Episode 7. The Last Wish
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From then on, I rekindled my dream of becoming an idol. I auditioned numerous times and practiced singing and dancing whenever I had time. Chanju also introduced me to the world through social media. Thanks to that, I gradually gained fame even before my debut. I had no idea where Lim Ji-heon was or what he was doing. I was definitely more famous than him.
As time passed, I became a high school sophomore. In a short period of time, I received news that my debut had been confirmed, and Im Ji-heon also debuted and appeared on TV. I was somewhat... popular. However, perhaps because of my not-so-good past, there were frequent controversies surrounding school violence. It didn't last long, but I was heavily criticized for a few days. I was content and happy with that, though.misfortuneThis came to me.
Jiiing -
Ji-ee-ee -....
"hello?"
"Are you Seo Chan-ju's friend?"
"That's right... but who are you..?"
"I know Chanju...."
"Can you come to the OO funeral home now...?"
"....?!"
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When I entered the funeral home, it felt like my world had fallen apart.
Why? Why were people I knew crying, and why was Chan-ju in the photos? It was so painful. I hated to admit it, but I knew exactly what was happening, and I couldn't help but cry. I didn't want to admit that I would no longer see the person who helped me through hard times, the person who cheered me on as my number one fan.
"Uh, what is this...?"
"No...?
"Where's Chanju? I have something to talk to Chanju about..."
"Stop messing around with things like this and bring Chanju here quickly....!!!"
"Jimin... Calm down for now..."
"I'm sorry, but it's true...
I'm so embarrassed too.. I can't believe he died suddenly and I'm sad.."
"But how sad you must be...
I know how you feel, so calm down for now...."
"Haaah..., why... why are you only doing this to me... why...!!!"
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It took me a long time to accept the reality and calm down. My brother said Chan-ju had made a bad choice due to stress. I wondered what the stress was, but my brother never told me.
"Tell me, why is that...?"
"He was fine until a few days ago..."
"....I'm sorry.., I can't tell you."
"why?"
"......"
I knew it.
The cause of stressmeThat was because of that.
"....ah..
It's because of me.."
"....No.., it wasn't because of you, so don't blame yourself."
"Other than me, what else is there?
"I'm fine, so tell me in detail why."
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Last year, the day I fought with Lim Ji-heon. Lim Ji-heon, still furious, has been using his acquaintances to harass Chan-ju severely ever since. He visits her every day to vent his anger, swears at her in chatrooms, and physically harms her. Now that he can't be bothered anymore, he's tormented Chan-ju twice as much.
When Im Ji-heon debuted, he allegedly threatened me, who was about to debut, saying things like, "If you don't write about Park Jimin's school violence, you'll die." He could have just written it, but he felt so bad for me that he refused, and Im Ji-heon's acquaintances, enraged by this, beat him to death. Chan-joo, feeling his limits at this point, committed suicide. This is the reason.
I didn't realize Chan-ju was struggling this much. It was just, "He likes me so much. Thank you so much." That was all. I felt so sorry and resentful of Chan-ju for thinking of me before himself and ending up like this. What did I do to cause him such hardship? Those people who had tormented Chan-ju. Everyone who had even slightly touched Chan-ju. I would take them all by my own hand.KillI wanted to.
"....Park Jimin, are you okay..?"
"That's why I told you not to listen..."
"Where are those X-men?"
"uh...?"
"Where are those bastards who bullied Chan-ju? Where is Im Ji-heon and what is he doing now? You're not laughing and broadcasting while someone dies, are you? I can't stand it. I'll just kill those bastards and then die too."
"Jimin..."
"Where are the guys who killed Chanju and what are they doing...!!!"
"Don't do this, please... Calm down, Jimin...!
If you do this, you won't be an idol or anything. You have to keep the promise you made to Chanju.."
"......"
"I... I'm worried that you'll have a hard time with this, so I'm not sure if I should give it to you or not.
I was worried..."
"It was in Chanju's room. When I looked inside, it seemed like it was written for you.
Please come to your senses by reading this.."
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What my brother gave me was just a crumpled piece of paper. My heart raced at the thought that it was a letter from Chanju. I calmed my excitement and opened the crumpled paper. Inside, there was a lot written.
- To my friend Jimin.
Honestly, I don't even know why I'm writing this.. haha
I don't even know what this is... it just feels a bit mysterious.
I don't know if you'll see this or not, but chances are you won't, right?
I figured you wouldn't see it, so I'll just write it...
I don't know about you, but I'm being bullied by guys in their 20s right now.
He said the reason was that he was bothering me but I couldn't touch him.
Honestly, I kind of hated you. I felt like I was being bullied for no reason.
I don't want to think like this, but I have to.. I'm sorry, Jimin.
So I'm trying to think that it's not your fault..!
Please understand me... I guess I'm having a hard time these days.
I feel a little weird. I'm definitely rooting for you, but I feel like I don't want to do it.
You're my friend, but I don't feel like we're friends...
I don't want to do this... What should I do? I want to keep being friends with you...
I feel distant. For some reason, I don't want to see your face.
I think I just hate you so much. It hurts so much to be bullied because of you.
It's so funny that I, who did nothing wrong, have to be hit and suffer...
I'm really sorry Jimin... I don't want to think like this, but I keep doing it...
What should I do... I'm scared because I feel tired now.
I want to see you debut, but I don't think I'll be able to...
I want to see you debut and dance and sing, but I don't think I can get there.
I'm sorry Jimin. I wish you would just do what you do when I can't see you.
No matter what happens, don't give up, stay calm and do whatever you want.
To Im Ji-heonBest revengePay him back for everything he did to us.
You and I made a promise... so you'll definitely keep it, right? I believe you will, right?
I wrote this completely roughly, so the context might be a bit weird... but so what... you're not going to see it...
Even from afar, I will definitely support you. This is my last wish.Please debut.
- Jimin's friend, Seo Chan-joo.
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How much Chanju must have hated and resented me. How much he must have resented me. I realized it too late. If I had known even a little sooner, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't have read this letter. Chanju could have seen my debut stage. My heart ached so much. I desperately wanted to grant Chanju's last wish.
I absolutely wanted to debut, perform on stage, and crush Lim Ji-heon, who caused my friend's death, to the bottom. I will. I will grant Chan-ju's wish, no matter what.
This is the most important thing that I and Chanju must keeppromiseThat's why.
Best revengeI will definitely succeed.