2019.01.02
Your birthday is coming soon.
But your parents and I can only shed tears.
Is it because I said something terrible back then?
Or was it because I came to see you?
2019.01.01
When I woke up in the morning, you were gone.
Where did you go so early in the morning?
When you finally returned home around 9 o'clock, I became worried and asked you.
"Where have you been?"
But you didn't answer.
She stopped at the door and looked at me with sad eyes.
And then he said:
"Baekhyun, I drank alcohol today. But... I'm not drunk at all. In fact, my mind feels so clear. Hehe, maybe I've gotten better at tolerating alcohol? Hmm... Hyun... Hyung..."
"Yeoju, you're drunk. Come on, let's go inside and get some sleep."
The moment I approached you,
My heart sank when you said that.
"Hyuna... Baekhyun, why... why can you see me?"
"…teeth?"
"I... I know everything. I... I know everything..."
「………」
"Where am I now?"
"Why…?"
「………」
「………」
You knew everything.
But it seemed he didn't know what had happened.
I quickly changed my clothes and took you to Baekyeong Hospital.
(In front of the hospital room)
He took a deep breath and, still holding your trembling hand, walked into the room.
There was—
There you were, lying in a hospital bed.
His body had become thin and painfully thin.
You looked at yourself and muttered.
"...Am I alive?"
"……Yeah."
Just then, your mother came into the room.
"Bekhyun...!"
"Um...hello."
You desperately reached out to your mother.
"Mom... I'm right here. I'm right here...!"
But that voice did not reach him.
"Bekhyun...what about those kids?"
"I... I think they'll catch you soon."
I tried to change the subject,
You just stared at your mother's face.
My mother seemed tired,
"I'm here, so please take a rest."
"Well...just for a little while," he said, and left the hospital room.
When the mother leaves,
Tears fell from your eyes.
"Can I... go back to normal?"
「………」
"What happened to me? Tell me... please..."
As I gaze at you,
I gently wiped away the tears that were overflowing.
"You're just weak. I hope you get better soon."
"You're lying. You just lied. Why did you lie? Why...?"
"Yeoju... I... I... I promised to protect you... I..."
She said with tears streaming down her face.
You seemed surprised and reached out to wipe away my tears.
But your hands couldn't touch me.
I cried and told the truth.
** "Yeoju... how can I explain this? Your friend... you probably didn't realize it, but he hated you.
It all started... around two years ago, when you said you lost your umbrella?
Maybe it started back then.
At first I bullied him secretly.
But it looks like someone else did it,
I encouraged the other kids to do the same.
And then... two months ago,
You were thrown onto the road and had an accident."
After listening carefully,
He asked, frowning slightly.
"...And what about those guys?"
"Maybe he ran away?"
He seemed calmer than I expected.
I was a little confused.
But more than that,
You were too pitiful.
Why aren't you angry?
Why don't you rely on me?
Why are you carrying it all alone?
As I was thinking about this,
You were looking at me and smiling.
"But I'm glad Baekhyun has good friends."
Those words brought tears to my eyes again.
I looked down and clenched my hands tightly.
At that moment, I felt a soft touch on my head.
It was your hand.
"Don't worry. I'm sure everything will be fine. Because if Baekhyun is worried about me, then I'm not scared anymore."
"Yeoju... I... I..."
"I love you."
Swallowing that word,
I just took a step closer to you.
"I'm not scared either. I'll definitely find out. I'll reveal everything."
As he said that, he made a gesture of patting your head.
But I didn't feel anything.
--I'm disappointed again.
I shouldn't be disappointed by this.
My chest feels tight.
Even though you're right in front of me,
Why can't I hide these feelings?
It's actually scary.
I'm afraid you won't come back.
I was afraid I'd never be able to hug him again.
I was worried that I wouldn't be able to tell you that I love you...
2019.01.02
"Yeoju... The truth is, I've liked you for a long time."
"So please... come back to me."