenience it brings around... I love you, so tell me... you know you can tell me don't you? Ana... are you there?
- yes...sorry... - I answered when I could.
📱- sorry my sunshine... I couldn't hear you and got a little anxious... do you need me? - I nodded but realized he can't see me
- I'm...crying... I will go home and text you later okay... I... this is not working...
📱- Ana, Ana... babe... what is not working? Just tell me... one thing do you love me?
- Of course I love you Yoongi, why would I call if I don't?
📱- Fine... perfect, I mean... I love it and got worried about something might happen between us... Baika, beautiful... tell me, are you sure to talk later and not now?
- Yes... I am mess... I can't explain myself well... don't remember the words you understand now...
📱- okay... I will do whatever you want... I love you so much babe... relax, I will wait or can stay on the phone until you feel better... here... is so uncomfortable. I miss you already, I love you... you can't even imagine...
- Me too... Yoongi...
📱- Yes... I am here...
- thanks...I feel better....* sobbing a little * the elevator... I willl take a bath and relax when can I call you?
📱- whenever you desire... this is more important than anything else... babe because I am here working, so far away, I will return as soon as the work is done and be at home four days... I will compensate the distance. I promise you...
- Yoongi.... I will call again okay... don't worry is only my feelings that are a mess.
📱- okay... okay.... I will try to not die of worry until you call again...- he made me laugh
- I'm on the elevator... is going to desconet the call soon.
📱- impossible... my wild love can make it worthy and the call is going to continue until you hang up... you will see - I laughed he is so nice with me.
- Dumb.... I love you... before hanging... don't cheat on me please...
📱- never... I will die if I try.
- don't make me laugh...I am crying... oh goodness I look horrible... love... I love you - He was telling those words back but obviously the call ended before we could do much about it.
SUGA'S P/V:
I skipped eating anything in the canteen to get something that will settle in my stomach after that call. It was midday and not long ago she texted me that she slept eons like sleeping beauty and that will text me everything later.
Worried about the insistent she dared to be, answered to find out she was crying so hard that couldn't understand her. She usually doesn't needs me, doesn't shows me her worst and fragile forms when I make a mistake so fortunately, I wasn't the cause.
Whised to be able to run where she is and help her, so I said that I love her like every one million times until she could say something I could get right. Something happened...probably with Jin...she said that was close to his apartment. Should I call him? Yeah... she was a mess.
They never arranged their relationship properly after that time he cut ties with her... yeah happened to be together, happened to find a way to stay in the same room but not like before. She couldn't trust him the same, because he ignored her feelings completely without remorse once.
I didn't...hopefully that wasn't one of the mistakes I made... to not cheat on her... what's wrong with her? I wouldn't.
Even on my concerts, she would kiss me before we got too busy to be together. Would put my ego in the clouds and tell me to seduce my public. Would say about my talent and call me gorgeous so often that my nerves could help me and not stop me on stage.
That idot... I texted him and they expend the night in his apartment to ask her the crimes she committed because he was too furious to care if she was fine or not.
Bb: Love, sorry to scare you that way, I fighted with Jin... and couldn't manage how I felt.
I needed you.
Yg: My pleasure to be of help, but I really got scared, at some point thought you wanted to end our relationship 😅
Bb: Never.
I love you more than you can imagine.
Yg: ❤️🔥🫶😻
Bb: Yesterday I wanted to clean his apartment so he could take it easier.
Yg: yes but never got to tell me about sleeping.
You need a stable schedule.
Bb: Jin told me that I was sleeping when he arrived to his apartment and moved me to his bed.
I freaked out in the middle of the night and he explained why we were sleeping there.
He was tired, and simply stayed on his side of the bed.
I wanted to go home, but he said about sleeping in another room.
Though was not right to kick him out.
Yg: You two shared a bed like before, nothing new.
Love, you know what are my thoughts about us, Jin and Jungkook.
