5. Day n of ending a relationship, after a long time -
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It's been a while since the female protagonist's love story was published, and now a story about Jeongguk's love story has come up.
"Hey, did you see the article? Jeon Jungkook's relationship."
"I saw it"
"..what, you look fine"
"Just... what else are you worried about here? I've done enough, so that's enough."
"Ugh, tsk tsk"
The female protagonist, who didn't pay attention to the woman's clicking of her tongue and took a sip of her drink, thought about what I said while feeling the bitter taste lingering on the tip of her tongue.
Yes, it's true that we've done enough. Even though it was only a one-month contract relationship, we were in love and had a hard time for so long. But we've also gotten a lot better.
I wonder if all the time we spent crying every night was in vain, or if time really does heal, but after so much time had passed without us being able to see each other, it didn't hurt so much.
Now, we must truly overcome these pains and move forward. So that we don't fall apart again.
"So what the heck are you talking about, friends?"
"What the hell are you talking about...Jungkook's a good person. He can be my drinking buddy and all... Anyway."
"Hey, this is beyond cool, it's just a bunch of different things."
"Cool, I'll listen to it as a friend."
Eventually, they were able to think of each other as friends, call each other by name, and be together.
Because we are both good people to each other.
Of course, the female lead's personality also played a part. Even though they were good friends, the man spoke in a way that made it hard to tell if what he said was true or not.
And it was equally impossible to know the state of mind of the person who accepted the proposal.
"Hey..but Seokjin...I heard he came to Korea this time."
"huh..."
"No contact whatsoever?"
"We were in contact occasionally... and are we really that close to each other?"
"You said you were going to be friends with Jeon Jungkook, but you didn't stay friends with Kim Seokjin?"
"No, it's just... how could I possibly do that?"
"You still haven't gotten over your habit of being scared."
"........."
Kim Seok-jin. He's Yeo-ju's ex-boyfriend. He was the kind of person she even considered marrying... but as you can see from the current situation, Seok-jin and Yeo-ju didn't break up on good terms.
"ha...."
Thinking back on that moment, I feel suffocated. The cold air filling my lungs feels even more chilling.
'Are we really in love..?'
'...Seokjin, I'm so scared that a breakup is coming. It's not that I don't love you... It's that I'm forgetting you, that it's growing cold. If all of this isn't real, then how can I...'
'Lady, tell me you love me. Can you say that right now? No.'
'.........'
'....Now I'm tired... I'm scared because you're so afraid and don't even look at me. I feel like we're really going to grow apart.
The afterimage of Seokjin that day becomes deeper.
The sight of Seok speaking with a wounded face and a weary voice as if crying, and his words, remain as an unforgettable and indelible dagger to the female protagonist.
It was a truly unforgettable and happy memory, but at the same time, it was a memory that left me with regret and pain.
The female protagonist grew up without ever receiving proper love, saying she didn't know what true love was.
Her parents divorced when she was very young, and she lived with her mother, but her mother, who foolishly couldn't forget her philandering ex-husband whom she loved to death, cried silently alone every night, and Yeo-ju had to grow up seeing such things.
As I grew up, the only person who embraced me when I was afraid of the name love was Kim Seok-jin.
Watching Seokjin helped me heal myself and taught me how to live with others. While I loved Seokjin, he was also like the heroine's idol.
But as they say, habits die hard, and even though Yeo-ju was in front of Seok-jin who looked at her with love every day, she complained, saying that she didn't know if she was worthy of being loved and what she could do.
And... the one who was hurt by my self-destructive and self-flagellating behavior was Seokjin.
The person who only looked at me and loved me and held me in his arms, but even at that last moment, the female protagonist was unable to say a word of love and gave up after that.
Let's keep our relationship short.. The other person will get tired of seeing me, and I'm the type of person who gets scared of something as trivial as love.
It was just like her own complex, and because of that, the female protagonist was isolated and alone.
Now that much time has passed, it's true that Seokjin and I still exchange greetings occasionally and remain friends. It's just that the memory of hurting him still lingers.
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In a quiet bar, the female protagonist, who always drinks moderately, is for some reason completely drunk today and is lying down.
Someone appeared before the heroine. It was the face she had longed to see.
"Uh...hello..."
"My lady... why did you drink so much?"
"Hello, Jeonggu.."
"Huh... Okay, hello, heroine."
When the drunken female lead greeted Jungkook with a lingering voice, Jungkook sighed and reluctantly accepted the greeting.
He came in a hurry because he missed her, but why was this woman so drunk and laughing nonsense? Why was her eyes looking at him so sad? Jungkook couldn't understand.
"I called you out... but what if you get drunk like this by yourself?"
"You have a girlfriend too... Why are you coming out so early when I call you?"
"It doesn't matter, I got dumped."
"....What is that.."
It was sadly true.
Jungkook suppressed his laughter and turned his head away. "No, I'm on my way here after getting dumped by someone..."
When Yeoju contacted him today, suggesting they meet up, Jungkook hurriedly drove to the meeting place as soon as his schedule was over. Then, a call came in the middle of the night. He answered, thinking it was Yeoju, and made a mistake.
