That day too, Eunseok
They were affectionate without any care.
In the middle of the study,
When I got up to get water
He followed me quietly and said.
“You look tired today.”
“I have something sorted out for you regarding this issue. Would you like to give it to me?”
A trivial remark.
Minor actions.
But it keeps happening to me.
Another crew member asked.
“But what do the two of you really have?
“I know it’s not true, but it’s a bit… strange.”
I am
I said no with a smile, but
Inside, it's getting worse
I became upset.
Why me?
Why do you keep doing this to me?
Why don't you say anything?
Act like you're interested in the person.
After the study is over,
Eunseok followed me out.
“What are you eating today?”
“Would you like to eat together?”
I am
I stopped walking and turned around.
“Eunseok.”
He looked at me with a surprised face.
It was the first time I called someone by that name.
“…Stop it.”
“What?”
“Talking to you like this, taking care of you, being affectionate.
But there was no word after that.”
I kept talking.
“You said that that day,
From then on, it kept going like this…
“I feel like I’m just joking.”
There was a long silence.
And he said.
"…sorry."
I am at the moment
I couldn't say anything.
"I am,
I wasn't really joking.
Because I am not good at speaking,
I thought I could just show it through my actions first…
He lowered his eyes for a moment
I raised my head again.
"i like you."
At that moment,
Why did he approach me like that?
Why are you only talking to me?
Why did you only laugh at me?
Now I understand everything.
I didn't answer.
No, I couldn't do it.
My heart is beating so fast,
The head was too slow.
That evening,
There was only one thing I remembered.
When he called my name
Those four words I spoke with all my heart.
"i like you."