Fifth week of study.
Among the faces that have become quite familiar now
I was acting unusually cheerful today.
“Did you see the interview review from yesterday? It was hell.”
“When I was looking at my personality, I got my name wrong. My name.”
There was a lot of talk for nothing.
I laughed a lot for no reason.
Strangely enough
I laughed a lot.
While people laugh and move on,
I was making a promise to myself.
It has to look okay.
You have to look like you've got everything organized.
But strangely
My hands kept not working.
As I was turning over the paper, the paper tore.
I opened my laptop and unplugged the cable.
I memorized the mock interview order incorrectly.
Called someone else's name first.
Even though no one seemed to care,
I only knew myself.
It was a complete mess.
Eunseok sat quietly next to me.
Without saying anything,
With that characteristic expressionless look.
I accidentally dropped the ballpoint pen while turning it,
Eunseok raised his head at the sound
Our eyes met.
he is
I was laughing a little.
Raising the corners of your lips slightly.
Just a little bit.
however,
I definitely laughed.
I saw that
He lowered his head as if nothing had happened.
My heart was beating a little strangely.
Why did you laugh?
Because you see I'm a mess?
Or just,
Did you just laugh?
My thoughts kept going round and round.
After studying
I packed my bags quietly.
I kept my words short today.
There were a lot at first,
There was none in the end.
I came out of the building and walked,
I hoped no one would follow me.
however
I heard familiar footsteps behind me.
Before I even turn my head
He said.
“Why were you so out of it today?”
I answered without looking back.
“I’m just a little sleepy.”
I heard him laugh.
I really laughed.
Without a sound,
small.
And he added one more word.
"are you okay.
“It’s fun to have days that are less organized.”
I am
I think I know what you mean,
I didn't even know.
What kind of feelings were contained in those words?
I wasn't sure, but
One thing was certain.
Today I
I pretended like nothing happened,
That person
I was watching it all.