Bb: I undressed his uniform
I undressed a little myself, to sleep comfortably.
Yg: Your "little" is a crime love, you are so beautiful.
Bb: same back to you... I love when you show me "a little".
Yg: Darling... you know what shy I can become
but love that you like what I have. It's yours.
Bb: yes, is perfect for me, used to be a reason to desire you like ... insanely.
I wanted you so badly sometimes that bad ideas crossed my mind.
Yg: I got respect, got your desires becoming words and kisses first...
you really worked hard to not scare me.
I'm calling.
I need your voice, I miss you and those kisses.
🎦 - Yoongi... your uniform... wow.
- Thanks love, how are you... mmm you cried a lot.
🎦 - yes... I was a disaster, Jin was screaming, I wanted to hit him... everything was a mess when I got up.
- So the fight was horrible, he shouted without mercy doesn't it?
🎦- I felt attacked, seriously, I can't manage that level of... that volume.
I hurried to leave his apartment without being able to explain myself. I know that... I did something that probably made him feel frustrated and upset or uncomfortable.
- okay.... what did my terrorist?
🎦 - I kissed him "good night"- she bitted her lip and showed frustration on her face. A kiss... she don't mind kissing, what could be the problem?
- a kiss.... you kissed him voluntarily without him askig for it, is that what you are trying to tell me?
🎦 - yes... I kissed him to demonstrate something... that I was right, that we can't do it... we can't be more than what we are, we are barely hanging there love... I don't know what he wants from me but shouting like an animal over a simple kiss... I saw him gifting those like caramel to girls that... you know how they treated him.
- yes, he didn't loved them, maybe that is why he cares too much now. Remember when we started? We would fight after every step we made to be closer.
🎦 - we always tried to communicate, we barely knew how to understand one another properly and couldn't blow all our efforts shouting the frist thing that crossed our minds...and we...I had to wait so long to be with you, that wasn't nice, to have so little when I wished and dreamed more than I could get.
- sorry... I had a lot of problems to admit that I wanted you as desesperated as you managed to explain it to me. I don't know why he was in such a fouling mode... But don't take it to heart... he probably is concerned and confused... until now you always refused him.
🎦 - was not exactly easy to turn him down, it hurtsmakes damages. But Yoongi, I only did what I thought that was right to do every time... last night ... *this is what you guys want? Then take responsibility* ... those were my thoughts when I kissed him, wasn't trying to enjoy anything or to do anything at all. I pushed all my frustration into that kiss to share the problem. My relationship with you is more important than any experiment or whatever is it... why nobody explain me what is all this about?
- What? They can't fall for you exactly like me?
🎦 - I'm not the only woman in the planet Yoongi.
- To us, you are... we are not that different.
🎦- Oh my goodness... you are like 3 planets different Yoongi. The thing is... if he can't talk, only bark like this morning sorry but I quit.I tried and don't ask me to go further, because is not going to happen now or never.
- Babe... he is confused about your attitude, let him calm down first.
🎦- I will be at home like a good girl and try to not call you every five seconds.
- I miss you a lot too, I will return in a day or two if I can manage.
🎦- you never returned before a week passed.
- I didn't wanted to force myself to overwork and end faster, this is not like my music.
🎦- Yoongi... sorry if I am bringing inconvenient.
- Babe, you are my favorite kind of inconvenience, so call me as much as you want, text me until my phone blows... I will return as soon as possible okay?
🎦- Okay... but I don't want to damage our relationship... so don't go behind pretty girls because, I seriously can't manage that right now.
- It's full of dudes here and I am a good boy.
🎦- I hope so.
- I am... love you
🎦 - must love you like crazy...if not, I don't know what the heck I was doing last night... he could...oh my freaking godness... I should have mental problems to put myself in such a danger.
- Jin isn't a criminal.
🎦 - he is man just like you.
- yes... a man that exactly like me, loves you. You didn't tried to provoke an stranger.
🎦 - doesn't feel like it
- mmm... you surprised me when we varely met.
