I had a fight with my mom.
The atmosphere at home got worse because of me,
Even my father and mother's relationship has deteriorated.
As I was talking, tears started to fall again.
I didn't want to cry, but tears flowed down my cheeks.
I couldn't stop. Eventually, my tear ducts burst open.
I cried in front of my parents.
I don't want to cry... If I cry, I'll be weak, but I need to become stronger
Why am I weak?
Why do I always cry when I fight with my parents?
I hate myself for being like this. I really hate myself for being weak.
I hate myself so much for creating this situation.
And I think I only think of myself
I realized I was a selfish kid.
My head is a mess. I don't want to do anything.
So I postponed today's studying until tomorrow.
I feel uneasy because I put it off.
All the other kids are doing it now
That kid is lying there crying right now
I was getting more and more angry at myself
Today, comfort yourself and think positively.
I can't do it.
I'm really pathetic
Why do we live like this?
Stop talking to yourself and wake up at 5 tomorrow
Let's do the studying we couldn't do today
* This is a diary written by Bora An-gae, who is in the worst mood ever. *