After I had a fight with Seokjin a while ago, I called his friend Hyunsu.
I just contacted him because he is my friend who knows me best... I didn't know it would turn out like this.
After meeting Hyunsu and having a drink to console myself, all I remember is a soft bed, Hyunsu next to me, and Hyunsu's and my clothes strewn across the floor.
At that time, I distanced myself from Hyun-soo because of the memories, and my guilt towards Seok-jin grew day by day.
So, I chose our second anniversary because I wanted him to remember me in the worst possible light. I couldn't help it, because I wanted him to think I ruined a moment that should have been happy with him.
So I wanted to tell you one day. That I didn't mean it back then, that I still love you, and that I'm sorry.
I felt sorry for Hyunsu, too, so it was hard to ignore his confession after we broke up. But as I spent the four seasons with him, I felt his sincerity, and I fell in love with him too.
But maybe I didn't truly love him? I felt so ashamed of myself for still seeming to harbor feelings for Seokjin. I wished the seat next to him had been empty... Yeah...It was disgusting.
He was right. I shouldn't love him. But... but I couldn't give up on him.
I can't tell if this feeling is regret, guilt, or love, but either way, I feel for him.miss you.
"Seokjin... This isn't right... I know it's wrong... But it's not working well..."
"Can I love you.."
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