Class Society: School
Political point of view
I was born with a congenital illness.
antisocial personality disorder
A personality disorder characterized by a disregard for and violation of the rights of others, repeated lying, and irresponsibility.
Commonly called a psychopath
I first found out when I took a psychological test as a child.
As soon as my parents found out, they locked me in my room.
I trained them thoroughly
Don't show your true self to people
always
Naive, kind, but smart
To become that kind of child
Brainwashing again
Brainwashed
However, it was obviously impossible to completely hide and eliminate the original mental illness.
They didn't try to cure me.
They memonsterI made it into
Ruins of spoon-fed education, brainwashing and a gloomy atmosphere
as soon as
grow.
It's been five years since I started hiding myself.
It was easier to hide than I thought
I hide myself and create another self, and that self makes me feel like it's eating me away.
I always have to be a good kid
Acting and acting again
Hiding myself again and again
I denied my existence again and again.
The friends I made through my acting always told me
"It's so cruel. Don't you care?"
"Isn't that too cold? You're a total robot, a robot."
"You're a little weird"
After hearing this all the time, I no longer care about human relationships.
I decided to study in a way that would satisfy my parents.
The better your grades are, the better, even if it's only for a little while
I can feel affection for my parents
No matter how much I act and act,
It's hard to make a variety of facial expressions like other people.
But these days, facial expressions have become more diverse.
I still don't know how to smile
I wish someone would teach me how to smile
The reason why I laugh is
I said I came out because I was funny or happy
I don't think there's ever been a moment when I was so happy or funny that I laughed out loud.
-Jeongguk's point of view-
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