nightmare
Kill me, please_
Knock knock -
" ...? "
"Aren't you going home, Park Se-ra?"
"Didn't you go home;;?"
Sarah's expression crumpled.
"...Let's go home. It's raining heavily."
"You're acting weird these days."
"What am I"
"You treated me like livestock when you were young, so don't act like we're family now."
" ...is that what you want to say?"
"No matter how much I act like a piece of shit, I wouldn't treat you like livestock."
"What's wrong with you these days;;?"
"Why are you so upset? What's the problem? Why are you looking at us... Ha... Enough. Let's stop talking."
Sera was furious. Why are you making a fuss? What's the problem? If I were in Park Sera's position, I would have hit that guy.
You're the ones who trampled on me, yet you're still talking about me? Yeah, I didn't do anything wrong either. But don't you think what you did was worse than what I did?
"What can we do now? We can just treat each other like strangers."
Park Se-ra
"Shut up. This is really annoying."
"...Let's go. I thought Mom was coming with us."
Well then, that's right;;
There's one thing I absolutely mustn't do here: expect anything. The moment you expect something, disappointment is inevitable, and it leads to regret.
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Skipping dinner was a daily routine. Even before I possessed this body, eating dinner felt like a luxury. I couldn't eat, and I shouldn't. Even when I did eat dinner in this body, I barely touched it.
I sat in bed, gripped by anxiety. Rainy days were hell for me. I'd rather go to hell.
When it rained, the voices and screams that came vividly to my mind... and the images of that day never left my mind.
"Don't sleep... Don't sleep..."
If I fall asleep tonight, I'll have a terrible dream. Then my body will surely be ruined again.
Sarah trembled as if she had lost her mind. The rain, which grew heavier and heavier, seemed to drive her crazy, and she was terrified of the loud rattling of the windows in the wind and rain.
"Ahh...please"
It felt like something big was going to happen if I opened that window. It felt like someone was knocking on the door from outside, begging for help.
I hate myself for going crazy when it rains. My wish for morning to come quickly never comes true. The slow passage of time is so annoying, it's almost hateful.
Suddenly -
"Sarah, Johnny...? Sarah!!"
Sarah's mother found Sarah sweating and struggling and rushed to her.
"What's wrong? Where does it hurt? Are you okay...?!"
" are you okay... "
"Look at the cold sweat... This isn't going well. Let's go to the hospital, Sarah."
" ...!! No, no. I'm fine... justPlease get out."
" but...! "
" please... "
After seeing Sarah's expression, her mother said she understood and told her to call if anything happened, and then left the room.
" ha... "
Sarah paced back and forth in her room, trying not to fall asleep. Then the door opened again.
"Miss, please have a drink of this."
Sarah drank a glass of iced drink to wake herself up.
After 30 minutes, her eyelids grew heavy. She'd never felt this sleepy on a day like this. Her body grew heavy, and sleepiness hit her so quickly that she finally fell asleep.
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"Why did you kill me?"
flinch
"Joohee, why did you do that?"
" no... "
It was pouring rain. There was thunder and lightning, and the surroundings were dark and damp.
"Why am I the only one dying? Why am I the only one who has to die unjustly?"
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."
Sarah knelt down, trembling, and begged, shedding tears as she apologized.
"You should die too?"
"I'm sorry, Kang-ah..."
My friend's appearance changed into something horrifying. His entire body was covered in wounds and blood, and his body was twisted to the point of being a mere spectacle. He reached out and strangled me.
"Die, die, die, die, die, die, die!!!!!!!!"
Bam!!
"Ugh...ugh...ugh..."
I had a dream, and then a nightmare. As expected, I couldn't escape from this dream.
A sense of crisis emanating from her throat made her frantically scratch at it. Her long fingernails left a wound, and blood flowed down her neck. Her hands and neck were stained with blood... Seeing this, Sarah was struck by a thought she didn't want to remember.
"No... No... I didn't kill him... I said no..."
I felt so suffocated I was going crazy. I wouldn't come back to my senses without a major stimulus. If it's a mental illness, then it's definitely a mental illness. Because I'm crazy.
"Ugh...ugh...no...no...ahhh!!!"
Sarah, who had been pulling out her hair, suddenly turned and approached the desk. She picked up the box cutter she saw. Without a moment's hesitation, she pulled out the cutter blade and aimed it straight at her wrist.
I slashed my wrist like I was going crazy. The pain surged through me, and my mind was no longer focused on my head, but on my wrist. Blood trickled down my hand, dripping onto the floor.
"Ah...ugh..."
Sarah stood there, half-conscious and dazed. Then, the door to Sarah's room swung open violently.
"Park Se-ra, are you crazy...!!!?"
Jimin entered Sarah's room late at night, screaming like a madman. Just as he was about to say something, Jimin was startled by Sarah's appearance and ran towards her.
"Are you crazy?! What are you doing?!!!"
"Ma'am!!! Ma'am, call the doctor quickly!!!"
Sarah took Jimin's hand with trembling hands. Then, with a look of uncertainty, she spoke to Jimin.
"Kill me... please... I beg you..."
Jimin's mouth was agape. It felt like he'd been hit hard on the back of his head. His face was lifeless, his eyes unfocused... The wounds were so raw they seemed to fester. He seemed to have reached his limit, barely holding on.
Most people, when faced with something, ask for help, not for something to give them, but for their survival. But Sarah seems to have given up on everything. Even living.
"Why are you like that... Why are you like that..."
Jimin looked at Sarah while stopping the bleeding.
"Brother, please kill me."
Thud -
My heart skipped a beat. That once proud kid collapsed. He was showing me a side I'd never seen before. What on earth have I been doing?
Childhood memories flash through my mind in an instant, how did we end up like this?
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Sarah..."
Jimin looked at Sarah's wrist and regretted everything.
This time, Jimin apologized. Like someone who had sinned, like Sarah earlier...
"Why is your neck like that..."
"Ugh..."
Everything came crashing down. My world, my heart, my mind...
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It seems like Joo-hee's (Worm-rae's name before she was possessed by the character Sera) past will be revealed in the next episode.
I'm busy going to school now, so it's hard to write🥺
Today I cut the palm tree in half... It's big... lol
Normally I would arrive home at 11pm... I feel like I'm going to die. I have to take a mock exam next week too.
I will try to survive like a zombie without dying ( ˘ ³˘)♥
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(Writing is not easy... I have time to spare... I'm not writing this because I like it... ಥ_ಥ )
Waiting for Friday night~ 🔥