Captivated (26) Interlude
I woke up in a cold sweat and sat up in bed. The TV, which I keep on because of my insomnia, blurred the space between me and it. I openly say my parents' situation is fine, but that's not true. Whenever I feel anxious, nightmares like this appear...
I'm afraid of getting close to someone. I've personally experienced that they could suddenly disappear one day. So I've always thought it's better to be alone than to get close to someone and then lose them. Because I think that's better... I've tried to get used to being alone.
So, I'm afraid of getting close to Jeongguk and of approaching him to find out the truth about something.
It's so funny. It's funny how a kid who hasn't known me for very long pretends to know so much about me, and it's funny how he's been slowly figuring me out over the years.
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I got out of bed and headed to the study. I created my own board, like the character connection line I'd seen in Jeon Jungkook's room.
In the research lab, there's Kim Nam-joon in the direct lab, Ji-ho senior under him, and in our lab, Jeong Hoseok and I.
The Osori group consists of sponsor Kim Tae-hyung, executive Park Jimin, former worker Kwak Jin-su, and several others who are currently imprisoned by the police, and me.
And I don't know exactly, but there's a direct research lab connected to the Badger Society somewhere...
How is everything connected?
If this connection is correct, then the sponsorship coming to the direct research lab also comes from the Badger Club...?
There was still so much I didn't know. I had to look into it more. For many reasons, I felt like I absolutely had to go to the hunting festival that was coming up this week. Plus... I was also concerned about Park Jimin, who had suddenly approached me. Has an executive ever been this concerned about a single worker?
Yes, espionage was a bit excessive for my abilities. I'm not the type to get along with people well enough to secretly extract information from them. But I don't want to quit all of a sudden. I feel like I'm finally seeing some clear results, but life is all or nothing! I might as well do something while I'm at it!
When Chief Kim Seok-jin offered me the spy job, I accepted because I wanted to help. I want to do well in both spy work and research.
As soon as I finished my thoughts, my mind felt clearer. I took a light shower to wash off the cold sweat and went straight to work at the lab.
. . .
The truth is, I'm anxious. I'm scared. I hate being alone. I tried hard not to let those feelings show... It's funny how I let those little snakes find out... It's so uncharacteristic of me. Today, all day long, I couldn't get Jungkook out of my head while working.
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The next episode is a bit important, so I'll prepare it well and bring it to you...^^;;
