A piece of writing I wrote out of boredom

salvation

A particularly bright morning.
I see you, covered in darkness, as if you haven't slept well.

"Are you awake?"

"I'll prepare breakfast for you, I'm waiting for you."

" ...don't go "

Something so unsettling held me tightly.
You, who yearned for my love, destroyed and ruined everything about me. My precious daily life, even the precious people who cared about me.
At first, I resented you and hated you. I even avoided you.
But it was too late to resent you, I was so immersed in you. I had no choice but to accept you, my love, without even the option to reject you. This was so terrifying that I even prepared to run away. On the night I tried to run away, you held my hand, and I couldn't leave you behind. Perhaps I was addicted to this precarious tension, this fragile, unstable repetition. This chain-like relationship gave me a sense of stability rather than confinement.

"Please don't go..."

You fell asleep again, looking incredibly tired. Perhaps you were afraid I'd leave. I can't even run away anymore. I've chained you myself. How could I possibly think of running away from you now? I've chained you, so please don't abandon me. I'll stay by your side forever...

You were literally my one and only savior who came to ruin me.