I called my girlfriend by her name and of course she dumped me right away.
Because it was a meeting that wasn't sincere, he didn't feel that bad, and instead, he wanted to see the female lead sooner.
Then suddenly I became curious about the female protagonist's feelings.
I couldn't forget you, but I wondered if you really forgot about us back then... But what should I do when you look at me with such sad eyes after a long time...
"Hey, you're too drunk. Let's go home, okay?.."
"....ugh"
After hearing Yeoju's answer, Jeongguk took Yeoju out of the bar less than a few minutes after arriving.
Jeongguk put the female protagonist in the passenger seat and fastened his seatbelt, took off his coat and covered the female protagonist before starting the car.
It had been a long time since I had been on my way to Yeoju's house.
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The house of Yeoju, which he had visited after a long time, was the same cozy place that made Jeongguk feel comfortable. The only things that had changed were Jeongguk and Yeoju.
As soon as he entered the house, he saw Yeojul sitting on the sofa blankly, and suddenly a thought occurred to Jeongguk.
No, what kind of girl would let her boyfriend into her house... and she does the same to other guys...
A fleeting thought crossed his mind, and Jeongguk simply gaped at Yeoju. "Yes, I want to see Yeoju quietly for a long time today."
So let's be a little selfish and stay by Yeoju's side.
"Why are you looking at me with such sore eyes? Why are you looking at me with those eyes, Yeoju?"
"Jeonggu... Am I sad? Is that so.."
"Yeah...you look sad..."
"That's right... I'm sad."
"...why?"
"Ah..ah Jungkook..Junggu, I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."
"Hey lady...!!!!"
Possak -
The female protagonist, who had been repeatedly apologizing to Jeongguk, suddenly slumped forward. Why, when they were both on the sofa, why did she have to lean forward?
Jeongguk, who had stretched out his arms to catch the female protagonist, let out a sigh of relief and looked at the female protagonist in his arms.
If I continued like this, I thought I would feel stern, so before that happened, I put my arm between the female protagonist's thighs, lifted her into a princess-like embrace, and headed to the female protagonist's bedroom.
He laid the female protagonist on the bed, fixed her hair, and continued to look at her without taking his eyes off her. At that moment, tears suddenly flowed from the corners of her eyes.
"Why are you crying, heroine..."
"......."
"..Don't get sick, there's nothing I can do for you."
In the female protagonist's bedroom, Jeong-guk's voice disperses into the air.
Is there anything I can do for you..? I wish I could. I wish you weren't hurting.. Why is there nothing I can do..?
Jungkook, who was touching the sleeping heroine's cheek and stroking her hair, raised his head and looked out the window as the sound grew louder through the slightly open window.
Ah, the rain that the heroine likes. You said you sleep better on rainy days... You said you liked listening to the sound of the rain in my arms...
Jungkook picked up his phone, left a message for his manager, and then carefully lay down next to Yeoju.
Day n of our relationship ending, it's raining for the first time in a while. I'm glad I can use the rain as an excuse to stay by your side longer. And after a long time, I won't be lonely tonight.
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'When I'm with you, I don't even know if I'm your lover'
'.......'
'Are we really in love? I'm tired... I'm tired now, heroine'
The heroine gasped and sat up, drenched in sweat.
I wake up breathing heavily as if I had a scary dream.
Every night, when she had this dream, the heroine was inevitably hurt and in pain. Was it only scary if the genre was horror? For the heroine, this dream was a source of great fear.
That doesn't mean I harbor any regrets about Seokjin. I just hate myself for who I was back then, and for how I still haven't changed.
And whenever she had such dreams, Yeoju would stare out the window silently for minutes, no, dozens of minutes. No matter what the weather or what the outside looked like, she would let go of her aching emotions, and in doing so, she would feel much better.
But I don't think that's important right now.
No, why is he here...
"...and you can handle the cold well..."
It had rained so heavily during the night that Jungkook wondered if that was the reason he hadn't gone home.
It was a bit sad to see Jeongguk sleeping in the corner of the bed he occupied without a single blanket covering him.
I was trying to make Jeongguk lie down properly and cover him with a blanket to keep him warm, when at that moment Jeongguk's eyelids went up and their eyes met.
"uh...."
"......."
The female protagonist, who was embarrassed when their eyes met, covered Jeongguk with the blanket again and sat down on the bed.
And then, right after, Jeongguk's voice is heard.
"My lady... why did you cry..."
I speak to the female protagonist in a voice that is still half-asleep and drunk on haze.
"don't cry.."
"........."
"It hurts so much.. There's nothing I can do.. Yeoju, it just hurts so much.."
As he spoke, sobbing, Jeongguk's eyelids closed again. It must have been something like a long pole.
But the heroine remained frozen, unable to do anything. Even though she saw Jeong-guk's tears flowing down her face, she couldn't even wipe them away.
My chest was aching so much that I felt like I was going to collapse and cry because my emotions were so overwhelming.
Day n of our relationship ending. You're crying because you're in pain, but it's not like you haven't done anything for me. That's why I'm in pain because of you crying.
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