🎦 - You were a stranger, if you could break something at that time, would be my stupidity... now that I love you like crazy... you can do real damage.
- nobody is here to hurt others
🎦- hope so...
- Trust me a little
🎦- If I didn't, would have returned home with you? Yoongi, no more experiments. This one with Jin and Jungkook is the last horrible idea I would try, ever.
- Don't worry...
🎦- Aish... if I could be a real bitch... this shouldn't be happening.
She hanged up and I called Jin.
📱- She is mental patient, no wonder is married to you.
- Jin... She was a crying mess, try to not shout like a hyena next time.
📱- She dared to tell you the crazy thing she did?
- yes...yes... a kiss... I heard everything about it.
📱- NO... YOU CLEARLY DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE DID!!
- JIN !! I am the fucking husband here, hear me well... she is trying... I can't ask more from her, so put your mess in order. You want this or not?
📱- Do you know how hard was to accept only that kiss? I have done more already, know how it feels like....
I arrived to my apartment late at night to find it the cleanest I have ever seen, my fridge has fresh ingredients, snacks on my table, cold bear, my laundry done... she was sleeping in my sofa like a fucking angel and despite she freaked out founding me sleeping next to her... How... I didn't... and she kissed me like... fucking... if I could.... goodness, she would stay here until you come to take her home.
- Ah... that kind of kiss...
📱- no, it was normal... she was careful to not do... to not have a meaning... it was a kiss, only that... but I... goodness... I dreamed about her taking the initiative so many times that couldn't handle it. I can't control my hormones yet... hours passed already and I could only think that if she does that to someone else...
- but was with you... and she never considered others than me to think badly. I know she probably is trying to understand what the fuck we are trying to achieve... but Jin, you can not start a fight for any little step in your direction.
📱- I know... I couldn't handle it. Could not believe it, if she kissed my cheek or hugged me to be warm... but no she... took the opportunity to slide her tongue inside my mouth to wish me a good night.
- Well... calm down and go talk with her... she freaked out because your reaction, she knew that she was putting oil to the fire, but man... don't treat her like a child... she had plenty of that shit with me don't repeat my mistakes, you used to be her best friend... should know her better than anyone.
📱- I was falling in love like moron, that is what I used to do, not being a real friend.... like the idiot Namjoon believes that I am.
- I'm another idiot to him, so we didn't do more than fight when I arrived to team up with him.
📱- yeah... fortunately those times passed. I will arrange my mess.
- thanks, I would appreciate to not get a call from her crying, like she got notice of my death.
📱- Dammit...
- Hey... it was mistake, she feels better after talking to me and making me promise to not leave her alone when Jungkook's comes around because if you couldn't control yourself, she doesn't trust Jungkook's reaction.
📱- Yeah... he can be impulsive.
- Now go there... explain yourself and beg she will continue trying further or you will have to kill that love of yours... because I have to protect her if she asks me to do it. Do you understand?
📱- Enough I had to endure, to end in this adventure... but I know that you are right... she deserves all the love in this world. I know this not conventional... but I have never been conventional from birth to ask for normalcy now.
- hey we aren't aliens.
📱- sometimes that would make things easier.
- or interesting...
📱- Yoongi, go to sleep please.
- what?... Bye-bye darling...
📱-Yoongi!!
JIN'S P/V:
I revised my room... everything was just as she left it, she slept here.
I overdressed myself, before going to visit her, wanted to show my best aparience. I didn't cared about makeup because I can't manage do it to myself, I combed my hair to not look badly now tgat it's a little longer than before.
I stayed in front of that door... easy fifteen minutes before I had the guts to ring the bell.
- Ahmmm...- she probably did not imagined to find me at the door. She was trying to cover her pijama with the first jacket in sight, one that surely belongs to Yoongi.
- Can we talk?- I asked softly, she opened wide for me and moved inside without a word.
