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The dolls are acting_
Knock, knock -
A needle was stuck in Sarah's slender arm. Jimin stayed by Sarah's side as she fell asleep, receiving an IV drip.
"Whew..."
My heart was uneasy. I felt like Sarah would disappear at any moment. With her wrists tightly wrapped in bandages and her thin arms, why had Sarah done so much up until now?
I know it's too late to say this now, but I feel like it's all my fault.
Where did it go wrong...
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People believe only what they see. And that's what they want to believe in the first place. They don't wonder what kind of person they are. They just see what they see, and that's what they want to know...
Truly selfish people are ruining other people.
"Sarah, what nonsense are you talking about?"
"I don't want to go to the same high school as Park Jimin... I want to go to an arts high school..."
"Park Se-ra, you just have to do what your mom tells you to do. Preview? Instead of saying things like that, study more;;!"
"Until when!!!, Until when do I have to do what mom tells me to do...?"
" what? "
"Mom always says, just do what she says..."
"But, you know, this is my life... Stop thinking about making your children achieve what you couldn't!"
mate - !!
Sarah's head turned weakly.
"Are you going through puberty? You've been doing so well until now, so I don't know why you're acting like this. How long do I have to put up with your whining?"
"Have you ever accepted it in the first place?"
Those in front of me aren't my parents. If they really were, would it be okay to act like this? I'm going crazy. At some point, I became their work of art, a puppet.
If I did as my parents told me, I'd be the best parent in the world. But if I acted like they did today... I'd turn into a monster. That cold, frozen expression on their face torments me.
"Say it again."
It looked as if it was going to devour me at any moment. Seeing that expression sent chills down my spine. Without any strength, I was forced to move like a puppet again, without any further resistance.
"Are you going to the same high school as me?"
" ...Yes, of course."
I was a doll.
"Why are you making Mom angry?"
"We're high school students now. How long do we have to live without freedom?"
"Yeah, we're high school students now. So we have to study harder."
"You're such an idiot. You don't even know what you want?"
Sera felt frustrated. Jimin and Sera loved dancing. They became obsessed with it at a dance academy they were forced to attend as children. But their parents always said that art was enough as a hobby.
We didn't always have to find what we wanted to do, because we wouldn't be able to do it anyway.
"High school is really important. So if you just hold on a little longer, you'll be an adult..."
"By then I would have already been ruined.ji. "
"Park Se-ra..!!"
"This house is out of its mind. It's crazy!!"
The world doesn't know that it's crazy, and everyone says I'm crazy.
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High school 1st grade
It was at this moment that I, barely holding on, crumbled. Park Jimin, of course, and those six friends. They had changed.
A girl suddenly appeared and ruined everything. One by one, she left me. Those who had barely managed to hold on to my sanity finally left me alone.
I considered them truly precious friends, but their long-standing friendship quickly and easily gave way to love. Everyone was resentful, and Kim Yeo-ju was the one to blame.
I decided to change, too. I courted the love of six people I considered friends, and I did bad things to Park Jimin, my family, just to get his attention.
I wish I had been worried, told not to do such things, told that they were bad. But all I got in return was indifference and being treated like trash. Everything was compared to Kim Yeo-ju.
I hate being compared to anyone. I'm me, so why should I be compared to others and live up to their standards? Why me?
I'm going crazy. Everything is a mess. Everyone looks at me with disgust. I'm human, just like everyone else, so why am I being treated so differently?
Now, no matter what, I was still acting like a puppet, portraying the image others wanted me to portray. I was forced to live as a puppet with a foul personality, a man-loving person, and a troublemaker.
Anyway, no one is curious about me, because the only people around me are those who want me to fail.
Today too, I become a puppet and perform a play.
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"Hey, why do you keep doing that;;?! "
Jimin grabbed Sarah and asked.
"Why am I doing this? Are you asking because you don't know?"
"You've changed. You weren't like that before!!"
"Right, that's not true. At that time, it was just a play without any intention on my part."
"I don't know exactly why you're doing this, but just stop. Stop harassing the innocent heroine. What did she do wrong!!"
"Then what did I do wrong?"
"You don't know that now, so you're asking?!!"
"Ha... I didn't know you were such a worthless brat. How could you be so retarded..."
" hey "
"I just move as everyone wants. I'm just a puppet, right?"
Dolls don't need human relationships.
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"Park Se-ra, are you really crazy?"
"Mom, you're the one who's crazy. Who told whom they're crazy?!!!"
Pair -
"I guess you've been holding back so much that your liver has popped out of your stomach."
"Go!! I don't want to!!"
Sarah was beaten by her mother that day. She was beaten to death. Her entire spirit was shattered and reduced to dust.
"Now, Sarah. Who should you listen to?"
"It's Mom. My beloved Mom."
With eyes unfocused and a corpse-like appearance, Sarah's mouth moved. She was now a truly perfect doll. I am a doll. A doll. A doll.
"Yes, my daughter. You were in a lot of pain, weren't you? What should I do... Mom will apply some medicine."
There are only crazy people living in my house.
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"Eww!! What the fuck, why me... why me!!"
I'm crazy. I'm crazy. It's not the world, it's me. I can't stand it without going crazy. I want to escape this hellish place. Everything feels like it's squeezing me.
I wrote a diary every day. I wrote about my crazy days. If anyone finds this diary, please, please trash this corner of my house...
"I didn't know I would kill myself."
Sarah laughed hysterically. Then she placed several pills on her palm and stared blankly.
"I don't want to be a doll anymore."
Sarah immediately poured the medicine into her mouth. Ignoring the tears that flowed, she prayed for a peaceful death.
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today
"What about Park Jimin?"
Everyone was puzzled by Jimin's absence from school and lack of contact.
"I see. Park Se-ra didn't come either?" Nam-joon
"If neither of them came, then it's not really something to worry about." Seokjin
"Isn't today that day? But why aren't both of you coming?" Hoseok
"...Nothing will happen, right?" Taehyung
Everyone's expressions hardened. What day were they talking about? What day could it be that had them wearing such complicated expressions?
"Nothing will happen. It has to be that way." Jungkook
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Originally, Sarah's life was a mess, and she couldn't live a human life.
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