Jealousy
[Monsta X Edition]
We dated for two years. Unable to overcome the weariness, we decided to end things. But why does your absence still linger in my mind?
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CC, my childhood dream, came true in my freshman year. We were a famous couple even at school. It's a little embarrassing to say this, but even the professors were talking about how well we matched. Our friends were always jealous of us.
We both had strong egos, so we never made up overnight after a fight. But even when we fought, we always cared for and cared for each other. But even that could get tiring. We couldn't overcome this principle. We broke up in our third year, and our friends knew it wasn't a happy ending, so we never talked about him.
Well, I didn't really feel anything at first. Maybe because my friends were always there for me, I didn't really notice the void. But... every time I see you with another woman, I feel strange.
I hate seeing her with another woman so much. It's been over a month since we broke up... Why am I like this? Am I still harboring feelings for her now?
"Let's go for a drink?"
"also?"
"I helped you with your report yesterday..."
"Who said not to go? Let's go."
I went out for a drink with a friend... Why is it a hunting pojangmacha, friend?
"For you who doesn't even go on blind dates!"
"You're being ridiculous. You just wanted to come."
"It's broken...^^"
A sigh escaped me. I was probably just sitting there, drinking, and chugging along. But then, when I heard a familiar voice, I unconsciously turned my head.
"under...?"
Yoo Ki-hyun, why are you coming out of there...
I saw my ex-boyfriend among the familiar faces. Seeing a few women, I put down my glass.
"What? Why are you like that?"
"Should I kill you? Or spare you?"
My friend, who had only just discovered Yoo Ki-hyun, stared at me with her mouth shut. It's spacious here, and if only we'd sat in the corner... We almost met again at the hunting pojangmacha. I wanted to leave right away, but I'd already ordered food, so leaving felt out of the question.
"Let's eat quickly and go..."
"Yeah...^^"
I drank nonstop to calm my boiling stomach. I felt like I had to be half-conscious to avoid looking at him.
After drinking enough to feel good, I immediately wanted to approach Yoo Ki-hyun. Even though I knew I shouldn't, my eyes kept wandering towards him.
"hey...!"
"...?"
"Are there two of you here?"
"Oh, yes."
Oh, no way...
"Would you like to join us? There are two of us too...!"
"Oh..."
"Okay haha"
I cut off my words and looked at my friend, who had agreed to join us, with a look that seemed to suggest he was leaving. He asked me to just give him a second chance and sat me down at the table. Of all places, I sat not far from Yu Ki-hyun's table...
I tried my best not to turn my head. I felt like I might make eye contact if I wasn't careful. My friend was chatting away with the person I was sitting with, and I just quietly drank my drink and chimed in every once in a while.
"You drink really well, don't you, Miss Yeoju?"
"Oh, not really... anything."
"You drank all three bottles of soju here by yourself, lol"
"oh..."
Honestly, I drank a lot. More than usual. I'm not really drunk yet. I'm just gritted my teeth and holding on. Knowing my addiction, I can see myself kicking the blanket like crazy the next day if I black out, so I've decided to slowly put the glass down.
“Please eat some more. I ordered a lot because I knew you liked it.”
"Ah... okay..."
Ugh... As the alcohol level continues to rise, my mouth starts to get tighter. I try to suppress the laughter that's about to escape, but it's pointless.
"Miss Yeoju, you have a pretty smile, don't you?"
"No..."
"To be honest, at first glance, I was nervous because he seemed a bit cold. But I guess you can't judge a person by their appearance."
Embarrassed, I lowered my head and tried to shove the snacks into my mouth. Then, just as I was losing my wits, the woman who kept flirting with Yoo Ki-hyun began to annoy me. "What's with that girl?"
"Hey, are you okay? Do you want to go soon...?"
My friend, who noticed that I wasn't feeling well, exchanged phone numbers with the people I was with and tried to take me out.
"Oh, Miss Yeoju, can you give me your phone number too?"
"Me...?"
"Yes. I like that one... hehe"
Without thinking, I punched his number into my phone. After a brief greeting, I staggered out of the place, trying to get out of here quickly.
I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm going out like nothing happened, without attracting any aggro. I'm going to make sure Yoo Ki-hyun doesn't look at me.
But I tried to walk without falling, and failed miserably. I tripped over my own foot and ended up hitting my head on the back of the man I was walking with.
"Are you okay? I'll help you..."
"I'll do it."
What the... Yoo Ki-hyun...?
The man's hand, trying to grab me, just hung there in the air. Yoo Ki-hyun pulled me back.
"Who are you...?"
"At least we're closer than that."
"Uh, Yoo Ki-hyun...?"
My arm was briefly held by Yoo Ki-hyun. My friend, who recognized him, looked at me with a thoughtful expression. He said, "I feel like I'm screwed..."
"I don't know about that..."
"Don't pretend you don't know."
"I really don't know..."
“Then why were you looking at me earlier?”
Fuck. I'm so annoyed...
"A, then take me to the female lead. I'm going...^^"
"...? Hey, hey!!"
You rotten bitch. You're throwing this away????
I had to leave the hunting pojangmacha with Yoo Ki-hyun without saying a word. It's the worst, isn't it?
"I know... I'll go... Nin Dgara..."
I fiddled with my flowing long hair, stiffening my swaying body. Perhaps because of the wind, my hair obscured my vision. Perhaps that was a good thing. How could I face him with this mentality?
"You're like that because you drank more than your limit."
"Don't worry... I don't care..."
Yoo Ki-hyun sighed and sat me down on the bench. He then tied my hair neatly with the hair tie he had on his wrist.
What the... why are you still carrying around a hair tie...
Yoo Ki-hyun, who habitually wore a hair tie on his wrist to protect me from the constant loss of my hair ties, was one of the reasons I really liked him.
But it feels strange to see you still wearing that hair tie. It feels good to still have traces of me on you... but it also makes me hate myself. Why do I like this... why...
"Why are you soaking your long hair with food or whatever, and..."
"...If you don't die..."
"Whenever you have nothing to say, you always say that."
I'm so speechless... What am I going to do... Seriously... Huh!
"Okay! You go back. Pretty girls will be waiting, for sure."
"What are you talking about? I just had no choice but to come out. I plan to go home quickly."
"Ah~ See~"
Regardless, I left Yoo Ki-hyun behind and started walking without a plan. I was sweating profusely, afraid I'd blurt out some nonsense while drunk.
"Fall down, then."
"Yeah, I won't fall..."
"I'm going to fall."
As I staggered, he quickly caught me, and I felt his face heat up, perhaps because of the alcohol.
"Oh my..."
"That's right, drink in moderation."
"Oh, don't worry about it!! It's you..."
"Just go home. Don't make me worry... Hey, where are you going!"
"house."
"Your house is not in that direction."
"it's annoying..."
Strangely, my heart feels like it's beating fast. I'm going crazy because I can't run away as I want.
"Are you crazy?"
"what."
"Follow me. I'll take you there."
Seriously, you... You just bit your poor lower lip. I feel so stupid for liking this situation while also hating it.
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[Yoo Ki-hyun's perspective as he watches the female protagonist being hunted]
"...Oh, what are those kids?"
In fact, it was Yoo Ki-hyun who spotted Yeo-ju the moment she entered the pojangmacha. At first, I was taken aback, but I continued to watch her as she desperately tried to avoid me. I couldn't help but feel uneasy, wondering why she'd come here.
I quietly watched the female protagonist being hunted, and strangely, I felt annoyed watching this.
"I know that Yeoju is pretty."
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