write by Fiber Fragrance
Aren't we all afraid of familiarity in these incredibly happy days? That's right. I'm starting to fear familiarity now. Yoongi's recent collaboration with a solo female singer has left me feeling a strange sense of anxiety. I've never been one to let my emotions control me. But this time, I realized: the moment my emotions dominate, I can't escape the feeling of anxiety.
Our speech became increasingly sensitive, and our mutual trust seemed to be crumbling. I wanted to believe it was all my imagination. But this wasn't an illusion; it was our true situation.
“Lady, please let me talk.”
“Stop talking to me!! Do you know how many days we’ve been dragging on about the same thing?”
"..still, "
“A little!!!”
I screamed. The sound was so loud that it echoed throughout the house. Yoongi squeezed his eyes shut, startling even me. Then I went into the only room in the house and slammed the door shut. Judging by the squeaking noise I heard outside, Yoongi must have gone into the bathroom.
As soon as I entered the room, I immediately sat down with my back to the door. I tried to sort out my complicated thoughts for a moment, but they only became more complicated, and tears seemed to well up in my eyes. I hated myself like this. I hated myself for not knowing what my own feelings or emotions were.
I don't know what's on my mind either, so I'm just acting on my emotions, but you.
How frustrating and difficult it must be for you.
Eventually, I cried silently for a bit there, and then, perhaps from exhaustion, I fell asleep, ironically enough. When I opened my eyes, I couldn't hear a single sound. I couldn't feel any human presence. It felt as if I was the only one in the house.
“..ha… where did he go.”
I went out to the living room just in case, and sure enough, Yoongi wasn't home. In other words, I was now alone in the house. Feeling a little lonely, I went to the computer. With nothing better to do, I figured I'd just work quickly, so I put on my earphones and concentrated on my work.
It was incredibly sunny outside the window. The sunlight was so bright I wanted to close the curtains. How wonderful it would be to have a date on such a bright, sunny day. With a fleeting thought, I turned my head back to the computer.
We fought on a sunny, bright day.