I can tell she cried, I only needed to notice the signs of it on her face to bet on it.
- If you say another thing higher than the other, this conversation will end - she said.
- I want to apologize...
- It's fine...
- Obviously is not, if you have been crying.
- You shouldn't care or worry about what happens to me... I am not your child.
- I don't see you as a child... but I care. Baika, let explain myself... please.
She breathed the perfume remaining in the jacket, becoming small to hide inside it before nodding to me.
- I freaked because you kissed a man that is not your husband and that is dangerous babe.
- Are you dangerous?
- Can be...
- With me?
- No, but don't try to provoke it.
- And that is what I did last night?
- yes... because I wanted any sign that you will let me... be?
- If it was your desire.... why you couldn't just accept it? Why you had to treat me as if I wasn't thinking about the situation we were into?
- So despite the danger you could be into, you kissed me?
- Jin if you dared to attack me when I wanted to stop, then I would defend myself against you... but you fighted the desire to force me and waited enough before leaving me alone.
- I didn't wanted to attack you... but to embrace you, to kiss you more... I don't know... we had sex already... can't control my feelings when you are in my bed, kissing me without mercy, after so much time that I have been around you... sorry if was a little exited about... girl... say something.
- no, I want to hear how you keep going and going to tell me that I blowed your mind with a small kiss.
- babe...
- Jin... you are a whole year older than Yoongi , speak your mind properly... I am not that sensitive... I wanted to spend time with you earlier since you were so nice to give me your bed. But started to shout like I had committed the worst crime and... I got scared.
- scared?
- have a lot of traumas now... can't control when a new one will pop to things more difficult.
- and this is a new one? - she nodded.
-Don't you fight with Yoongi?
- yes, a lot, but he don't talk to me like... that horrible.
- sorry... I always rise my voice to vent my feelings towards the one causing me discomfort.
- I caused you discomfort?
- No... well, it's the first time you were starting something dangerous.
- I wasn't starting anything, it was a kiss.
- that kiss means a lot to me.
- You kissed girls that you don't even feel like loving them... why mine is important to you?
- because I have feelings for you.
- I love Yoongi more than ever.
- I know, but about me... how do you feel?
- weird... I used to love you so much that people thought that you were my lover instead of Yoongi... once you decided that all I thought that was important between us... was nothing.
I can't hate you but don't now how to work over something broken by myself, alone...that's how I feel.
- Never wanted to compete with Yoongi... I new you wanted him before I could feel like I wanted more than a friendship... I don't want to repeat mistakes... can you consider the me from the present?
- I am trying, but the first attempt that I thought it was an achievement that night... hours later became the opposite... I don't want more drama.
- This is not going to become... a problem.
- Jin is going to be complicated, difficult and I can't imagine what more... jealousy I can't handle it, I am the one feeling jealous withoutreason lately... that means that I am not sure of what I share with that person.
- Do you feel that with Yoongi?
- Sometimes, he drives girls insane... but lately Yoongi is not the only reason that makes me feel insecure of myself and my new relationship with you and Jungkook... because I can't call it a friendship anymore.
- things like....
- everything, behave normal like now, we are talking about our things but the net will explode if someone dares to publish a picture of us in the same place.
- mmm... we can't change that.
- no... but we have to endure all kind of bastards saying that I need a man or that I'm a bitch, that sleeping on the bad meaning of that suggestion with all of you not only the one I interested in. And all the drama because I am not Korean but can talk to you, meanwhile they have to leave without hopes to be who I am.
- I never noticed.
- I only know that can't control others, only myself and with that, I got a relationship with Yoongi, I had something with you that can't turn back to be the same... that I can't ignore... that I am scared of going again against all reasoning to be with you and Jungkook, without understanding why you would prefer me than anyone else... because I am blindly trusting Yoongi's idea because I don't have any motive to think that he is mistaken.... I changed a lot after my days in DMZ.
Shit... Yoongi told me, but I didn't wanted to believe him.